Sonja's Poems
All poems written by Sonja H. van Schalm - Netherlands

Payback Time


Hey there, stranger
I�m a ghost from your past
Look a little bit closer and you�ll see
That it�s Sonja that�s haunting you
Remember the name?
Do you recognize me?
It�s been a long time
But I haven�t forgotten
I just want to make sure
You haven�t either
Hey there, stranger
You�re mine!
After all these years
It�s finally payback time


05/06/2003
__________

The Mind vs. The Heart


I give you my finger, you take my whole hand
I give you my heart but still you don�t understand
I give you all of me, but you take without giving
I keep forgiving you, because you�re my guy, my reason for living
Although I know you�re just using me
I can�t say goodbye
I can�t let you go
Because there�s still a part of me
That loves you so


04/28/2003
__________

Talking Session


There�s so much I want to say
But I don�t know where to start and how
Please, help me!
Say something!
Make me cry!
Anything to get me talking
There�s so much I need to get off my chest
Get me started and I�ll do the rest


05/17/2003
__________

Addicted To You


Your eyes are as blue as the water
In the Blue Lagoon
Your hair is like gold in the sun
and like silver in the light of the moon
A kiss from your lips is like a drug
Every time you kiss me I want more
You�re a master in the art of love
Whenever you touch me
I can�t get enough

I'm addicted to you


05/06/2003
__________

Insignificant Existence


Sometimes I wish I could be more than I am today
Sometimes I feel so small, so insignificant
If only I was super-intelligent, incredibly beautiful or brave
But I�m none of the above
I�m just me
Someone who sometimes wishes she could mean something to the world
But she is who she is and that�s all she has to give
In a world where only a few people know of her existence


03/10/2003
__________

Looking For You


You don�t have to look far
Just open your mind
And let yourself in
You�ll be surprised what you will find

It�s so easy to do
Just give yourself a chance
Look inside yourself
And find the real you


04/19/2003
__________

Believing In Myself


Some say I�m crazy
And maybe that�s true
But as long as I believe in myself
I believe in what I do

Some say I�m weird
And maybe they�re right
But it takes guts to do what I do
To confront my fears and fight

Some say they don�t understand
But that�s because they aren�t in my shoes
It takes a little craziness, as a helping hand to make it through

I do things my own way
No matter what people say
Believing in myself
is what got me where I am today


03/31/2003
__________

Not Today


It�s a mess inside
Some order in this chaos is hard to find
I�m trying to sort things out
Trying to find a way to clear my mind
It�s hard, so hard
I don�t know where to begin

It�s a mess, a chaos
I�m wading through it carefully
Trying not to trip over obstacles that are in the way
I�ll have to face them sooner or later
But not today
Just not today



02/11/2003
__________

I Need Your Love


Hold me, please, hold me
I need you so much
I can�t live without your love
I can�t live without your touch

Love me, please, love me
I need your love so bad
Especially in times of trouble
Especially when I feel sad

Stay with me, please, stay with me
I want you here
Listen to my heart speaking
Saying it needs you near

I love you, really love you
I need you so much
I can�t live without your love
I can�t live without your touch


03/05/2003
__________

Tears and Raindrops


I feel like crying and running away
I can�t stay here another day
Have to go far, far away
The sound of raindrops falling
Is the only sound I hear
The weather is an echo of how I feel
I�ve got to get out of this place
There�s nothing left for me here
When I step outside and close the door
My tears mingle with the falling raindrops



03/10/2003
__________

Then There Is Your Smile


I
have lots of people around me
But still I feel alone
They�re *good* people
*Interesting* people
*Fun to be with* people
But still I feel alone
And then there�s you
Quiet, lonely you
You only talk when you feel like talking
And you hardly ever smile
But when you do
My whole world lights up
And I don�t feel so alone anymore


03/06/2003
__________

The Language We Speak


You can not see
But you can feel
You can not hear
But you can touch
You can not speak
But still you know
Everything about me

Words are not the language
That we use when I�m with you
You touch, I feel
I touch, you feel

Speaking our own language
That�s what we do

You can not see
But you can feel
You can not hear
But you can touch
You can not speak
But still we know
Everything about each other


04/19/2003
__________

Said and Done


Please, don�t cry
Don�t shed your tears for me
I don�t deserve so many emotions
Just let me go and let it be

Please, let me go
It�s better this way
You will thank me for it later
I really cannot stay

Please, let�s say goodbye fast
Just raise your hand and wave
I�ll wave back then drive away
Believe me, it�s for the best

Please, don�t cry
Don�t shed your tears for me
Go back inside
There�s nothing to see
I�m gone
It�s over
Everything has been said and done
Just let it be


06/02/2003
__________



In Silence


When there are no more words to say what one feels
Then don't speak at all
When there are no more tears to cry
Because they've all been shed
Then cry on the inside
For sometimes there are moments
Where one can only mourn in silence


07/24/2003
__________



Why Do I Write About Love and Friendship?
(My Question, My Answer)



Why do I always write about love?
Why do I always write about friendship?
That's because I can�t get enough of it

Interaction, eye-contact and touching
Laughing, caring, sharing the pain
Loving, holding and comforting
All in the name of love or friendship

Why do I always write about love and friendship?
Because it bonds two people
I like to make a whole out of two
As lovers or very good friends

We all want to have somebody in our lives
Somebody, a lover or a friend
Somebody who sees the real us
Somebody who holds our hand
Somebody who�ll never let us walk alone
Somebody who's going to be that special someone
who makes our life worth living

That's why I always write about love
That's why I always write about friendship
Hoping my written words
will make lonely people feel not so alone anymore


June/July 2003
__________


Special Memories


Hold on to the memories in your heart
Treasure every one of them the best you can
Only time can take away the pain of your loss
But one day you'll
remember the special moments
that the two of you shared
And you will be able to smile again



07/28/2003
__________


New! 12/26/2004


I Love You, Mom


Hi mom,

You have been on my mind a lot lately
There was so much I wanted to show you
There were so many things I wanted you to see

You're not here anymore
Has it really been three years?

Regrets, I have so many
If only�I think constantly

But one thing has never changed
In my heart I will carry you
And take you with me
on my journey through life

I love you, mom


12/23/2004
__________

New! 12/26/2004

Feeling Love


There are no bigger emotions
than the ones I'm feeling now
There are no bigger tears
than the ones streaming down my face
Tears of pure happiness
My heart beats with immense joy
There is no bigger love
than the intense kind of love I feel for you today

09/16/2004

__________


Sonja's Storybook







Poems
(Not Starsky & Hutch related)


Payback Time
The Mind vs. The Heart
Talking Session
Addicted To You
Insignificent Existence
Looking For You
Believing In Myself
Not Today
I Need Your Love
Tears and Raindrops
Then There Is Your Smile
The Language We Speak

Said and Done
- In Silence
- Why Do I Write About Love And Friendship?
- Special Memories

New! 12/26/2004
I Love You, Mom
Feeling Love

_____


You can email comments, questions and more
to me at:


[email protected]
Hosted by www.Geocities.ws

1