I can still see the scar that so much blood fell from

I don't really remember anything but feeling numb

I can almost taste the blade that cut through my flesh

I must have started a million times or two

I did this for no explainable reason

I didn't do this to hurt you

I guess i did this to hurt me but eventually it felt good

I stopped for a minute but soon started all over again

I can no longer sit still while being insane

I might be stupid for this but you don't know me

I have a different core than you

I have more pain inside than you do

I can not sit and hide forever

I bet you feel it to you just aren't ready to tell

I sometimes sit and watch the blood swell

I find it hard to admit but eventually i do

I wish you the best in finding yourself

I hope you go the opposite way i did

I know you can tell by my cold face i didn't mend well

I hate to be the one to go first and leave you there all alone

I know that you will be strong and carry on

I know that my journey didn't make sense to you

I could feel it till the end

I suppose your all alone now

I suppose you'll clean the blood but will not get kissed by it

I hope that you kiss the light and never get lost in the dark

I hope my stupidity didn't bring you down

I wish to never know of your sin

I know that the tears would swell and cause more blood to whell

I hope you know the lullaby i sung to you before i went to sleep

I fixed you up for sleep and now i hope you'll stay awake for me

I never wanted to be cold but i suppose it took me home

I want you to remember me

I want you to visit me by the sea

I can no longer remember you but i hope you still me

I want you to know i loved you maybe i didn't win

I did try hard to but i lost in the end

I never meant to hurt you or to make you cry

I never meant to make you lie

I want you to swim in me when you feel sick

I want to be there when you wed

I want to be there with you when you go to sleep

I want to be there with you when you rise

I want you to paint the sunrise

I hope you will paint my waves

I hope that you will stand proudly and know that i did care

I hope you read this even though i am no longer here

I hope you forget my sin

I hope you forget my sins

I hope you place me in your heart

I hope you know i love you

I know you'll never really seem

I know you might not care

I just want you to know that i share a piece of your soul

I hope you know that no matter how far apart we are

I love you and no one else will ever compare