My Shadows

My mind is full of Shadows and dark thoughts that few things can brighten. I have been stuck in this place and shadowed hell whole, cased by many things one of which was the loss of the greatest pillars of my sanity. My grandfather, Walter L. Drew, who was grandfather father and friend to me, is about as close to death as you can to get. With out him our family is destroying its self, I just hope that I can survive the shockwave that will fallow his death and funeral.

This page is devoted to me saying the things that I can not make my self say with my voice.

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I have always had extreme loyalty, to friends and those that do things to help me. I have found that this is sometimes one way but that is how things must be forme.

Its amazing how things in ones past can burn so badly, that even the Demons that are long dead can still haunt ones mind and soul. My hidden past will remain that but it burns still.

I have always prided myself on having strong emotional walls, while this protects me it makes relationships a bitch to have. I let them all the way down once and was burned by the first girlfriend I ever had, a major reason to make the walls stronger.

I do not fear the death that will some day take me, but I do fear that I will go insane before I die. I see the possibility of it in me, as I look at my mother�s family I see what could most definitely be true insanity. I hope that it does not flow through the blood lines.