Starsky & Hutch

Why Can't You Love Me?

(Missing scene "Fatal Charm"- Diana's POV)

Important note: You must have seen Fatal Charm to understand this story. What's going through Diana's mind before she decides to attack Hutch with a knife? 

What did I do wrong? 

How was I to know you don't like to be surprised? 

Why did that stupid partner of yours have to show up with that floozy? She acted like she owned you, or something. Why didn't you just ask them to leave us alone? Why didn't you? Damn you, Hutch! 

I can't get the image of you and that little tramp out of my mind. Who did she think she was? Wasn't Starsky good enough? Did she have to have you too? You danced with her. You laughed with her. Why couldn't you dance with me? Why couldn't you have a good time with me? Why did we have to go out with them? I didn't want to be with them. I wanted to be with you. YOU! Everybody wants to be with you. Why don't you want to be with me, Hutch? 

I loved you. So you had to love me too. What ever it was, things would work themselves out, and after dinner, we would be making love again. We would be 'one'. I would be yours, and you would be mine, like it was meant to be. 

Together, like husband and wife. 

As my fiancée I wanted to give you something as a token of my love, a reminder of me. I wanted to let you know how much you meant to me. I bought you that watch with the money I saved for special occasions. Like this one. 

How could you not show up on our dinner date? How could you step on my heart like that? How could you do that to me: your wife to be? 

I thought you were different, but you're just like all the other men. Only you are worse. You're flirting with other women behind my back. I saw you and Starsky with that skinny whore. I hate the way you smiled at her, the way you seemed to enjoy her company. What did she have, that I didn't? 

Oooh, I got her. I got her good. You didn't think I would let that lady cop get her hands on you, now did you? Oh no, if I can't have you, no one can. 

You hurt me, Hutch. You hurt me bad. You hurt me like no one else has hurt me before. I can't let you get away with that. You've treated me bad. 

Everybody loves you, and you love them. I love you, but you don't love me. Why can't you love me, Hutch? 

If I can't have you, no one can. I will make sure of that. 

*****

Out of control she fell

And kept on falling

Calling out his name

Blinded by fury

She attacked her love

In her eyes he had betrayed her

He loved the people he cared for

His family, his friends

Why couldn't he love her?

Out of control she fell

And kept on falling

Calling out his name one last time

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THE END

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Story and poem written by Sonja H. van Schalm

Edited by Pat L.

September 2002

Netherlands

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