wheredoigofromhereff

Chapter 1

Mix was walking down the road, she didn't know what to do. She had the
day of work. She didn't have that many friends. One of her really good
friends died right in front of her eyes. They were driving down a road,
and the a truck hit them. Her friend died, but she got a way with some
broken bones. The friends she was together with was her best friend,
Nicky's, girlfriend. It was like he blamed her for killing his
girlfriend. It was like he hated her. She hadn't see or heard from him
the last 5 month or so, it was 6 months since his girlfriend died. He
had his job, but still! B4 he used to call her once a week that lest,
but now, well you know what happened.
Mix walked down a road, and road she knew REALLY well, it was the road
down to Nicky's football club. She had spend a lot of time down there
together with Nicky. They had known each other since he
was..........what have he been? 8? 9? Something like that. She had been
and still is 2 years younger than him.
When Mix walked by the football club, she thought she would go in a
look. She walked over and looked at some boys who was playing football.
"Mix?" She heard someone ask. She looked over to the plays where the
voice came from.
"Hey coach!" She gave him a hug. "Man, I have been here to many times,
is you remember who I am, and I didn't even play football."
"Yeah, but you were with Nicky here, I don't know how many times."
"Yeah, I know." There came a sad look on Mix's face.
"Where's Nicky?"
"I don't know coach, I haven't talked to him since 2 week
after.......you know what happened to Nicky's girlfriend."
"Yeah, I think everybody in Ireland knows, cuz of who her father was and
who her boyfriend were."
"I think you're right."
"You and Nicky haven't talked to each other the last 5-6 months?" She
just shook my head.
"You guys were always together."
"Not anymore."
"Coach!" One of the boys, who was playing football, called.
"Sorry, gotta go. It was nice seeing you again." He gave her a hug.
"Right back at ya." He let go of her and ran over to the boys.
I stood there and looked at the boys play. She had SO many memories from
there. Suddenly something, well more someone got her out of her
thoughts.
"Hey Mix!" She looked a the person who said that. He eyes got big.
"Hey!" Was all she could say.
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
"I just going to asked you the same thing."
"I'm here, cuz I needed to think. You?"
"I didn't have anywhere to go, I have the day off, and I didn't want to
stay at home."
"Mix, I....."
"Don't! You haven't talked to me for 5 months, so why are you know?" She
was getting mad. He hadn't talked to her for so long, and now he was
there and talked to her, just like that.
"I'm sorry!"
"YOU'RE sorry? We were best friends, and then she dies and you stop
talking to me. You blamed ME for her death, just cuz I was in the same
car."
"Mix, I'm really sorry!"
"You better be!"
"Try seeing it from be side. My girlfriend died!"
"Well, my friend died right in front of my eyes, my best friend blamed
ME for the death of her. So I lost 2 friends I one go."
"Mix. I'm really sorry, and I'm trying to make things better again, and
your not really helping me."
"Just forget it! Forget everything! Forget you ever met me, forget we
became friends, forget ME!" She turned around and looked at the boys,
who was playing football, again.
"How can I? Almost every memory I have from my life has you in it."
"YOu should have thought about tha......"
"Michala!" He yelled. "Would you please just try to forgive me?" Mix
didn't say anything. She still didn't look at him. Tear came running
down from her eyes. They had become friends, then she had gotten this
BIG thing for him, but she did show it, cuz at that time he had a thing
going with.......you know who. Then she become friend with Georgina, and
hit her feelings WAY back in side her, then Georgina died, and Nicky
stooped talking to her. Now Nicky was back and tried to make everything
good again. It was just to much. Nicky turned her around, so she faced
him. He saw the tears running down. He put his arms around her. She
wanted to get away, but it just felt so good being together with him
again, she didn't. She just let the tears run.
"I'm sorry Mix. I really am." Nicky whispered.
"I know Nicky!" She whispered back. We sat down and the grass and
talked.

Chapter 2

6 months later.

Nicky and Mix was sitting in there flat. There were still some boxes
they hadn't packed out yet, but they had just moved the last boxes in,
so it wasn't that weird. Mix had talken it ease, cuz she was going to
move in alone until Nicky came, and that was the day b4 this. Mix move
some boxes in and packed the out as good as she could, and then some
more boxes and so on.
"We did it!" Nicky said.
"We sure did." Mix and Nicky had just gotten a flat together. The had
talked about that since Mix was 13 or so, and now they had done it.
"What do you think the press will say?" Mix asked Nicky.
"I don't know, and I don't think I wanna know."
"I can picture it! 'Nicky and his friend moved together! Is there more
that just friend beween them?'"
"No no. 'Westlife Nicky shocked the world. Moved together with a girl'"
"Or they'll somehow get a picture of us kissing in front of this flat,
and write: 'Just friends?'" They started laughing.
"Man, we suck! We can't come up with anything better that. It's a good
think we don't walk for the press." Nicky said will he still was
laughing.
"By the way. What did the others say, when you told tham that we were
moving together, just as friends?"
"2 things.
1: they didn't think it was that good an idea, but they didn't want to
tell me what to do.
2: They don't believe we just friends. They never really did, besides
that time I was together with......and when she......and I didn't talk
to you."
"Why don't they believe it."
"I don't know. I guess we're made for each other or something like
that." Mix let out a little laugh. She wished the were right. After all
this time, she still had a thing for him, but it just wasn't a thing
anymore, she was in love with him, he just didn't know. She had never
told him. Maybe it wasn't that good idea to move in with him, but she
just wanted it so badly, so she did.
Someone knoked on the door. Mix went ot open.
"Hey Lads." She said giving all of the others from Westlife a hug and
let them in.
"Hey Mix, hey Nicky." Kian said.
"Hey!" Nicky said. "Welcome to our falt."
"Thanks. I really like it. It cool!" Mark said.
"Thanks Mark. We like it to." Mix said.
"Hey, talk for yourself." Nicky yelled at her for fun.
"Well then I will!" She yelled back and the both started laughing.
"Sit down, Nicky and I will go get some pizzas, so what do you want?"
As the lads told Mix what they wanted the phone rang.
"I'll get it, Nicky said looking for the phone. "If I could fine it. Oh
here it is. Hello!......oh hey.......that's great, sure
come......ok.....see ya. Bye!" Nicky hung up.
"That was Ronan. He's in the country, so he, Yvonne and Jack is coming
over. That's ok, right?" Nicky looked at Mix.
"Sure. When are they coming?"
"In a hour, but they have eaten, so they'll get some videos and come
over with them."
"Ok, cool. Well, I found out what people want, so if Nicky you'll come
with me, we'll go get the pizzas."
"Sure." They left.
"They are SO blind!" Shane said.
"You are so right!" Kian said.
"Sorry, but who?" Bryan asked.
"Nicky and Mix. The are made of each other, they just don't know it."
Shane explaind.
"Oh, Mix does." Mark said.
"WHAT?" The 3 others asked.
"She's is love with him, and has been the last 6 years or so."
"Man, pure kid." Kian said.
"And Nicky just don't see it." Mark explaind.
"Well that's not so weird. I didn't." Bryan said. The 3 others looked at
him and started laughing.

Chapter 3.

Mix and Nicky came back with the Pizzas. Half an hour later Ronan,
Yvonne and Jack came.
"Hey, nice plays Nicky!" Ronan yelled when Mix let them in.
"Thanks." He yelled back. They came into the living room, where the 4
other were sitting.
"Hey guys!"
"Hey Ronan."
"Mix? Can I talk to you for a sek?" Yvonne asked.
"Sure! Come." They went into Mix bedroom.
"This is my bedroom. Nice huh?"
"Yeah. Well what I need to talk to you about is: WHAT WERE YOU
THINKING?"
"What? What did I think? Or did think is that more it?"
"How could move in with Nicky? How can you live with a guy you're in
love with?"
"I know it wasn't the best thing I could have done, but we have talked
about it for so long, and it's going to me so cool and..........then I
needed to be close to Nicky, if I'm not I feel so bad, and the only
thing I have in my mind is him."
"That's the good think about not being together with the guy all the
time, cuz then you don't know who it's to miss each other."
"Yvonne, he away 10 or 11 months out of the 12 on a year, ok maybe more
but he's not a lot home, it'll be like I live alone, he just lives here
when she's in Dublin."
"You're right there. Why don't you tell him how you feel?"
"I can't Yvonne. If he tells me that he doesn't feel the same way then I
have lost my best friend."
"Well it's your life, I guess we just have to let things be like they
are."
"Thanks."

At the same time in the living room.
"Nicky, WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?" Ronan yelled.
"What?"
"How could you move in together with her? Do you know what the press can
make out of this?"
"Ronan. I don't really care. This has been my and Mix dream for a long
time, and know we have done it, so can't you just stand behind us?"
"Ok, what ever you say." Ronan gave up. If Nicky didn't care about the
press wrote, he didn't care about what anybody thought.
Mix and Yvonne came back in and we put a movie one. It was "The Wedding
Singer". The 2 girls got the guys to say yes. It was one of Mix
favourite. Mix sat half on the floor and half on Nicky. Nicky and Mix
always sat like that.
"Those two have to get together some how. Everybody can see that they
have to get together." Kian whispered to Mark.
"You're right, and anybody can see that Mix is head over heels in love
with Nicky." Mark whispered to him. He nodded.
After that Yvonne put Jack to sleep in Nicky's bed and they saw "I Know
What You Did Last Summer."
"Freddie Prinze Jr. is SOOOOOOO cute!" Mix explained.
"You are so right." Yvonne said.
"What about me?" Ronan asked with a sad look on his face.
"Yeah, yeah. You're cute too." She said. Ronan's face was SO funny that
everyone started laughing.
"I'll go down and buy some more soda anyone wanna come with me?" Bryan
asked.
"Sure!" Shane said and got up.
"I'll come to."
"Me 3."
"I'll just go see if Jack's asleep." Ronan said and walk into Nicky's
room.
"I'll go but the last pizza in the kitchen." Mix said. B4 Nicky and
Yvonne knew anything, they were alone in the living room.
"Nicky, can I talk to you?"
"Sure Yvonne. What's on your mind?"
"Well, what do you think of Mix?"
"What? She's one of my best friends. If I didn't like her, I wouldn't
have moved in with her."
"That's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the other way you
can like a girl. You know the way Ronan liked me, b4 we got married. I
don't think you feel the same way as Ronan feels about me know, but you
know what I mean." He nodded.
"And?" He didn't say anything. He just looked at the movie.
"Do you know what I think?" Yvonne asked him.
"No." He said, but he didn't look any from the tv.
"I think you like her, you just don't want to tell her, cuz your afraid
of falling in love with some one after what happened with........."
"You're right Yvonne!" He interrupted her. "I just don't know what to
do. I really like Mix, but I can't get myself to tell her. I'm afraid. I
loved Georgina, I can't stand it if I also loose Mix. If I tell her,
what if she doesn't feel the same way? Then it's bye, bye to our
friendship."
"You just have to find out what you want the must. A friend or a
girlfriend. I'll go and see why it's taking so long time for Ronan to
see if Jack was asleep or not." She left the room and Mix came in. Nicky
looked at her, �You just have to find out what you want the must. A
friend or a girlfriend.' that ran around in his head. What did he really
want the must. Mix had never been beautiful (pretty but not beautiful),
but know she was the must beautiful girl he had ever seen.
�I know how I feel, but where do I go from here?' He thought to him
self. What he didn't know, was that Mix thought the same thing at the
same time.

Chapter 4

When Nicky and Mix woke up the next morning, the were lying beside each
other in the living room. The other had left late last night, so Nicky
and Mix was to sleepy to go to bed, so they slept on the floor. The
phone rang and Nicky took it.
"Hello!.........oh hey Anton..........Yeah, ok. Tomorrow at 10 a.m. I'll
be there..........GREAT, ok. Bye."
"What was that about?" Mix yelled from the kitchen.
"We are going back on tour again tomorrow." He yelled back from the
living room.
"Already? I thought you had a week of."
"So did I, but no. But we have 2 weeks of in a month."
"Hey cool. That's great! There breakfast, so come and eat."
"Ok." Nicky went out in the kitchen and sat down at the table.
"So, what are you going to do today?" Mix asked.
"I'm going to hang out with some mates, and the we are going to my mom's
and dad's tonight."
"That's right, when do we have to be there?"
"We have to be there at 6 p.m. What's the time?"
"11, why?"
"Duh, I gotta go get dressed. I'm meting with some mates in half an
hour." He got up and gave Mix a kiss on the forehead and ran out of the
room.
"Why do you keep doing this to me?" Mix asked out loud.
Nicky came back in and asked: "Did you say something to me?"
"No, I was just talking to myself."
"Ok." He left the room again.
5 minutes later he was back.
"Bye. See ya at my folks plays tonight." He gave her one more kiss just
on the cheek and ran out of the door, into the car and drove of.
"You're so blind." She said looking after him from the door, where she
was standing. "Why can't you see that you are torturing me? I love you."
The last 3 words she just whispered as she closed the door.

The phone rang.
"Hey, It's Michala."
"Hey Mix, it's Mark."
"Hey Mark, what can I do for you?"
"Well, is Nicky home."
"No, he's out with some mates."
"Oh."
"Is there a problem?"
"Well, I kinda need some new clothes and I wanted to go with Nicky, but
if he already has planed something, then it's to late."
"Yeah, sorry."
"Hey, do you want to come with me?"
"Sure, why not."
"Great. I'll pick you up in half an hour, ok?"
"Yeah, see ya then."
"Yeah, bye." They hung up.
"Go shopping with Mark, that's going to be interesting." She said with a
smile, as she went to get a shower.

Chapter 5

Mix and Mark had fun shopping. Mix got some new clothes too.
"What do you think of this dress?" She asked Mark holding up a blue
summerdress with dark blue and green stripes.
"I like it, go try it on." Mark said and she went over and tried it on.
"Mark would you help me with the zipper?" Mark help her zipping it up
and she turned around.
"WOW! You look great! Nicky have to be REALLY weird not to fall for you
now."
"What?" Mix looked at herself in the mirror.
"I know you're in love with Nicky. I can see it."
"You can read me like a open book, when I'm in love, right?"
"Right. How long time have you liked him?"
"It seems like forever, but I think it has been sins I was 14 or so."
"For 6 years?" She nodded.
"Wow! Why haven't you told him?"
"I couldn't as long as he was with Georgina, and b4 that I did want to,
cuz if he didn't feel the same way, then I friendship would never be the
same, that still the reason."
"I can see what you mean. Well, I think you should buy that dress, have
it on tonight and then he will fool for you for sure." Mark said.
"I think I will."

Back at Mix and Nicky's flat.
"Thanks for a great time Mark."
"No problem hunny, but it should be me thanking you."
"Lets just forget about who has to say thanks, ok?"
"Yeah. By the way. You're sure that I look good in this shirt?" Mark
asked holding up a black shirt.
"Yes. If it wasn't for Nicky, I would be all over you, when you had that
shirt on."
"Thanks, but that goes for you to, when you're in that dress. And the
fact that there's another girl I like."
"Really? Who? Come on tell me."
"Ok, if you'll give me a soda."
"Sure, come on in." Mix unlocked the door, and they went in.
Mark sat down in the sofa in the living room, as Mix got to cokes.
"Ok, tell me."
"It's a girl I met last time I was in the US."
"Cool. Who is she?"
"A normal girl, she lives in the US with her mom. Her name is Marie. She
really sweet and a year older than me."
"Well, well. Are you to older girls?" They both laughed at Mix voice.
"Well, yeah."
"Is there any chances for you?"
"Yeah, I think so."
"Well, good luck."
"Same to you." They talked some more, but the Mark had to go pack, and
Mix had too go to Nicky's folks' plays.

Chapter 6

When Mix arrived at Nicky's folks' plays, Nicky wasn't there yet.
"Hey Mix. Come on in." Nicky's brother said when he opened the door.
"Thanks." Nicky arrived there at 6:15.
"Where have you been Nicky?" His mom asked when she opened the door.
"Here and there. I had something I needed to think about."
"Has it something to do with the girl, who is sitting in the living
room?"
"Who is the girl sitting in the living room?"
"Your new flat mate. You're in love with her, aren't you?"
"I don't know mom. I don't really know anything any more."
"Come!" She gave him a hug. "Just listen to your heart, then it can't go
all wrong."
When Nicky and his mom walked into the living room, Mix looked at Nicky
and stood up. He had never seen her this beautiful. That new dress look
GREAT on her, and with her long brown hair hanging lose.....WOW! He had
never seen her as a beautiful girl, until that day he met her 6 months
ago.
"Hey Mix. New dress? You look really good in it."
"Thanks Nicky." Mix said, but they did talk anymore, cuz then his dad
started talking and his sister came and the whole family was there.

When Nicky and Mix had driven home, they didn't go in.
"Do you want to go for a walk?" Nicky asked.
"Yeah let's." They walked out of down onto the road. It was a bit warm
so it was nice to walk.
"You know that it isn't just the lads anymore, who are saying that we
two should be together." Nicky said.
"Who else?" Mix asked, knowing who else it was.
"Family, Yvonne, Ronan, the press everyone."
"I thought you didn't care about the press."
"I don't, but I care about my family and mates."
"Yeah, I know. I do the same thing."
"Have you ever thought about that it's possibly they are right?"
"Yeah I have. What about you?"
"Many times. Maybe we should, maybe we should get together."
�What? Does he really mean that?' Mix thought. �Is it possible that he's
also in love with me'
"What do you think Mix?" He asked.
She wanted to scream yes, but instead she said: "Only if we really love
each other. We shouldn't be together just because people think we
should."
"So, do you? Are you in love with me?" She looked at him, what should
she say? �Yes, I have loved you the last 6 years?' or �We're just
friends.' She didn't say something for some time.
"No, I didn't think so." He said with a sad look on his face.
"I never said that."
"No you didn't say anything."
"So do you? Do you love me?"
"I don't know.......What I know is that I feel for you, in a way I only
have felt about one other girl b4, and that's......"
"I know who it is, Nicky." They stoped walking and looked at each other.
B4 they knew anything, they were kissing. They let go of each other and
walk home without saying a word, but hand in hand.

Mix woke up next morning around 9. She got up and walked over to Nicky's
room. He wasn't there. She walked out to the kitchen. He wasn't there,
but there was a note from him:

Dear Mix!

I don't really know what happened last night or how you feel about me. I
just know that I meant every word I said. I thought it was best if I
went without saying goodbye, I think we both need to think about last
night.

Your's truly and forever
Nicky.

She read the note some times. Yes it was true.
"He meant it, he does like me or what he does. What am I going to do
now? Where do I go from here?" She asked herself. She knew she loved
him, why didn't she tell him that yesterday? She hated herself for that.

Chapter 7

Nicky called Mix every other day, but they didn't talk about that night
b4 he left. They both wanted to wait till they could talk face to face.
They went around for 3 months not talking about it, but then Nicky
invited her to come to London and met with them, and be with them for
the weekend.
Nicky met her in the airport and took her back to the hotel, where they
were staying, without talking about that night.
"Mix, hunny!" Mark yelled when he saw Mix.
"Mark, babe!" She ran over and gave him a hug.
"Sorry, you call her hunny, and you call him babe, but I remember what
happened that night, so did I miss something?" Nicky asked.
"No Nicky, we're just having fun." Mix said.
"What happened what night?" Mark asked with a funny look on his face.
"Nothing you should worry your pretty little head about." Mix said and
gave Mark a kiss on the cheek. "Come Nicky, lets find my room."
"Ok, come on. You're staying in my room." When they came up to the room
and was about to go in, Shane Kian and Bryan came, and Mix had to say hi
to them. But after that they went in.
"This is my bed, so that will make that yours." Nicky said, putting her
bag down on her bed.
"Ok, thanks. I think I'll take another top on." With that she took of
her top of, and opened her bag to find another one. Her long hair was
lying on her back. Nicky went over to her, removed the hair and started
kissing her back.
"I think someone has thought about that night." Mix said still looking
for a top.
"Yeah. Have you?" He asked.
"Yes, and I found out the same thing as you, well as I think you found
out, since you're kissing my back and neck." Nicky let out a little grin
and turned Mix around and looked in to her eyes.
"What are we going to do?" Mix asked looking down. Nicky lifted her head
and said: "This." and kissed Mix on the mouth.
"Are you ok with that?" Nicky asked. Mix nodded and pulled him close
again, and pressed her lips against his. They stood like that for
sometime, but the Kian came into the room.
"Hey, you go guys!" He yelled.
"Get lost Kian." Nicky yelled standing with his back to Kian. Mix looked
at Kian and smiled. He smiled and walked out of the room as he said: "We
have to met down in the lobby in 10 minutes."
"You didn't have to yelled at him." Mix told Nicky.
"I know, but I finally have you in my arms and then no one is going to
take you away. Now where were we?" He smiled to Mix and she smiled back
and kissed him.
10 minutes later.
"We better go down." Mix said letting go of Nicky.
"You're right. What do you think they others will say when we tell
them?"
"I think Kian already told everyone."
"You're probably right." They went down to the others.

Chapter 8

When the came down, the 3 others had heard about what had happened.
"I told you guys, that you would get together."
"Yeah, you did Shane." Nicky said. "And I don't mind one bit that you
were right." Nicky looked at Mix and gave her a kiss. The 4 other
smiled.

Later that night, in the bar.
Mix was getting some drinks.
"I have never see you that happy the last year and 4 months or so or how
long it has been." Bryan told Nicky.
"That's probably because I haven't. I have only loved one girl this much
b4."
"Have you told Mix that you love her?" Shane asked butting in.
"No, but I'm pretty sure I do."
"Then you should tell her."
"You're right, I'll tell her when she comes back with the drinks."
"Cool, well here you go." In that Mix came back with a drink for Bryan
and Mark.
"Thanks babe." Bryan said.
"Anytime, hunny!" She said. Nicky pulled her out on the dancing floor.
It was Michael Jackson's "Man In The Mirror." Nicky pulled her close to
him.
"I love you Mix." He whispered into her ear.
"I love you too."
"Really?" He asked and looked into her eyes. She nodded.
"I love you sooooo much, I never thought I could love anyone this much
again." He hold her close and kissed her. They stood like that until the
song ended and then they went back to the others. Bryan lifted his glass
and said: "Her's to love, and to the two new-loved-ones. Mix and Nicky."
"To love and Nicky and Mix." They all said, lifted their glasses and
drank.
"I love you." Mix whispered into Nicky ear, and he kissed her once
again.

Later that night Nicky and Mix was sitting up in there room watching a
movie. Nicky sat behind Mix and started kiss her neck.
"Nicky, I'm trying to watching the movie."
"Yeah, and?"
"Never mind." Nicky was working his way from the neck up the cheek. Mix
put her hand in the back of Nicky's head pulled him over to her mouth
and kiss his, for a long time. When they let go of each other, they were
lying down on the bed.
"I never dreamt that this would really happen." Mix whispered.
"That makes two of us." Nicky said. "Mix can I ask you something?"
"Sure thing. Ask away!"
"How long have you liked me, you know this way?"
"Do you really want to know?" Nicky nodded. "Ok, the last 6 years."
"What?"
"Yeah Nicky, since I was 14."
"WOW! Why didn't you tell me?"
"I was afraid of losing you as a friend if you didn't feel the same, and
then I couldn't tell you when you were with Georgina, so that's why. How
long time have you liked me?"
"No as long time as you have, but since I saw you at my old football
club, 8 months ago."
She smiled and said: "I don't care about how long time you felt like
this, I just care about that you feel like that now." She kissed him one
last time b4 they went to sleep.

Chapter 9

Some months later.

Mix picked Nicky up at the airport, and was going to drive him home. He
had just gotten home from a tour and they were REALLY happy to see each
other again, but they were still a bit sad. That day 2 years b4 was that
day where Georgina died.
"I would like to see Georgina, if I could." Nicky told me.
"Sure hunny." Mix drove him over to where she was lying, well of course
under the ground.
"This is something I like to do by myself." Nicky told Mix, as they
neared the place where she was lying.
"Sure, I'll wait her." Mix let him go over there alone. She could see he
was saying something, but not what.
"Georgina, you made me a very happy man, when you were alive. I would
have married you if you hadn't died. Now I feel the same way about Mix.
Yes, I'm going to ask her to marry me. I hope you don't mind, but you
have to remember that no matter who I marry or where I'll live, I'll
always love you." He told a red rose he had in his hand and put it by
her stone.
Nicky whispered: "I love you." and walked over to Mix.
"Mix, I need to ask you something."
"Yeah, what?" He got down on one knee and took a ring from his pocket.
"Well you marry me?" Mix couldn't say anything, she just smiled and
nodded. Nicky put the ring on her finger and stood up.
"I love you SOOO much." He said and kissed her.
"I love you too." Mix said when they let go of each other. They walked
about from where Georgina was lying, and into their new life. They never
forgot Georgina, she would alway have a place in there hearts, but you
can't live in the past, you have to live NOW.