GENTLEMEN'S AGREEMENT Title: Gentlemen's Agreement, 11/16 Author: Jaye (Copyright June 2002) Codes: C/P NC-17 Disclaimer: Star Trek, Voyager and all related characters and concepts are the property of Paramount. No infringement is intended or profit made. This is NC-17 for m/m sex. If you aren't interested (or aren't old enough), don't read it. Archive: Drop me a note first so I know where it's going. Please keep the text (especially the disclaimer) intact. Feedback: Sure but be kind, or at least constructive. E-mail is reader8901@fastmail.fm Summary: An alien royal makes Chakotay an offer he can't refuse. Note: The instrument featured in this chapter is real and played like a clarinet (with the intake at the end, not on top like a metal flute). Slightly AU, P/T never happened and I don't know how canon Chakotay dresses off duty. Also, Tom's 30, Chakotay 39. *************** PART ELEVEN /This is hopeless. Absolutely hopeless./ Tom sprawled on the sofa in his cabin, one long arm stretched across his eyes. He almost didn't recognize the place, it seemed so long since he'd spent any length of time there. It even felt odd to be alone. He didn't particularly want to be in his quarters now, but it was only 1900 and he wasn't due to meet Chakotay until later. Dinner had not been a rousing success. Harry had pestered him for information on the gift, and interrogated him for more details about yesterday's encounter with Nedal. Tom suspected that Harry---or someone less naive---had noticed there was more going on than the official reports revealed. Normally the wisecracking Lieutenant would have been in his glory, taunting Harry with hints, dropping clues that no one would be able to unravel. But not this time. He carefully guarded Chakotay's privacy and his own. Harry didn't get a crumb to nibble on, even if he was Tom's best friend. The Lieutenant also continued to behave circumspectly in public, treating the First Officer with the bantering blend of respect and friendship they'd developed after years of serving together. Somewhere along the line this pseudo-relationship had become extremely important to Tom. Too important. That disturbing thought sent the slim body to its feet, to restlessly pace the confines of its domain. Golden brows drew together in concentration as Tom considered his problem. Bottom line, he was afraid of Chakotay. In many ways, on a myriad of levels. His beautiful, wise, witty, strong, sincere, sexy Titan was nothing like the people he usually took to bed. Despite that, the older man felt so right in his arms. His Titan was indeed a creature of fire, and Tom felt he was becoming a moth to the many flames revealed in the dark eyes. The sparks of amusement and even annoyance, the smoky embers waiting to be kindled into desire, the compassion and caring that reached out like a hearth fire to wrap Tom in warmth, the holocaust of passion that threatened to overwhelm his body and soul. He sensed that with very little effort Chakotay could become the first real love of Tom's life. The older man had the potential to become his everything: colleague, confidant, buddy, playmate, lover, lifemate, husband---the very center of his existence. And that scared the shit out of Tom. His mental ramblings and physical meanderings had brought the tall figure to a table. Slightly wild blue eyes fell upon a picture there, set in an antique frame. He lifted the object and stared at the images, an impromptu portrait of a perfect Starfleet family. Tom focused on a particular face, the lasting image of the single most influential person in his life. The one family member who had shaped his perceptions of love so profoundly that they compelled his relationship decisions to this day. Miriam Paris. His mother. One finger stroked over the beautiful blonde's face. Long before this particular picture was taken Tom had learned to read those smiling cerulean eyes. To see the shadows that lay within their depths, hidden behind the façade of satisfied wife. It matched each Paris child's mask of happy son or daughter. Make no mistake, Tom loved the woman dearly. She had filled his childhood with light and laughter and maternal affection, giving his memories a soft-focus sheen of feeling cherished. But he couldn't respect her. Not one single bit. And he was never free of the fear that he was truly his mother's son. Miriam Paris was in love with her husband, Owen. And while she wasn't blinded by the emotion, she was weakened by it. The intelligent, dynamic woman of strong convictions disappeared when the Admiral walked in the door. She became a shadow, without will or even thought of her own. Not because she feared Owen, but because she loved him. Over the course of Tom's life he had figured out that in Miriam's mind and heart love translated to sublimation, submission, the denial of her very essence in the need to please her mate. She tolerated Owen's multitude of casual affairs with subordinates at the office. The brittle, back-stabbing jocularity of every Starfleet function she attended as a glittering trophy on her husband's arm. The strict dichotomy between the Admiral's public and private faces. It was this last discovery that had driven Tom to avoid all but the most shallow of romantic ties in his own life. When the Paris son was very young, the Admiral was a looming, but fairly benevolent presence in his life. He was not the best of fathers, but balanced stern lectures on duty and legacy with games of catch and spur-of-the-moment shuttle rides. But when Owen Paris returned from his torture at Cardassian hands, he was a changed man. His personality behind closed doors had lost all of its leavening, becoming a flat and painful burden on those who called him kin. Tom's father turned into a martinet, critical of anything and everything around him. Especially his children, who were never smart, strong, dutiful or respectful enough to earn the slightest praise. His attitudes and opinions had become harsh and abrasive to Tom's fragile adolescent ego. And Miriam did nothing. Despite the verbal and emotional abuse, she never raised her voice or a finger to stop the Admiral's diatribes. She even accepted her own tongue-lashings about the perfect Starfleet wife---and why she wasn't one. And by her own words to her confused and frightened children, she proved that she kept silent not out of fear, but love. Love allowed her to accept the harsh man Owen had become. Love held her at his side when anyone else would have walked away, or at least delivered an ultimatum that would have put him into counseling. Love allowed her to sit idly by while her own offspring struggled to retain the smallest amount of self-esteem. Love even enabled her to turn her back and deny her only son's very existence when the great Admiral Owen Paris declared him dead in the family's eyes. Tom clenched the picture frame in a trembling hand as he breathed, deep and slow, forcing the emotions back into the locked drawer in his mind. Tom knew he shared many things with his mother: looks, build, coloring, talent, temperament. And he also suspected that he shared that innate vulnerability to love. It was all too easy to picture himself falling into the same slavish pattern of behavior. He was unable to trust himself so he could never trust another. The penalty for being wrong was simply too high. So he played with tiny emotions, struck matches of passion that were fairly self-contained and quickly extinguished. And if his ego was affected by them it was the merest twinge of a singed fingertip. He did not want the pain of a grand passion on his soul, which could leave scorched-earth scars on his heart and his hard-won self-reliance in ashes. For all his footloose and fancy-free exterior Tom was a very careful man. He chose partners who could never force him to feel more than was comfortable. His lovers were as casual as himself, ready for a quick fuck or a short fling in the name of fun. Tom always had to be the one in charge, always ready to walk away without a glance back. He had to hold that position of strength with both hands, lest he lose his very soul to someone else's keeping. Though most of his affairs were with women, Tom knew that at heart he was most attracted to men. So he had set very strict rules for himself for getting involved with one, however briefly. And part of those rules translated to always being on top, since that was the obvious position of superiority. When the time came for passion Tom Paris always took---he would never be taken because he refused to give. This was the ultimate boundary in his own mind, a line that was never crossed. It kept his heart and soul safe. It also provided a measure of protection when the romance inevitably ended. He could honestly say that in *his* mind he and his partner had never really joined. Neither body nor soul. In this way he could prove that the relationship was never truly intimate. And no one could make demands on Tom because he'd never shared enough of himself to let them think he was theirs. And so he'd lived his life in safe but shallow pleasure until this week. Chakotay had blazed across his emotional landscape, becoming overnight a teasing friend, a wonderfully responsive lover, a sensual creature who radiated desire and burned with an unparalleled fire of passion. Tom feared the power the Maquis Warrior could wrest from his own soul. The only thing that kept him returning to the holodeck was the knowledge that Chakotay had already agreed to Tom's conditions. And Chakotay was first and foremost an honorable man. That made him safe, at least for one week; someone who was willing to trust Tom completely but make no demands in return. /At least, until that strange conversation this morning./ Chakotay may not be expecting things from Tom, but he *was* starting to hold back the delights of his personality. Too easily that could translate into ending their affair before its time. And *that* Tom would not tolerate. He had been promised a week of glorious fucking, with no risk and no strings. Tom may refuse to let feelings enter the equation, but he was not about to be denied the luxuriant bounty that was his Titan, not when there were only a few days left. Tom was determined to have all that Chakotay had offered so freely but now was attempting to withhold from their joining. All the warmth and wit and desire was Tom's due, his just reward for entering into this strange and unsettling agreement. He would break down the wall that kept from him the fullness of the older man's participation. Blue eyes narrowed thoughtfully as Tom considered his strategy. He would continue in the same vein as yesterday, testing Chakotay's physical limits to demolish the emotional barrier his lover had thrown up upon waking. Even if Tom himself couldn't resist being seduced when he touched Chakotay, the pleasure fully compensated for the loss of control. And the toys would help to ensure his own emotions were safely in check. /Yes, that's the plan./ His smile was very feline as he checked the chronometer. 1930. "Computer, location of Commander Chakotay." "Commander Chakotay is in Holodeck One." /Perfect. I'll show up more than a little early. Put him off-balance before he's ready for me./ Placing the photo back with a determined click, Tom left to surprise his Titan. *************** The blond stepped through the holodeck doors and was surprised to find himself in the courtyard. The sky was the deepening blue of twilight, and the air held a refreshing hint of coolness. He quickly noted the corner he was standing in had been transformed from the dining area of a few nights ago. Now it was a patch of grass, so soft in appearance he slipped off his shoes and sank his toes into the yielding comfort of the turf. A grouping of trees and flowers obstructed his view, so he edged around a waxy-leafed, sweet-blossomed bush to see if there were any other changes to the scene. He paused as he caught a glimpse of Chakotay, seated on the edge of the fountain in the nearest corner. His profile was to Tom as he stared into the shadowed depths of the water. For long moments he simply watched his lover, absorbing Chakotay's and the evening's stillness. He was about to speak, to alert Chakotay to his presence, when he caught the flash of movement. And then his cunning plan disappeared in a puff of smoke. Chakotay had shifted to put his back to the fountain as he lifted an object from his lap. He brought a delicate wooden flute to his lips, closed his eyes and after a beat of silence, began to play. For a moment Tom didn't hear the music as his eyes caressed the musician, square-tipped fingers moving on the six-holed woodwind, body seated straight but relaxed. The face serene as focus turned inward, to the heart and soul and spirit of creation. The sound was...natural, somewhere between the rush of wind and the liquid call of a bird. It had a hint of echo to it, a softness and mellowness that soothed the body and mind. Tom could only think of it as the tree spirit's lingering presence, rounding and deepening the notes as they flowed through its lovingly crafted legacy. It was beautiful. Tom closed his own eyes and let the music take him. In his imagination a scene unfolded: a vast lake at dawn, the mist rising from nearly still waters. Trees hid the forest oasis from prying eyes, their roots drinking deep the life-giving liquid and branches stretching over the edge, shading the shallows. The pool was cradled in the laps of mountains covered in green, snow softening the rocks rising above the timberline. A heron glided above its own reflection, the daps of its snowy wingtips sending ripples expanding, circle upon circle as it crossed the lake. Even when the surface was still a faint current moved beneath. The wellspring of the water's source flowed in as the excess of the ever-rising fluid left its home to trickle and skip over stones on its way along a furrow carved through grass- and tree-lined banks, until it disappeared into the fog-shrouded landscape. The flute brought Tom all these things in its haunting melody, becoming the chatter of the brook, the hush of the mist, the lift of wind beneath the bird's wings, the sibilant whisper of the trees as their leaves touched in communion with their neighbors. Echoed in his own soul was the wonder of nature spread out beneath the distant peaks, the mystery of earth and light and wind and water. They all wove their way into Tom's mind, carried on the woody notes of music. And then the song ended. Tom blinked back to awareness to see Chakotay lower the pipe from his lips to stare at the slender length of wood. Bronze fingers stroked the holes and lightly played with a length of twine wrapped near the top of the instrument. It seemed to bind into place a small carving, unidentifiable at this distance. "That was beautiful," Tom said softly, stepping from his hiding place. Chakotay looked up, the serenity of the evening in his quiet voice. "Thank you," was all he said. The dark eyes were enigmatic as they regarded the newcomer. Tom approached to take a seat next to the solid figure on the fountain's rim. His fingers itched to feel the wooden flute. "May I?" he asked, indicating the instrument with one finger. Chakotay silently handed over the piece. Tom ran his hands against the satiny surface of the pipe, fitting his fingertips over the holes, brushing his thumb along the length of wood. He could now see that the figurine was a resting wolf. The detail was exquisite; the thatching of fur and the wise eyes giving the totem life and personality. "This is impressive. Did you make it?" "Yes," Chakotay said, trying to keep his gaze off the long pale digits. "I carved it on New Earth. It's not a tradition I'd ever bothered with as a child, but one of the trees on that planet reminded me so much of cedar...I had to try to craft a courting flute." "You did a wonderful job, both carving and playing, Chak," the younger man said, handing the instrument back with reluctance. "What was the name of that melody?" The full lips smiled softly. "It doesn't have a name. It wasn't even a piece of music, actually." He ran a fingertip lightly over the wolf's back. "Though there are songs written for these flutes, I never took the time to learn them. For most people, playing this instrument is like meditation: the reflection of a mood, a moment. In this case, a memory." Tom's voice was dreamy. "Of a forest lake..." Brown eyes snapped over to bore into blue. "Yes, a place on Dorvan I visited often. How did you know?" "I'm not sure, Chak. I just closed my eyes and I was there." He regarded the older man. "So, this is the complement to the dancing, right?" "Yes, the 'artistic talent to delight the Regent's spirit'." Chakotay abruptly stood and despite the tension evident in his body, reverently placed his flute on a soft cloth draped on a lounge nearby, wrapping it around the instrument and securing it with ties. He perched on one arm of the furniture with a sigh of indeterminate emotion. "You weren't planning to show me this, were you?" Tom said, picking up on his companion's faint air of reserve. "No," Chakotay said, shrugging. "I'm not sure why I even bothered practicing. There doesn't seem to be much point." The hint of melancholy in the velvet tones stirred Tom's alarm. "Why would you say that, Chak? Do you think you're going to lose tomorrow?" "No." The older man leapt to his feet with the emphatic puff of air. "I will *not* let that happen." "Then what's the problem?" A puzzled gaze watched as the powerful figure gracefully resettled next to him. "Well, unless I plan to bleach myself head to toe, I've got my work cut out for me attracting the Regent. And Voyager will pay the price for my failure." Chakotay shook his head. "It's bad enough I've voluntarily become a prostitute. It seems rather ironic that I'm not even a good one." /And even more pathetic that I've fallen in love with my very first customer./ "What are you talking about?" Tom jumped up in shock. "You've been...amazing. Passionate, sexy, alive to the slightest touch. Not to mention incredibly beautiful." He took a few steps and whirled, arms outstretched. "You were made for pleasure." Tom walked back to the other man's side. "Nedal is blind, Chakotay. All he sees is the flash," he indicated his own gold hair, then lightly cupped and tilted the bronzed jaw, "the fool completely misses the fire." He leaned down to claim the lush mouth. Which abruptly moved out of range. Tom blinked at the flatness of the brown eyes as Chakotay leaned back and said quietly, "Lovely compliments, Tom, but actions speak louder than words." Tom's hands dropped and his back stiffened defensively, "What do you mean?" Chakotay wasn't angry, or even upset with Tom. After his reflections of this morning, and the depressing discovery in the Rutali book, he thought he'd managed to come to grips with the situation. But Sisryn's request had pricked at his conscience and confidence, assailing him with doubts about the clarity of his judgement. His resolve was weakened and he now struggled with the question of what was the right thing to do---for his own people as well as the Rutali. Now compounding the unsettled swirling in his gut was Tom's lie. It hurt. Even if the younger man was simply trying to boost his companion's flagging ego---even if he was sincere in his assessment---Tom's behavior suggested otherwise. The fact was that all the pretty words in the worlds couldn't erase the ache in Chakotay's soul. Of knowing that the man he loved could barely stand to look at him when they...had sex. Chakotay couldn't even call it making love in his own mind anymore. It was just too painful. Maybe if he hadn't just finished playing the flute he might have been able to keep playing his role, accepting gratefully whatever Tom chose to give him. But thinking about Dorvan had stirred up thoughts of his parents. Of how much they'd loved one another, how the way they touched each other even in public conveyed those tender feelings. He wondered what *they* would think of his newfound profession. Not much, he guessed. Thoughts of their disappointment sparked his own sense of shame. The added burden to the weight of accepted but unpalatable truths was simply too much. He couldn't live with falsehoods from Tom, even if they were well-intentioned. He rose and moved away from the slender figure, hoping distance would help him resist its lure. "I was looking at the Rutali tome this morning when something occurred to me," he said quietly. "You had been following the chapters exactly, step by step. Until yesterday." The dark eyes watched the color fade, then flush in the ivory cheeks. /Well, now I know. It wasn't a coincidence./ "You completely skipped the sections on face-to-face positions. You jumped right to the toys. You were going to have another session with them tonight, weren't you?" All Tom could do was nod, his eyes looking anywhere but at Chakotay. Chakotay's expression softened and saddened as he offered his partner some reassurance. "That's okay, Tom. It's your call, I told you that from the beginning. Just don't lie to me about your...desires." The blue eyes blazed indignantly. "But I didn't lie, I---" "Please," Chakotay cut the younger man off, exasperated. "I've already said it doesn't matter. So you don't want to look at me when we 'do the deed'. So what? Maybe you need to imagine somebody else to see you through the experience." Chakotay shrugged. "You've probably done me a favor. It's a good point to bring up with Nedal. What's the expression, 'All cats are gray in the dark'?" Tom sagged, his head falling forward into his hands. He felt awful. His own insecurities had hurt Chakotay yet again. This time he'd wounded the gentle soul's pride, and probably his self-esteem as well. He couldn't believe how wrongly Chakotay had interpreted the situation. Though, based on the information the older man had, it was the only explanation that made sense. He closed his eyes, trying to make a decision. /Option One: I walk indignantly out of here and leave Chakotay to fend for himself. Option Two: I take the man at his word, call up some toys and ream his gorgeous ass until he forgets his name, much less this little chat. Option Three: I lie. Option Four: I tell him the truth. Or some of it, at least./ Tom looked up at his lover, noting the soft dark gaze and still form. Chakotay was simply waiting. Now at least Tom knew what had suffocated the burning passion in the liquid eyes. But he was still determined to spark it again. He took a deep breath and straightened. "You're right," Tom began quietly, and caught the briefest flash of...grief?...in the deep brown orbs, "and wrong." He stood and walked back and forth in front of the fountain, feeling the coolness of tile against his bare soles. "I *did* deliberately skip some chapters in the Rutali book." He turned and met Chakotay's eyes, willing his own to communicate his sincerity and regret. "But not for the reason you think. Shit, Chak, I'm sorry. Again. I never thought about how you would feel if you found out. I was just figuring you wouldn't notice." He stepped in front of the shorter man. His hand reached out, hovering a moment trying to choose a destination, then finally rested on one broad shoulder. "I've been avoiding looking at you each time we truly came together, Chakotay. Not because I want someone else, but because I want you. Too much." He squeezed the muscle under his fingers, feeling a faint heat radiating through the cloth. "It's so intense. We just look at each other and I'm on fire. I fall into your eyes and start to forget that it's just a game. And I can't handle it." Tom swallowed and offered a little more. "This...our time together...it can't *mean* anything to me, Chakotay. This is supposed to be a simple week-long fling. No strings. Emotions will just make things messy and awkward and I'll end it before I let that happen. I have to be able to walk away and not look back. I have to go back to my own life. The only way I can live it." He dropped his hand and eyes. "But I never meant to make you feel like you were nothing more than a body to bang. You couldn't be." Tom started to step away when his wrist was caught, cradled in a gentle grip as Chakotay brought the hand up to his lips and brushed a faint kiss across the back. "I understand," was all he said, but the warmth and openness had returned to his eyes. Chakotay accepted Tom's explanation, and empathized with the younger man's desire to avoid any pain at their separation. He was already hurting and they were still together, and wouldn't wish that ache on anyone. Particularly someone he loved. He smiled softly and lowered their hands, retaining the clasp. "Thank you," he said, "for not bolting the second this conversation started. And for helping me to see your point of view. I know how much it cost you to tell me these things." Tom gave an answering smile and decided that thoughts, feelings, and everything else needed to be jettisoned for the rest of the night. "So where do we go from here?" Chakotay lifted his brows and silently agreed to change the subject. He was glad to set his own sorrows and worries aside. "That's up to you, Professor. What's on the agenda for the evening?" Tom used their joined hands to yank Chakotay into his arms. He made his decision, his eyes slitted into a leer. "Sex." He slid his hands down the wide back to the curves of the older man's butt, drawing them closer together. "You need a well-rounded education for this well-rounded ass." He squeezed. "We skipped a few chapters of your book, I believe. It's time to rectify that omission." Chakotay leaned back to search the smoky gaze. "You don't have to do that, Tom." But his spirits lifted at this sign that his siren cared about him, at least a little. "I know. But damn, I want to." Then Tom finally claimed the full rosy lips with a thrill of victory. As the kiss deepened and heated he gave a blissful sigh. /I told you, my Titan, I'd have you back again./ The two men simply stood and kissed, tongues chasing each other in lusty abandon. Chakotay's arms wound around the slender waist, stroking up and down Tom's ribs in rhythm with his sucks at the pink lips. He captured Tom's tongue, holding it delicately between his teeth as he played with the tip, flicking it with his own. Tom started laughing and pulled back, immediately freed by his pearly white captors. He pinched the muscular cheek he'd retained his hold on. "That tickles, you rascal." "I've got to keep my teacher on his toes." Dimples flashed. "Should we adjourn to the bedroom?" "No...I think we've got the perfect mattress right here." He led them to the large patch of grass and swiped his toes across it once more. "Yep, this'll do just fine." Chakotay shook his head and chuckled. "And they call *me* Nature Boy." "As well they should. You go for the real thing. I like my campouts to be holographic." He grinned. "No poison ivy, no bugs, no sunburn." He sobered and searched the dark brown gaze. "Are you okay with this?" "Sure." Chakotay pulled free and crouched, running a palm over the soft but springy turf. It tickled his palms. "At least with this I won't get rug burns." His eyes twinkled at Tom's slack jaw as he cautiously lay down on his back and put his hands behind his head. "Ready when you are." Tom blinked and closed his mouth as he recovered from the shock of Chakotay's matter-of-fact statement. He suddenly wondered where and when his partner had acquired said rug burns. And with whom. Then he looked at the black-haired banquet laid out before him and figured it wasn't worth the time to inquire. "That's your holographic beige sack, isn't it?" he asked as he reviewed the loose outfit hiding the bronzed dream of a body from his eyes. "Yep. So now it's my turn for a fashion show. A striptease to be precise." Chakotay made a show of getting comfortable. And surprisingly, he was. The questions and concerns, in both his professional and personal life, could wait until tomorrow. Now he was about to make love---and yes, he could call it that again---with the man he loved. And actually get to see Tom plunging deep, gifting Chakotay with his essence. /Who would have ever thought that was something I'd look forward to?/ Love certainly changed one's perspective. On many things. Tom moved next to a chair and began to slowly disrobe, very aware of the burning gaze lingering on each inch of skin as it was revealed. He felt his own body flush in response and anticipation. He was taking a risk, he knew. He truly feared getting lost in those dark eyes, of being branded forever by the passion that blazed in them. But this was also a memory he *had* to have, the sight of that handsome face seized in the moment of orgasm, knowing he had driven Chakotay over the edge to completion. Chakotay could feel his pulse rate increase as more and more gold-sprinkled flesh appeared for his visual delectation. All four slender limbs were bare, as well as Tom's lean pale torso. Only the boxers tented with the younger man's erection remained. Then blue laser beams pinned him in place, demanding his unwavering attention as slender hands pushed down remaining garment. He watched Tom's pupils dilate, shoving the blue to a thin rim around twin abysses. Chakotay blinked and remembered to breathe. Then the gilded ivory sculpture approached with stalking slowness, Tom's long cock pointing the way to his target. Chakotay swallowed. Tom felt himself drawn to the fire in the hot cocoa eyes. His Titan was quiet, all teasing gone, as he watched Tom approach. He knelt beside the still-clad body a moment, drawing the bronzed hands down and positioning the dark head. His voice was soft as he instructed, "Part your legs a bit, Chak. I'm going to lie between them." The other man silently complied, then Tom arranged the beige-draped limbs to his satisfaction, spreading them further. He called for the lube, picked it up and settled on top of Chakotay, enjoying the brush of cloth against his naked flesh and the heat rising from the body below. He dropped the tube to one side and shifted, fitting himself into the curves of Chakotay's torso, resting his hands on the broad shoulders. He leaned further up, his mouth hovering an inch above the fullness of its counterpart, his breath teasing. "Computer, delete holographic garments," he said, and descended. Chakotay had already parted his lips in invitation, trying to catch the younger man's exhalations. He closed his eyes and opened his mouth wider, accepting the silky invader as fervently as if they had kissed days ago, not minutes. He felt the grass pricking his back as Tom's weight pressed him deeper into the turf. He moved his hands carefully, threading his fingers through the fair curls, tracing the line of neck, spanning his hands across the long back. He stayed above the waistline, not wanting Tom's instinctive unease to mar this coupling. The tongue beating time against his own suddenly withdrew and he opened his eyes. The sapphire gaze was glittering as Tom paused a moment to look at the man set against the backdrop of greenery. "Oh yes, I must have this," he said, his voice a throaty growl as he descended on the bronzed throat. He breathed in sandalwood and citrus, mixed with the scent of the grass. He licked and sucked his way up and down the column, his tongue swiping below the circlet and body-warmed crystal. He paused to moan as Chakotay's pelvis bucked up into his own in reaction, brushing their groins together. He moved down to explore the muscles of the coppery chest, tasting them and nibbling on the dusky nipples. Chakotay groaned and lifted his upper body into the subtle tugs and soft bites, his head shifting from side to side as Tom teased his skin. His hands clenched on Tom's sides a moment, then drifted forward to play with the hair on the pale belly, his fingertips just brushing the top of his lover's groin. Tom's hips shot forward of their own accord, trying to force the warm hands on his flesh lower, to the full and aching cock that would soon be impossible to ignore. His exhalations were guttural grunts of pleasure as the obliging fingers wandered down to lightly tug at the crisp curls surrounding his shaft. They mapped his groin, running up and down the turgid length, learning the textured pattern of his scrotum. The sensations spiked his desire, and his own hands moved to stroke the soft, soft skin of Chakotay's torso. He rubbed one fingertip along each pebbled nipple, keeping the tiny points erect for his tongue to torment. Then he kissed along the shadows formed by the taut pectorals, tracing between and underneath each section of the powerful chest. His hands shifted down, to run teasingly along the tightly defined abdomen. He flicked his fingernails across the washboard display of muscles, then walked across the satiny belly, fitting a fingertip into the indentation at the center. He felt the warm hands leave his groin to settle around his hips as he lifted himself up to seek his lover's gaze. Chakotay was catching his breath, feeling his groin ever so slightly brush Tom's as his diaphragm expanded on each inhalation. He didn't break the connection to the heated blue gaze, hoping that his trust and passion and aching need were clear to see. He gave a soft moan when Tom's hands stroked along his hips, the thumbs stretching to tease his sac. The powerful form beneath Tom was magnificent, all burnished curves topped with flushed cheeks and burning dark eyes. His desire surged again. He could barely wait to plunge into the satin channel that awaited him. "Draw your legs up a little, Chak, I need to prepare you." His hand trembled slightly as he grabbed and opened the tube of lubricant, slicking the gel across his fingers. Chakotay opened his legs, offering himself to the man whose siren call had captured not only his heart, but his senses. He watched the glistening pale digits disappear behind his straining erection, and felt one finger breach his portal. He relaxed, trusting Tom. Tom felt the body under his hands soften and some of his own tension eased. This time he didn't feel the need to ask if Chakotay trusted him; he could see it in the liquid eyes and welcoming stance. He drank in the vision of his powerful Titan moaning softly under his hands. He carefully stretched the opening to the heated passage, scissoring and burrowing deeper, seeking the sweet spot that would drive his lover wild. The white-hot urgency had abated somewhat for Chakotay, who was basking in the warmth of Tom's regard and the slide of the long fingers making their preparations. His eyes were half-closed and riveted to the handsome face, watching the brows furrow and the gaze unfocus in concentration. Then a lightning bolt---still surprising---jolted his own body into action as his hips jerked, seeking to be further impaled on the dancing invaders. Tom's victorious grin was short-lived as Chakotay started those long, low moans that stoked his own desire. His body started shaking with the need to thrust, to plunge into the depths of the supine man whose velvet voice brushed along his nerves. He quickly pulled out his hand and lifted the carved bronzed legs over his shoulders. "Look at me, Chak." Chakotay opened his eyes fully and met the demanding sapphire gaze, hoping that Tom couldn't read too much in his own. He felt the head of Tom's cock nuzzle between his cheeks, seeking the readied orifice. His breath caught as the solid length slid ever so slowly into him, easing its way through and past the natural resistance. Another moan made its way out of his throat as he tried to relax into the smooth gliding thrust. Tom's control was shaky at best, tested even further when his partner's body opened up to welcome his cock. He held still at the apex of his forward movement, buried in his Titan. He stroked the silky shins draped along his shoulders and chest, then smoothed over the length of the muscular thighs resting against his ribs. His hands moved down to cup the full buttocks and sleek hips, lifting Chakotay's pelvis a little more. His cock pressed deeper, stopping only when the hairs on his groin brushed the other man's cleft. Chakotay's nerves were stretched taut as he waited for Tom to move. Their eyes were still locked together, and he could sense the beat of his lover's pulse through the place of their joining. They seemed to breathe as one, both making small desperate noises. Then, finally, Tom began drawing back. Chakotay tightened his inner muscles a little, gripping, then relaxing as his partner moved forward again. They kept up the unseen choreography for a handful of agonizingly slow strokes. Until Tom growled and plunged. The loss of restraint brought a surge of adrenaline through Tom's veins. He began ramming hard and deep, his hands clenching around his lover's hips to keep the suddenly twisting figure in place. It was almost a fugue state. Nothing existed except the blood-hot walls that caressed his cock, the beauty of the body he thrust into, and the deep brown eyes holding his, scorching him with their passion, warming him with their trust. There was only this moment and the reality of their flesh slamming together. Chakotay groaned, burning with the heat of fullness, and need. His upper body writhed under the relentless pounding, each stroke bringing pleasure and building pressure. His pelvis imprisoned in a fierce grip, he couldn't lift himself higher into Tom's thrusts. He wanted more, even as he felt the slap of balls against his ass. His hands tore at the turf, then lifted to enclose Tom's buttocks. He squeezed as the younger man withdrew almost completely, and pulled with every forward lunge, urging Tom on. Tom was too far gone to worry about the strong fingers burning prints onto his backside. He was at the top of a very high climb, and the dive off the peak was all he lived for. One hand shifted to the small of Chakotay's back, still supporting the heaving body, while the other enclosed the dark cock bobbing with every movement. He felt the precum slicking the steel-silk sex as he pumped furiously. His eyes were glued to Chakotay's face, desperate to see the moment of climax. He prayed it would be soon. The feel of strong fingers wrapped around his penis collided with the messages sent from the nerves deep in his body, where Tom's cock beat against his prostate with every stroke. The sensations burned along his spine, driving toward his brain to burst into a wildfire, raging out of control. His hands loosed their hold on Tom as his body arched into a taut curve, leaving the grass to surge into the air. A deep-throated roar sounded from his throat even as the white-hot fluid of his release spurted, fanning upward to coat Tom's hand and leave flecks of glistening semen on both of their bodies. Tom felt Chakotay's body heave, driving against him in climax. He stared with wild eyes at the beauty stretched out before him, entranced by the regal face transformed in pleasure. Then the world became velvet black streaked with stars as Tom's eyes fluttered closed. He surrendered to his own need, pushing again and again into the silken heat surrounding him. His throat opened in a shout of ecstasy as his seed emptied from his balls, shooting through his cock and into the Chakotay's passage. Tom slumped a little and kissed each silken leg before he moved them off of his shoulders. He carefully lowered them, but was caught unprepared when Chakotay snapped into action. The coppery muscular limbs at waist level suddenly jerked out of his hold and clenched around his torso. The next thing Tom knew his back was on the grass and he was staring into Chakotay's grinning face. His body froze for a moment as he realized that Chakotay was straddling him, but relaxed when he became aware that the older man had somehow kept Tom's softening cock from slipping out. "What the fuck---" he stuttered. "Don't get your syllabus in a twist, Professor, I just wanted a change of scenery." Chakotay gave a dramatic sigh. "And what a lovely view." His eyes mapped the contours of Tom's face and body. Tom rolled his eyes. "You do realize that topping from the bottom does *not* need to be taken literally, don't you?" He brought his own knees up, making his thighs a backrest for his partner. Chakotay gratefully settled against the textured support, careful not to lose their connection. "It's not?" His look of innocent confusion was spoiled when both of them started chuckling. The dark eyes softened as Chakotay shook his head a moment and gave Tom a small smile. "Thank you. I wouldn't have missed this for the world. You've certainly convinced me that you're not imagining someone else." /If only you knew, my Titan. All I can do is hope that when we've ended this I don't start seeing *you* when someone else is in my bed./ Tom drifted into similar morbid thoughts until warm fingers lifted his chin. He saw that the older man's expression had shifted into concern. "Are you all right, Tom?" Tom shook off the temporary melancholy and grinned. "Oh, I'm doing just fine. Especially if this," he indicated Chakotay's position, "means we're going to have another round and *you'll* be doing all the work this time." "Not all of it, surely." Chakotay lifted his hands skyward and stretched, but stopped at the apex and blinked surprise at Tom when he felt a twitch inside him. "Already?" Tom felt himself blushing in embarrassment and shrugged. "What can I say, the view's pretty good down here, as well." Chakotay bowed slightly in acknowledgement. He lowered his arms and lightly began running his fingers through the curls on the pale chest. "I figure you'll wear me out. I need a good night's sleep." He sobered abruptly and dropped his eyes. Tom frowned and shifted under the distracting hands. "Are you worried about tomorrow, Chak?" Chakotay frowned slightly, debating his answer. He really was conflicted about the combat after listening to Sisryn. He knew he had to protect Tom, but what if the Chief Consul was right and defeating Nedal caused a civil war? Could he live with that on his conscience? /It's funny how nobody, including me, seems to doubt I at least have a shot at taking the Regent down. I guess those months battling hand-to-hand with Cardassians pretty much trained me to fight bigger, stronger---and meaner---opponents./ Unfortunately, he didn't feel he could share any of his concerns with Tom. Knowing the younger man's noble spirit, he had no doubts Tom would insist on sacrificing himself to Voyager's cause. And while giving Nedal what and who he wanted would no doubt take them farther through the wormhole, Chakotay couldn't bring himself to put his love into such cruel claws. Especially since he sensed that the Regent expected certain duties that were not in Tom's repertoire. True to his nature Tom would rebel, and likely be destroyed for it. Blue eyes narrowed as Tom noticed the emotions crossing the handsome face above him. He knew that Chakotay had reached a decision when the bronzed features smoothed out and the serenity returned to the dark gaze. "Yes, Tom, I am. I'm going up against a pretty impressive opponent and...there are a lot of repercussions that I wasn't aware of before." He looked down at his own hands lying against the pale skin. "I don't really want anyone to get hurt," he finished softly. The younger man sighed and laid his own hands on top of Chakotay's. "You know somebody always gets hurt when people play power games, Chak." He tightened his grip a little and caught the uncertain eyes. "Just make sure it's not you." Chakotay snorted and freed his hands, gripping the delicate wrists and bringing them to rest on each side of the blond head. "That *is* the general idea." He kissed the tip of the aristocratic nose. "Thanks for the reminder." He was only half-joking. "Anytime," Tom said, acknowledging the end of their chat by grabbing his companion's tempting lower lip between his teeth. He nibbled his prize, working from one end to the other, then released it to begin a sizzling, open-mouthed kiss. Chakotay released Tom's wrists to place his hands on cheeks flushing with renewed desire. He accepted the warm invader in his own mouth, stroking his tongue against it in encouragement. His fingers played with the blond's neatly set ears, ran along the working jaw and down the slim throat. He felt another twitch from Tom's cock. Tom lifted his arms to encircle the strong neck, feeling the brush of the Rutali crystal against his own chest as Chakotay leaned farther forward. He began carding the silky black hair and tickling the sensitive nape. Then he felt the blunt, powerful fingers drift back to his chest and moaned into their kiss, his hips lifting involuntarily as his nipples were teased. Chakotay ran his hands over the curly-haired torso, enjoying the tickling against his palms, which matched the golden filaments rubbing against his scrotum and buttocks. He shifted a little as the rod inside him made itself known once more, filling and stiffening. Pale hands glided down the smooth bronzed back, nerves tingling as they made contact with the soft skin. They languidly slid around to the solid chest and belly, tickling the navel. Tom shifted his hips again and moved his fingers to that tantalizing ass, exploring the rounded muscles and tracing a digit around the place where their bodies connected. This earned him a lungful of hot breath as Chakotay rumbled his approval into their joined mouths. The older man reluctantly broke the kiss. "I think I'd better not be distracted while I figure out how this works." He blushed and smiled down into passion-hazed blue eyes, feeling a rush of tenderness and love fill his chest. He clamped his jaw shut for a moment, holding back dangerous words that had no place in a casual affair. /I love you. I love you,/ his mind chanted with every heartbeat. He ran his hand down the side of Tom's face and leaned up. He shifted on his knees, preparing to move. Tom looked at eyes as ageless and wise as the earth they echoed, but burning with an intensity that stole his breath. *He* was the focus of all that fire, the magnificence that was Chakotay. He would never regret this moment, as the warmth of affection rushed to join the heat of desire pooling in his groin. "Give me your hands, Chak," he said quietly, lifting his own. Chakotay laid his palms over Tom's, quirking his lips as he remembered measuring their fingers in the pool. He felt the slender arms offer support for his own body as he rose up. He felt Tom's length sliding from him, still slick with cum and lube. Before it slipped free, he descended slowly. The supine man groaned, eyelids fluttering. "Shit, Chak," came the throaty comment. Chakotay almost grinned as he rose up again, this time coming down a little faster. He added a wriggle on the way. Tom groaned and jerked his hips up, wringing a gasp from Chakotay's throat as his prostate was hit. The two men's fingers intertwined and their eyes met as they continued to move, Tom rising up to meet Chakotay's descent. Their tempo was slow, savoring the smooth glide of their joining. Tom felt as though his senses were preternaturally alert. He felt every blade of grass beneath his back, the coolness of the air against his flushed skin. The energy flowing between the men, the satin skin brushing against his sides and thighs and pelvis as Chakotay ascended and returned. The pulse of the channel sheathing him, the muscles stretching for his arrival. The aroma of their arousal and earlier release blending with the sweet-spice scent of the man riding him. And most of all, the heat. Of the body surrounding him. Of his own desire. Of the burning eyes of his Titan, Prometheus alight with divine fire. A gift he freely shared with the mortal helpless beneath him. Tom groaned again but couldn't wrench his eyes from the vision. Chakotay felt as though he was absorbing a part of his lover with every movement. And a part of his own soul was traveling across the bridge formed by their locked eyes, drawn into his golden siren to sink beneath the surface of twin sapphire seas. Gazes riveted, they moved together, faster now as the primal demands for completion rose in an undeniable spiral. They each released one hand, Chakotay to caress the porcelain-and-gilt chest, Tom to rub along the length of a muscular leg. He began at the ankle, keeping time with the flexing knee, cupping the burnished thigh. He shifted inward, running the tip of his finger against the head of the dark cock offered to him. Chakotay moaned as he felt the brush of Tom's hand against his throbbing sex. The internal push against his gland was an exquisite pleasure that also urged him toward the explosion of climax. He made more deep sounds of approval as additional fingers arrived to tease his straining shaft and scrape lightly the underside of the crown bathed in precum. He had to resist an urge to thrust forward, keeping to his up-and-down motion but losing a little of his control, twisting his hips more strongly on the descent. Tom thrust up desperately, feeling his ass leave the ground as he braced his feet against the turf for more leverage. He *had* to come, before his whole body burst into flame from the build-up of need. He felt a choked cry wrenched from his belly as the body riding him got more wild in its movements. He stopped playing with Chakotay's cock and gripped it with determination, squeezing and pumping. The friction on his penis finally pushed the older man over the edge. Never losing eye contact with his siren, his mouth dropped open in a shout of pleasure and relief as his climax hit. It squeezed through his body, forcing air out of his lungs and cum from his cock. It literally seized the solid shaft inside him as his muscles tightened in the full-body clench of fulfillment. The muscular sheath around Tom's cock gripped him with moist silken heat. He grabbed Chakotay's hip with his free hand, feeling his face tighten with a primal urge as he thrust fiercely upward and pulled Chakotay's body onto himself. He was pure instinct, driven by eons-old compulsions to bury himself as deeply as he could in his partner. He screamed, loud and long, and finally sank back to the grass, sweaty, replete and depleted. Just in time to catch a rather substantial armful of similarly sated and drained Titan. They finally ended their mutual stare as Chakotay toppled forward. Tom's right nipple hardened instantly as heated pants washed over it. He groaned, this time in frustration. "Shift a little, Chak. There's no way I've got a round three in me." A sweat-beaded forehead rubbed against his collarbone as the older man nodded. He slid his hips up, feeling Tom's spent sex separate with a trickle of semen and lube. He then very carefully rolled off the slender body to lay on his back in the grass. He felt his pulse and breathing slow, and a strange ache of emptiness in his body. "I don't suppose there's any chance of you carrying me over to the pool?" Tom's voice rose hopefully as he found the strength to turn his head to regard his companion. Chakotay chuckled. "I can't even drag myself there." He met the questioning blue eyes with rueful brown. "I must say, Professor, your make-up classes are even more strenuous than your scheduled ones." "Mmmm...and not just on the student." Tom stretched, languidly, and yawned. "I certainly hope you're ready to sleep, 'cause there's no way I'm moving from this spot until tomorrow." "Yes, mission accomplished. You wore me out---heck, I'll be lucky I'm awake by noon tomorrow." Chakotay blinked his vision clear again as his eyelids continued to droop. Tom stirred with concern. "You're kidding, right? You can't face Nedal at less than your best." "Yes, it was just a joke. I'll be fine. We're both off for the next few days, so you don't even have to worry about getting up early." Chakotay summoned up a towel and made a desultory attempt to clean up. He flopped a matching one on Tom's stomach, but it was ignored. The bronzed man shrugged and accessed the bedroom, orienting it so they ended up on the mattress. "It's too bad we can't just be *in* the bed when it appears." Tom dragged himself slug-like across the cover and underneath it. Chakotay settled in, and down to sleep. A sudden thought snapped his eyes open for a moment. "Tom, I'm going to have a few meetings in the morning. So I might not be here when you wake." Tom shifted in small increments, snuggling his way into arms that immediately opened to receive him. "'Sokay. Just be here as I go to sleep." A soft snore soon followed. Chakotay stared at the sleeping siren on his chest, and brushed a quick smiling kiss across the slack pink lips. He closed his eyes. /Tom my love, there isn't anywhere else I'd rather be./ ************************************************************ The Rutali Regent glided through the secret passageway, his ears tuned to any noises announcing potential witnesses. While it was unlikely any of the few other passengers with access were roaming the hidden corridors in the dead of night, he was taking no chances. Nedal moved stealthily around the corners, making his way to the room reserved for tomorrow's bout. He'd accomplished the day's duties in a daze, arranging a combat to settle a territorial dispute between two prides and confirming plans to put to use some of the money currently pouring into the royal coffers. He also outlined the Rutali position on trade and defense issues, the starting points for a summit with a neighboring species set to begin in several months. But whatever task occupied his mind, a small part was set aside to mull over the upcoming confrontation with the Larat. He'd decided to adjust the odds in his favor some time in the afternoon, but was forced to wait until now to implement his plan. He darted inside, and shut the hidden panel with the quietest of clicks. Torches provided the only light, islands of flickering brightness in the large shadowed room. He crossed to a box sitting on a table against one wall, and edged into its torch's radius of illumination. He knew he was alone but couldn't shake the dread of being discovered at his work. Nedal flipped open the lid, revealing a pair of brown gloves thickly tipped with padding. He lifted one and slipped it over his hand, flexing it in the dimness. He tried to unsheathe his claws, but was blocked by the thick guards in the glove's fingertips. He removed the offending accessory and regarded it with narrowed eyes. /So, Sisryn believes she has leveled the playing field./ He snorted as he pulled a slender, pointed tool from the pocket of his robe. /Only someone as naive as my Chief Consul would leave these things unattended. As if any Rutali would allow himself to be de-clawed in battle./ The Regent pushed the sharp probe into the thumb of the glove, twisting it delicately. He maneuvered the tool carefully, pushing the padding away from the center of the leather covering the tip. When the outline of the metal could be clearly seen, he retracted it and sent it into the next finger. He figured his claws would eventually pierce the remaining barrier during the fight. It just had to be timed perfectly so the failure of Sisryn's guards looked like an accident. Nedal's smile was chilling as he finished one glove and began the other. He would teach that arrogant human not to cross the Rutali Regent, and gain a Larat of his own choosing in the bargain. Eventually his task was completed and he laid the gloves to rest, closing the box with a satisfied sigh. He knew that no one else would be examining them before tomorrow's bout. The Chief Consul would no doubt have been fluttering around, but Nedal had arranged for her to be liaison to the members of Voyager's crew scheduled to attend the match. His eyes gave the room one further scan before the Rutali departed for his bed. To dream of victory. As the hidden panel snicked shut once again, a slight figure stirred, emerging from a shadowed corner. The watcher walked over to the table and laid a delicate hand on the box. She stayed there a moment, pondering, then turned and exited, leaving the room once more in silence broken only by the soft crackling of the flames. TBC