So it begins, my first blog. I don't know that much about blogs. Honestly, I never really saw the point of a blog but it seems to be a place where you can share whats on your mind or give information, thoughts etc. I wish I had started this a few years back. I have had a really wild and dramatic life. It definately isn't the life I had dreamed of for myself when I was a kid. In someways its better and in some ways its worse than my worst nightmares. All in all, you will understand what I mean as I reveal more and more about myself and my life. I am just so grateful to be alive to be able to do all of this. You see 2 years ago , at least I think it was two years ago, I nearly died. In fact, I was sent home from the hospital to die but slowly I got well and regained my strength and some doctors are going to be very surprised to see me again. I must admit I love shocking people and proving people wrong. Oh... why I almost died??? Pure negligence and apathy of my doctors I had bronchitis for 2 years and a severe case of sleep apnea. This combination left untreated can be lethal. I repeatedly went to the doctors with a severe cough which was called acid reflux or I had allergies. I swelled up like a ballon because I was fluid overloading. I had at least four trips to the ER and luckily on my last ER trip I passed out and began to turn blue just as the doctor had decided there was nothing wrong with me and was going to send me home. They diagnosed the brochitis, sleep apnea and a big surprise congestive heart failure. I am severely overweight according to my height and my heart can't support this much weight. I was admited for four days then sent home with oxygen, a CPAP machine would follow in a few months. You know coming so close to death does change a person. I am now keenly aware of my mortality. I view each season, each holiday each visit with a friend or family member as a gift. As I type this I am sitting here with the doors and windows open and loving the fresh air and sunshine. I am so pale now I look like Morticia Adams. the brown sunspots on my hand have even faded. I started a container garden and I already have 2 little tomatos growing and a strawberry on my strawberry plant. All these years I was waiting for my own house with my own yard to have a garden . I wish I had thought of a container garden a long time ago. Oh well live and learn I guess. Lesson learned here, don't wait to do something until its the best time. We aren't promised tomorrow and we can't get today back so we should seize the day, grab the moment and live it to its fullest. I learned this the hard way. Nothing goes as planned so just do what you can today. Well, that's it for todays entry.