Good morning, angels! This
continues my J&B adaptation of Mary McBride’s novel, “Just One Look.” Since this begins the final arc of the
story, I’ll be posting the next chapter this coming Monday. Hopefully I’ll have the final chapter ready
to post by late next week. Enjoy, and
your feedback is always appreciated! ------------------ Jan
Faceoff
Chapter 18
“Just try to keep taking deeeeep breaths, love……” Jax took his eyes off the road for an instant and glanced over at Brenda anxiously. “Should I pull over?”
“No!” Brenda’s knuckles were white as she gripped armrest in the front seat of Jax’s jeep. “Just keep going…..”
“Maybe if we stopped at a 7-11 and I got you some water or a Coke or something……”
“NO!”
Brenda’s shout made Jax jump a little. She gulped air into her lungs, her chest heaving with the
effort. “I’ll be fine…….just as soon as
we get back to the brownstone…….”
Jax gritted his teeth and then stepped
hard on the accelerator pedal. He wove
through traffic and around a corner. He
smiled and pointed straight ahead as he leaned towards her. “Look, Brenda! We’re almost there! Just
one right turn and then two more blocks and you’ve got it made!”
“Almost there……almost there……” Brenda’s eyes were riveted on the front
windshield as she chanted the comforting mantra. She swallowed hard and her glance flickered towards Jax as she
panted out the words.
“I’m..……so……..sorry…….”
“Hey…..” Jax took his right hand off the steering wheel to cover her
left. “Nothing to be sorry about,
babe.” He quickly put his hand back to
make a sharp right turn and then hit the accelerator again. “Look…….see? We can see your front porch now…….”
Brenda nodded wordlessly, focusing
completely on the familiar brick building, straw wreath, and stone bunnies. By the time Jax swerved into the driveway
and quickly killed the motor, her breathing was becoming slower and shallower.
“OK – everybody out!!” he called
cheerfully. “We’re here!” Before Brenda could say a word, he barreled
out of his side of the jeep, sprinted around the front and then opened her
door. Although she tried to squeak a
protest, Jax ignored her and gathered her into his arms, carrying her briskly
up the front steps.
She buried her face in the familiar
smell of his bomber jacket. “I hate
this.”
“You *hate* this? You hate being in my arms?” Jax rose an eyebrow at her as he stopped at
her front door. “Funny – you sure
didn’t seem to mind it last night,” he added with a chuckle.
“Noooooo, not that, silly,” Brenda
objected weakly. She sighed when Jax
set her on her feet so she could get the key to the front door out of her
purse. “I hate you having to treat me
like some porcelain doll, just because I’m afraid of ……. everything.”
“Welllllll…….” Jax grinned broadly and snatched the key
from her hands before she could place it in the lock. “You just wait till you see how I fall apart when I see a
cockroach, Miss Barrett,” he teased.
The lock clicked open and Jax swung the door wide. “You’re going to have to do some major
bodybuilding so you’ll be able to carry ME to the door!”
Brenda grimaced and then preceded him
through the door. “Would you *stop*
trying to pretend like my phobia is nothing, Jax?” she asked, shaking her
head. “I’m just……..” She sighed and set her keys on the small
table in the entryway. “…….just a
mess…….”
Jax came up behind her, put his hands
on her shoulders, and turned her to face him swiftly. “A mess that I happen to love more than anyone or anything else
in the whole world,” he whispered huskily.
He captured her mouth with hungry urgency to punctuate his point, then
pulled back and stared deeply into her eyes while cupping her face in his
hands. “I told you last night,
Brenda. I’m *not* going to run out on
you just because of the agoraphobia.”
His thumb tenderly strayed over to stroke her quivering lower lip. “I’ll never leave you.”
Her chest shuddered with the breath
she took. “I think……” She placed her hands over his to pull out of
his embrace slightly. “I was thinking…….
maybe that’s why I had such a bad attack this morning, Jax…..”
“You were scared witless because you
thought I’d *never* leave?” He smiled
and laughed softly. “Now *there’s* a
switch…….”
“No…..that’s not what I mean!” Brenda stepped away from him to close her
front door. “It just doesn’t make sense
to me – having such a bad panic attack this morning.” She slid out of her coat with Jax’s assistance. “I mean, I had been doing *so* well at the
Port Charles Hotel and everything.”
“I know.” Jax hung her coat on the hall tree. “I don’t think I’ve seen you have an attack this bad
since…….well, probably since you had to go to the lineup……”
“Exactly.” She stooped over to pick up the mail that had come through the
slot in the front door, glanced through it, and then walked to the foyer table
to deposit it. “You know, my therapist
at GH tells me that this is all related to some kind of deep-seated desire to
be in control.”
Jax’s one eye narrowed. “You mean like you were mad at me cause I
wouldn’t let you drive home?”
“No.”
She shook her head and laughed a little at his attempt at
light-heartedness. “Up until now, I
guess I had the feeling that I was still in control of things. Or at least YOU were.”
Jax’s eyes widened in
understanding. “Ahhhhhh……..I get it. But now……”
“Now, neither one of us is controlling
what happens to me.” She grimaced and
folded her arms. “Mac Scorpio, Junior
is.”
Jax frowned again. “But he was all along, wasn’t he? When we didn’t know that he was the Slasher
and we hit the roof every time we heard a stray bump in the night?”
“Not like he is tonight.” A shiver visibly coursed through Brenda’s
body. “Not like when I’m just sitting
here, waiting for him to come get me, like that poor innocent goat they put out
for the T-Rex to eat in Jurassic Park.”
Jax’s breath left his body in a long
whoosh. “I know, love.” He moved to Brenda’s side and wrapped an arm
around her shoulders, placing a tender kiss on top of her head. “And you know if there was some other way to
do this, I’d find it.”
“It’s just……..it’s like YOU’RE not
even in control of this, Jax!” Brenda
pulled free of his arm and strode nervously towards the kitchen. “And it’s different because we KNOW he’s
probably going to make a move tonight, and yet you can’t do a darn thing about
it!”
“I WILL be doing something about it,
Brenda!” Jax objected. “And despite
what you think, we DO have pretty much control over how all of this is going to
go down.”
She flipped on the light in the
kitchen, walked over to her stove and grimaced. “Then maybe you’d better tell me again, cause I sure don’t
remember it that way.” She opened the
cupboard and reached for some cups.
“You want some tea?”
“Sure.” Actually, Jax could have cared less if she had offered him a tall
glass of motor oil with a shot of floor wax for a chaser. His entire body had shifted into a “red
alert” mode as soon as they turned onto her street. He didn’t need additional caffeine to heighten his state of
awareness, but if it gave Brenda something to do with her hands, he’d drink all
the tea in China.
She took a kettle out off the counter,
filled it, and set it on the stove to heat.
“So when does Mac, Junior get into town?”
Jax sank into a kitchen chair. “The kid’s car is fixed now, so he’s driving
home from NYU. He’s supposed to get in
sometime around 5 or 5:30.” Brenda’s
eyes remained trained on Jax as she set a delicate china cup in front of him. “They’ll have a family dinner, during which
Mac will casually let it slip that your memory has returned and you’re actually
working with a *real* sketch artist to develop a composite.”
“So Mac talked to his son all the time
about the case?” Brenda’s hand was
surprisingly steady as she poured the now-steaming water into Jax’s cup.
“Yep.” Jax stirred the fragrant liquid slowly. “That’s part of how the Slasher was always able to stay a step
ahead of us. The kid knew everything
that was going on cause Mac inadvertently blurted out all of our suspicions.”
Brenda glanced up nervously at the
wall clock. “So he’ll come after me
sometime after dinner, then?”
The controlled terror he saw
in her eyes drove a knife in Jax’s heart.
“We’re going to have a tight lid on the whole thing, Brenda,” he
crooned, placing his hand over hers for reassurance. “Mac’s going to complain about budget cuts and how the department
is so under-staffed at dinner. Then at
about 6:30, I’m supposed to call Mac, pretending to be p*ssed because I’ve been
pulled from guarding you and assigned to some other stakeout.”
“And Mac will take that call someplace
where he knows Junior will be listening?”
Jax nodded. “He’ll rant and rave at me – just like he usually does,” he added
with a wry smile. “And then he’ll tell
me that he’s sure you’ll be fine just for those few hours.” He took a sip of tea, as did Brenda. “As soon as the kid splits to come over
here, Mac will follow him in a separate car.”
“But what if Mac doesn’t see him
leave?” Brenda’s voice rose a pitch,
despite her attempts to remain calm.
“What if one of his other kids distracts him by accident, or what if his
wife asks him to take out the trash?”
Jax rubbed his hand over hers again
soothingly. “We’ve got all those bases
covered, Brenda,” he said gently.
“Blue’s going to be stationed in an unmarked car at the north end of
Water Street and V’s going to be at the south end. If either of them sees Junior’s car, they’re going to get in
touch with me…….” He reached into his
back pocket with a grimace. “……on this
contraption……”
Brenda’s eyes narrowed and then she
smiled. “A cell phone?”
“Yeah.” Jax’s lips thinned with disgust.
“I hated to give up my pager, but sometimes we need to be in closer
contact.”
Brenda nodded but then her smile faded
to fear again. “But what if Junior
parks on a different block and walks here?
What if he gets past both Blue and V somehow?”
“That’s why *I’ll* be in your back
yard, Brenda,” Jax explained patiently.
“We’re going to micro-manage this situation right down to the way he
gets into the brownstone.” He nodded
towards her back porch. “I want you to
leave your back door unlocked tonight.”
He leaned towards her when she caught her breath and her jaw dropped. “Junior is a killer, not a burglar. He’s not into breaking and entering. And he’s not stupid. Why raise a ruckus cracking a window or
trying to break through a deadbolt when he can walk right in through an almost
“open” door?”
“So you’ll be in the yard, watching
for him to come through the back door?”
“Yep.” Jax smiled wanly at her and patted the cell phone lying on the
table between them. “And as soon as I
spot him anywhere within 20 feet of your back steps, I’ll call Blue on my trust
wonder-gadget and tell her to come and get you out of the house through the
front door.”
“So you mean I won’t even be in the house?” Her face brightened visibly. “You won’t have to, like, catch him with a
knife at my throat to be able to arrest him?”
“With the evidence Mac’s given me so
far and what we hope to find when we get a search warrant for his place at
school, we should have enough to lock him away for a long time.” Jax patted her hands and smiled at her. “Besides, Mac doesn’t want this to escalate
into a major confrontation, anyway. He
…….well……” He shook his head. “Junior’s his son, right or wrong, and Mac
doesn’t want to take a chance on something going haywire in a standoff and the
kid getting hurt.”
“OK……OK.” Brenda nodded her head up and down vigorously and then took a
deep breath. “I guess you’re
right. You do seem to have all the
bases covered.”
She still jumped and nearly knocked
over her cup of tea when Jax’s cell phone shrilled abruptly. He picked it up, pressed a button, and then
put it to his ear. “Jax here.” He listened, then held it away from his face
for a moment. “It’s Blue – we’re just synchronizing
last minute stuff for later.”
“Gotcha.” Brenda rose from the table, surprised that her knees weren’t
knocking together. As she took her cup
to the sink and glanced up at the clock, she took a deep breath. {Almost 3:30. Just a few more hours.
And then it’ll *all* be over.}
*****
Jax sat on the couch in Brenda’s front
room, silently checking the night scope on his sniper rifle. As he lowered the barrel and began to rub it
with a cloth again, his thoughts strayed in a hundred directions. Everything Mac Scorpio, Senior, said seemed
to make sense. The corroborating dates,
the teen angst motive, the missing knives – it all seemed to add up to Junior
being the Slasher. It was neat and tidy
– maybe *too* neat.
But if Mac had really suspected his
son of being the Slasher, why didn’t he come forward sooner? How many lives could have been saved by
discreetly pointing the PCPD in Junior’s direction? Jax paused and closed his eyes, trying to remember back to his
own childhood. Lord knows he and his
brothers had been a thorn in John Jacks’ backside more than he liked to
remember. When Jeffrey had gotten a
little too “enthusiastic” in their re-enactment of Robin Hood and put an arrow
through Old Lady Hartmann’s bedroom window, knocking over her favorite crystal
vase, the other three brothers hung tight.
Even though John had grilled them separately and as a group, they
refused to expose Jeffrey as the culprit.
When their father had somehow managed to find out
the truth, Jeffrey was promptly grounded for the foreseeable future and
deprived of television privileges for a week.
But it wasn’t until the family found out that the crashing of the vase
caused Mrs. Hartmann’s long-adored Persian, Omar, to go into cardiac arrest
that John forced Jeffrey to march next door and own up to his guilt. Jax’s eyes opened and he chewed on his lower
lip – John was willing to conceal Jeffrey’s crime until it affected someone else
grievously. Wouldn’t Mac have felt the
same way?
A loud thump from the hallway stairs made Jax jump
up from the couch, just in time to see Brenda’s jeans-clad rear end make an
appearance in the archway from the living room. “Brenda?” He rushed over
to her and had to stifle his laugh at the sight of her, bent over a large
cardboard box, scooting it across the hall backwards. “What the bloody h*ll do you think you’re doing?”
She straightened, turned around to face him with a
smile, and dusted her hands on her silver-gray silk charmeuse shirt. “I’m bringing up the Christmas decorations,
of course!” Brenda pushed some stray
hair back off her face and then massaged the small of her back. “Although I didn’t remember that the box
weighed that much when I put it in the basement last year.”
Jax nodded, his mouth an “O” of understanding. “Why didn’t you call me? I would have been glad to carry it up for
you.”
“Oh, I didn’t want to bother you……..” Brenda waved a hand at him. “You seemed so busy, bringing stuff in from
the jee…….” She stopped in mid-word
when her gaze lit on the weapon on the couch.
“Jax?” She swallowed hard and
put her hand to her chest.
“What’s……..what’s that *thing* there for?”
He smiled proudly – as only an
overly-endowed-with-testosterone member of the male species can do – and went
to her couch to pick up the rifle.
“It’s an SR-60 sniper rifle with special infra-red night vision scope!”
Jax announced gleefully. When he saw
her panic-stricken look, the smile quickly left his face and he set it down,
almost like the proverbial “hot potato.”
“It’s just a precaution, love,” he added, rushing to her side. “Just something to make me look good…….”
“To make you look good…….” Brenda repeated his words slowly and carefully, her dazed
condition still evident.
“Yeah – like a prop in a movie!” He put his arm around Brenda’s shoulders and
pointed at the lethal-looking instrument of death. “I mean, if Junior sees me pointing that thing at him, he’s
*bound* to surrender without a fight, right?”
“Right……..without a fight.” Brenda nodded and her color started to return. “Without a fight is good.” She rubbed her hand on his chest
lovingly. “You know, although I’m
scared for *me* tonight, I’m *more* scared about you getting hurt!”
“Nah……..not a chance!” His lips lowered to meet hers, lightly at first. Then, just as she sighed in pleasure and
Jax’s tongue begged entrance to the sweetness of her mouth, a shrill beeping
noise made them jump apart. He looked
down at his wrist and then reached to press a button on his watch. “My alarm – it’s 6:30,” he explained. “Time to call Mac and get this show on the
road.”
“By all means……”
Brenda released him and Jax strode purposefully towards the kitchen
phone, never hearing her sigh and shaky in-drawn breath. “Let’s get this show on the road.”
*****
“Now you’re *sure* you don’t want me
to go over this all with you again.”
“Nope.” Brenda patted Jax’s back with a wan smile as he slipped into his
bomber jacket. “I think the seven times
you’ve explained it so far should do the trick.”
“And you’re going to leave the back
door unlocked……”
“……and you’ll be right across the
alley in the Fleishmanns’ yard, watching for Junior to make his move.”
Jax nodded and slid an arm around
Brenda’s waist as they walked through the hallway towards her front door. “And YOU’LL be in the front hall so that
when Blue comes on the porch, you can slip out the door without Junior hearing
you.”
He barely paused at the entry to the
bathroom – just long enough to make sure that the sniper rifle was propped just
inside the doorway. Hidden enough from
Brenda so that it wouldn’t disturb her yet close enough that he could grab it
at a moment’s notice. They stopped in
her front foyer near the small table, where Jax patted the Glock 9mm in his
shoulder holster confidently. “And then
I’LL come in here, show enough force to convince Junior to surrender without a
fight, read him his rights, and then call Blue and give her the all clear.”
“And then I’LL come back and put the
champagne in the fridge for later – so we can celebrate our freedom!!” She smiled broadly and clapped her hands
like a child. “And then tomorrow we can
put up the Christmas tree and start making our lists and checking them twice……”
The shrill ringing of Jax’s cell phone
made Brenda freeze. She stared at the
unit as though it was a live snake as he pulled it from his back pocket. “It’s probably Mac – telling us that the
kid’s on the way over.” He gave her a
smile that never betrayed the butterflies dancing in his stomach. “Jax here.”
“Jax – it’s Blue. I need you to come out here to the car right
now.”
“Blue?” Jax’s frown mirrored Brenda’s.
“Is something wrong? Did you
spot Junior at your end of the street?”
“No, but Mac’s here. There’s a problem and he wants to talk to
you about it before things get out of control.”
“What kind of…..”
“Just get your butt down here right
NOW, DD! Mac will explain it all when
you get here!”
“OK.”
Jax eyed Brenda warily. “Are you
in that old beat-up Buick clunker you usually pull from the motor pool?”
“Yeah.” In the background, Jax could hear Mac shouting at Blue that he
needed him pronto.
“OK, I’ll be right ……” Before Jax could finish the sentence, Blue
ended the transmission.
“Is everything OK?” Brenda’s eyes were wide with fright and her
face had turned pale.
“Yeah……” Jax grimaced and shook his head.
“Blue says there’s something screwed up and Mac needs to talk to me.”
“What kind of screw up?”
“I don’t know.” Jax swore softly as he hit the “end” button
for the transmission. “Maybe Junior
decided to see a movie first or something.
Maybe he doesn’t like to kill before the evening news comes on. Or maybe Mac just wants to go over the
entire operation *one more time*, like he usually does at the precinct.” He opened Brenda’s front door with one hand,
still juggling the cell phone in the other.
“You just stay put while I take a jog down there and find out what’s
cooking.” Giving her a pointed look, he
glanced down at the doorknob. “And
remember to lock *this* one behind me, OK?”
When Brenda smiled and Jax heard a resounding click after the door shut,
he gave her a thumb’s up before disappearing into the darkness.
Jax was halfway to the sidewalk in
front of the brownstone when he realized he was still holding his cell
phone. He grimaced, muttered a few
choice words about technology, and then shoved it into his back pocket before
taking off towards the end of the block in a sprint – never noticing that as he
did, the phone fell out of his pocket and into a large snow bank at the curb.
As promised, a dark blue, beat-up,
1991 Buick Skylark was parked near the intersection of Water Street and Walsh
Avenue. It momentarily occurred to Jax
that he didn’t see Mac’s car, but he banished the thought quickly, figuring
that he probably parked it a block over so his son wouldn’t recognize it and
smell a trap. More than likely, Mac was
waiting in the Buick with Blue for their “meeting.”
The clouded windows of the Skylark
gave even more credence to Jax’s theory.
It wasn’t that unusual, that Blue would have the car’s lights off. On a stakeout, the car needed to blend into
the shadows so that it wouldn’t draw attention. Drawing even closer to the car, Jax blew into his cupped hands,
trying to instill some warmth in his ungloved fingers on this frosty mid-winter
night. With the deep snowcover and the
temperatures hovering below freezing, two bodies inside the car no doubt fogged
up the windows in a hurry.
What did surprise Jax was that Blue
didn’t flash the lights as he approached.
Even when he came right up to the car, she didn’t pop open the back door
so he could hop in. He frowned and
tried to see inside the car windows, but the condensation was too thick. Finally, his patience gave way as he danced
from one foot to the other and he rapped sharply on the passenger side window.
“Hey, Blue – it’s Jax. Let me in.”
At first, a chill ran down Jax’s spine.
But then, he remembered Mac’s penchant for the dramatic. {Maybe he even decided that we should meet
at *his* car, wherever he’s parked.
Maybe they left me a note inside.}
He jiggled the passenger door and then, finding it locked, loped around
to the driver’s side of the car. When
Jax tried and found that door locked too, a shiver shook his body.
“Blue!” Jax raised his voice slightly and made a fist to knock on the
driver side window. “Are you in
there?” When silence met his inquiry,
he speared his fingers through his hair in frustration. “Blue!!”
He pounded the flat of his hand on the top of the car. “What the bloody h*ll’s going…….”
Then he heard it. A low, moaning sound. Coming from inside the car. Jax crouched down and furiously rubbed his
sleeve against the driver’s window.
When he finally was able to clear it some, he caught his breath and then
swore loudly. “BLUE!!”
Jax backed away from the car, bounced
lightly on the balls of his feet, and then stepped up to deliver a stunning
karate kick to the back window. It
shattered on contact, the pieces of glass littering the street as he
frantically swept them clear of the frame.
He didn’t even notice the scratches they made as he put his head and
right arm through the broken window.
“Blue!!” His heart started beating again when he pressed two fingers
against her neck and felt a faint pulse.
“Hang on, partner……” Jax pulled
his head out of the back window so he could snake his arm towards the front and
hit the button to reverse the power locks.
Barely an instant after the locks released, he yanked open the driver’s
side door.
“Ohhhhhhhh, God…….” Jax’s cry sounded like a wounded animal in
the night. Blue’s head was resting on
her left shoulder, her hands clutched to the steak knife that protruded about
two inches below her ribcage on the right.
His own hands fluttered helplessly in space as Jax fought back
nausea. Suddenly, he seemed to regain
some measure of composure. “Don’t
worry, Blue – hang on! I’ll get help –
just don’t you *dare* die on me, OK?”
He leaned into the car, trying to reach for the controls on the two-way
radio. When he saw the slashed wires
dangling uselessly near the front floorboard, Jax eased away and reached into
his back pocket. Finding it empty, he
realized that he had lost his phone, drawing another round of expletives that
shattered the calm, clear night.
“OK, Blue – I’m not gonna let you
die……” Jax took giant gulps of air,
quickly brushing away the tears that blurred his vision. He reached gingerly for the knife, froze,
and then was about to close his fingers around its hilt when her body convulsed
and she groaned loudly.
“No – don’t ……touch…….”
“Blue!!” Jax cradled her ashen face in his hands. “Blue – what happened?”
She licked her lips, her agonized moan
piercing Jax’s heart.
“Stabbed…….me……..don’t……..” Blue
opened her eyes wide and stared deeply into Jax’s. “Don’t….take…out……I’ll….bleed…death…….”
“OK…..OK…….” Jax nodded painfully. “I
understand.” He looked up and down the
street in a frenzy. “Did Junior do this
to you? Where’s Mac?”
Blue shook her head, gritting her
teeth against the pain. “Not
Junior.” She clasped Jax’s hand tightly
with her blood-stained one.
“It….was….Mac. Fooled
…..us……Made……me …….call……”
“Mac?” Hysteria – at his own gullibility, at the price it would cost
him, at Mac’s duplicity – bubbled up inside Jax. “It was really Mac all along?”
She took a racking breath. “You……go……”
“Go…….” Jax patted her hands gingerly and started to get to his
feet. “Yes, I’ll go…..to the other end
of the block! I’ll have V call 911! We’ll get you out of this…..”
“NO, JAX……” Blue waved her hand weakly before she could connect with Jax’s
arm. “Not…..me…….” She pulled him back down to look into his
eyes again. “Mac…..after……her…….”
Jax’s face suddenly paled. His blood pressure dropped and dots swam
before his eyes. He looked through the
front windshield of the car towards Brenda’s house – her welcoming front porch
with the light on, the straw wreath, the stone bunnies……..the unlocked back
door. It had been Mac’s plan all
along. And he and Blue had played right
into his hands.
His quick breaths made small clouds in
the wintry night as he reached in front of Blue. Jax pounded his fist as hard as he could on the car’s horn,
resulting in loud, staccato bursts of raucous noise. When he pulled back and straightened to his full height, he
filled his lungs with air and then broke the serenity of the silent night.
“BRENDA!!!!!!! LOCK THE DOOR!!!!!!!!!!”
To be continued……..
Author’s note: I apologize in advance for ending this
chapter at such a critical point.
Unfortunately, this “Energizer Bunny” of a fanfic has so many dramatic
turning points in the next plot twists that there was no better place to end it
– in fact, there were two other spots that are still to come that might have
been worse! And if you read the original
novel, be warned – the hero finds his police partner (also a woman) dead at the
hands of the “Slasher.” The scene where
he finds her body in the unmarked police car is pretty gruesome and shocking
since main characters don’t usually get killed off in romance novels. Needless to say, both Blue and I found this
particular plot twist totally unacceptable. *g*