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| January 31, 2004: Okay okay, I know it's a January entry in the wrong month journal, but honestly, I so much typing to do, I didn't feel like starting a whole new page and graphics, so please pardon me for doing this. Today I seem to be doing pretty good. I'm finally getting in 60 oz of water. It's not as easy as I thought it would be, I've never drank that much of anything in my life. I am handling the jello well so I'm happy with that. My visiting nurse came today, and she's really nice. I feel surprisingly well, and was up for having visitors, my sister, her husband and my niece. It was great having company I really needed it. I'm still having trouble getting out of the recliner, which also subs for my bed at night. I must say as i look back on my hospital stay it wasn't that bad. Yes it was hard, a lot harder than I expected. I think it had a lot to do with my 2nd day and especially that night. Its hard to believe that I pulled myself through it. No tears other than the potassium. So not bad at all. I really need to start believing in myself more. |
| Monday February 2, 2004: Okay today was hard food wise. I'm still on my water, broth, and jello diet and I am sick of that damn jello, so much so it's making me nauseous. Thank God for fruit pops. I bought Breyers fat free (with barely any sugar in it) and that hasn't affected me at all. But I wanted something more so bad. I've been dreaming all day of meatloaf and a cheeseburger, no bread with a slice of melted cheese, ketchup and slices of cucumber (no I'm not pregnant just love the way it tastes with a juicy burger), It was so hard not to break and do something or rather eat something I shouldn't. I think it had a lot to do with head hunger more than anything else. Everything has been tempting and I'm doing my best to hold it together, just 2 more days till I check in with the doc then maybe I can have something more. |
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| Wednesday February 4, 2004: My !st weigh in!!!!!! Well my appointment went great. I was reunited with Lynn and Tanya (both I met at the hospital) and had a great group discussion with the nutritionsit and Amy. We talked about what to add this week on the menu, a protein shake for one meal. But Amy said we could add the egg. The egg and 1/2 a slice of toast is supposed to start on week 3. Still got a lot of great info and can now add a chewable vitamin and tums to the diet. I'm also starting on a B-12 tab once a week (dissolves under the tongue) and when I find it boitin for prevention of hair loss. Okay okay I know you are waiting to hear.... 12lbs!!!!! That's right 12lbs gone forever!!! Not bad of a week of liquids with no calories in it!!! So that makes 18 in total with the 6 lbs I lost two weeks before surgery. Another great thing today, I had my staples and frain removed and guess what?1 It didn't hurt, I didn't even feel it. They put steristrips on, and man does it feel good to have all that crap out. Now I can sleep in the bed again. So to celebrate I made a soft scrambled egg and a slice of toast for dinner. Yeah!!! But I was so full from the egg I never did eat my toast, but just to make sure I didn't cheat I threw it out. Good girl. The fullness is uncomfortable and I'm trying to hold off on drinking water to push it through. I eventually felt better which is good, but it did take some time. I don;t think it had anything to do with how much I ate as opposed to it being the first real thing in my stomach. I do need to find a good protein shake, I don't want to push my luck. The nutritionist said that they are seeing less strictures when people follow the diet plan. So I really want to stick to it. I think the shake will fill me so I wont need the egg. any ideas on a good shake please let me know. Yeah me 12lbs!!!! |
| Saturday February 7, 2004: So far so good, but I do think I had my first taste of dumping syndrome. If felt like I was having an episode of low blood sugar. I felt really weak, flusjed and shaky. all from a slice of toast ( I should have eaten slower!). But I feel much better, the symptons passed within 5-10 minutes. Oh I am sleeping in bed on my side mostly, but I do find myself on my stomach. I'm really happy about that considering I can't sleep on my back. i thought it would take a couple of months. Not that I can stay on my stomach for long, but it's okay for a lil while. I'm still not eating much. I've barely touched the jello and only one sugar free pop. I am having trouble with water. I'm finding it hard to get down. I think I will try some Crystal Light. But its not just the taste of it, it hurts sometimes. Today sp far I'm almost done with 20 oz. I have to make a real effort to get the other 40 oz in. I'm about to have my first meal a boiled egg and 1/2 a slice of toast, the latter only to be eaten if I can. I'm hoping the boiled egg sits better. Than later for dinner/dessert I'll have my apple juice and maybe a pop. |
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