Starsky & Hutch

 

Ballerina Girl

(Missing scene – A Body Worth Guarding – Hutch’s POV)

 

This is America, the land of opportunity. My world is a world filled with freedom and with choice. Before I met you, Russia was somewhere that I had only heard about. It was as foreign to me as the moon. It was somewhere that I had no desire to be. The political differences stood between us like a wall of stone. But you can't control the feelings coming from the heart and mine fell in love with you.

I could see the fire blazing in your eyes. Your anger for what I stood for was visible in the way you walked. You drove me crazy with your attitude and the way you talked about "America". None of that mattered because I had never met a woman as beautiful as you.

I couldn't resist those dark, vulnerable eyes, or the fair skin surrounded by hair so blonde that it outshined the sun.

'Share a cup of tea with somebody who is unfriendly and your loneliness is ended.'

I could hear the pain you tried to hide, a deeper meaning, behind those words when you said them. All I wanted to do is hold you in my arms and make the pain disappear. I wanted nothing more than to love you, to protect you, and to be with you for the rest of my life. My heart was ready for you.

You were a young Russian ballerina in America. No matter how much I wanted it, I knew it wasn't possible. I couldn't ask you to give up your life for me. You had your whole career ahead of you. You weren't ready for America yet. The world is changing but not fast enough for the two of us to make it. I had to let you go.

Since you've left, my life has pretty much gone back to normal, almost. The days are bearable, but your face haunts me every night. The mornings are the worst. When I wake up and realize it was just a dream, those are the moments that I miss you the most. I feel the gaping hole that is in my heart; a hole that was once filled with love for you. You took that piece of my heart with you when you left.

Playing the guitar reminds me of you now. I can see you sitting on the floor beside me. I can still feel the warmth of your head against my leg. I call the song, Anna's song now, because I always think of you when I play it.

My Ballerina Girl, I still miss you every day. Maybe one day, when the world turns fast enough, you'll be ready for America. Maybe some day we'll be together again and you'll bring back the piece of my heart that is yours alone.

 

Ballerina Girl

You are so lovely

With you standing there

I'm so aware

Of how much I care for you

 

You are more than now

You are for always

I can see in you

My dreams come true

Don't you ever go away

 

You make me feel like

There's nothing I can't do

And when I hold you

I only want to say

I love you

 

Ballerina Girl

The joy you bring me

Every day and night

Holding you tight

How I've waited for your love

 

Sometimes I've wondered

If you'd ever come my way

Now that I've finally found you

This is where my heart will stay

 

I'm never gonna break your heart

Never will we drift apart

'Cause all I wanna do

Is share my whole life with you

 

'Cause you make me feel like

There's nothing I can't do

I guess I finally realized

There's nothing else like loving you

 

Ballerina Girl

You are so lovely

I can see in you

My dreams come true

Don't you ever go away

Ballerina Girl

 

 

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THE END

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“Ballerina Girl” by Lionel Richie

 

Story written by Sonja H. van Schalm

Edited by Patricia Lockard

March 2001

Netherlands