Everything I do

 

 

Chapter 13

 

“No! No!” Helen realised the sound was coming from her own lips. “Don’t tell me this. Please, don’t tell me this.” She murmured, tears rolling down her cheeks. Nikki couldn’t be dead!

 

She heard Karen’s anxious voice from the other end of the phone. “Miss Stewart…Helen, are you alright?”

 

“When did it happen?”

 

“About thirty minutes ago. They’ve taken her to the Royal. I thought you might want to go and see her.”

 

See Nikki’s body? “No, I can’t.”

 

“Wouldn’t you like to be there when she comes round?”

 

“Comes round?” Helen echoed. “You said she had passed away.”

 

“Passed out. You didn’t let me finish.” God save me from hysterical women, she thought. “I’m going to the hospital myself now. Shall I meet you there?”

 

“Yes, and thank you.”

 

 

Helen hurried down the hospital corridor her heart thumping. A blond woman approached her. “Helen?” Helen nodded. “I’m Karen Betts.”

 

“Thank you for calling me, Karen,” Helen forced a weak smile. “How is Nikki?”

 

“They’re still operating on her.” She took Helen’s arm gently. “Why don’t we sit down over there?” She indicated a couple of chairs. “You look as if you’re going to pass out yourself.”

 

“How did it happen?” Helen asked when they were seated. “I thought Nikki had finally learnt how to stay out of trouble.”

 

“One of the inmates was holding an officer at knife-point,” Karen explained. “Nikki managed to disarm her. Unfortunately, she got herself stabbed in the process.”

 

“Nikki always did act first and think later,” Helen told her softly with a hint of pride in her voice.

 

Karen observed Helen closely. So this was her predecessor and, by the look of it, the rumours about her and Nikki Wade were true after all.

 

They sat for what seemed like hours until Di Barker appeared along the corridor. She looked at Helen in surprise. “Why, hello, Miss Stewart, nice to see you. They’re bringing Nikki back now,” she informed them.

 

Helen smiled at her then started to rise.

 

Karen held onto her arm. “Let them get her settled in her room, Helen, then you can see her. Di, why don’t you go and get yourself a drink or something? Take your time.” Karen watched her go then turned to Helen. “We don’t want to fill everyone’s head with gossip.”

 

Helen looked at her in surprise, a flush creeping up her face.

 

“It’s nothing to do with me, Helen,” she said simply.

 

“Miss Betts,” a nurse came up to them. “You can see Miss Wade now but only for a few minutes.”

 

They stopped outside the door to Nikki’s room. “Can I see her alone, please?” Helen looked at Karen pleadingly.

 

Karen nodded. “I don’t think she’s going anywhere.”

 

As Helen started to go into Nikki’s room she suddenly remembered something. “Did you let Nikki’s mother know?”

 

“Shit! I never thought. I don’t suppose you have her number,” Karen asked hopefully as she took a pen and a piece of paper from her handbag.

 

Helen told her the number she had committed to memory and Karen scribbled it down.

 

“Right, I’ll go and ring her now. I’ll see you in a bit.” She walked off down the corridor leaving Helen suddenly scared at what she might find.

 

Helen moved slowly to the bed. There was a drip in Nikki’s arm and her right hand was encased in a plaster cast. Helen had never seen her sleeping and until that moment she hadn’t realised how beautiful she was even though her warm brown eyes, her best feature, were closed. Her dark hair looked even darker against her pallid complexion. She took hold of Nikki’s good hand and held it sandwiched between her own then she bent and pressed her lips gently against the unconscious woman’s. She felt tears sliding down her cheeks and wiped them away with the back of her hand. “I love you so much,” she whispered softly.

 

When Karen returned a short while later, Helen was sitting by the bed still holding Nikki’s hand.

 

“Mrs Wade is on her way,” she announced. “Sorry, Helen, we’ve got to go but Di will be on duty. We’ll let you know as soon as she comes round.”

 

Helen brushed away a stray curl that had fallen onto Nikki’s forehead, squeezed her hand gently then followed Karen from the room.

 

“Fancy a coffee?” Karen suggested. “I know I could use one.” Helen nodded and allowed Karen to lead her away from the hospital.

 

“I had a word with the doctor. She’s going to be alright, Helen,” Karen told her when they were seated in a small coffee bar opposite the hospital. “She was lucky. She has a broken bone in her hand and the knife missed her vital organs.”

 

“Lucky! Why the hell was Nikki doing your job?” Helen demanded angrily. “She shouldn’t have been the one who was stabbed.”

 

“Helen, I know how you feel…”

 

“No, you bloody well don’t!” The tears ran unchecked down Helen’s cheeks. She was crying for Nikki and she was crying for herself. She wanted to be with Nikki and she couldn’t bear the thought Nikki wanted to be with someone else instead of her. If only she had given into her that day in the garden they would still be together and Nikki might not have acted so recklessly. “I’m sorry,” she sniffed. “I had no right to say the things I did.”

 

“It doesn’t matter. I’ve been beating myself over the head as well. It was my responsibility. I should have been the one who waded in, not Nikki.”

 

“She’s not the type to stand back and do nothing. That’s what got her into Larkhall in the first place,” Helen said bitterly. “Will you do me a favour, Karen? Please don’t tell her I came to the hospital.”

 

“Don’t tell her?  But I thought…”

 

“We split up before I left Larkhall because I…because I wouldn’t compromise my position as Governor. It won’t serve any useful purpose letting her know I was here.”

 

“Are you sure you don’t want her to know?”

 

Helen nodded. “I’m sure.”

 

 

Nikki felt as if she was coming out of a long dark tunnel and into the light. She heard someone calling her name. No! She didn’t want to wake up. She was having a lovely dream. Helen was there holding her and telling her how much she loved her. It was so vivid she could almost smell her perfume.

 

“Nikki,” the voice persisted.

 

She opened her eyes slowly. For a minute she couldn’t figure out where she was then she remembered. Hazel had stabbed her.

 

“Nikki,” someone said softly.

 

There was someone sitting by her bed. “Helen.” She could hardly speak her mouth and lips were so dry.

 

“It’s Karen Betts,” she said gently. “You’re in hospital. How do you feel?”

 

“I can’t feel anything below my neck. Have I been paralysed?”

 

Karen smiled patiently. “No, love. The anaesthetic hasn’t worn off yet.”

 

“Was anyone hurt?”

 

“Only you. It was a brave thing you did, Nikki.”

 

“Yeah, well. I was trying to read and all the noise was distracting me.”

 

Karen smiled again. She could see why Helen was attracted to Nikki. With her guard down and a not so bolshie head on she was quite a woman!

 

“Miss Betts, has anyone been to see me?” Nikki was asking.

 

Karen remembered her promise to Helen. “Only Officer Barker, your mother and myself. Your mother has just gone to the loo by the way. There will be a shift change soon, another officer will be coming in.”

 

“As long as it’s not that bastard Fenner. Sorry, Miss,” Nikki apologised but a mischievous smile played around her lips.

 

“It’s alright, Nikki. I’ll forgive you just this once.”

 

The door opened and Joan Wade entered. Her face lit up when she saw Nikki’s eyes were open.

 

“Your mother’s here now. I’ll give you a few minutes alone.” She stood up and as she passed Joan gave her arm a comforting squeeze.

 

“What are we going to do with you?” Joan admonished Nikki gently.

 

“You know me, Ma. I never could keep my big nose out.”

 

Joan warmed when she heard the pet name Nikki had called her as a child though she probably didn’t even realise she had said it.

 

“Have you heard anything from Helen?” Nikki asked her anxiously.

 

Joan shook her head. “I tried to ring her before I set off for the hospital tonight but there was no reply. I suppose I could ring her place of work.”

 

“What’s the point?” Nikke replied desolately. “She knows where I am. If she cared about me she’d get in touch.”

 

Outside in the corridor, Karen heard snatches of the conversation. She smiled to herself. Maybe it was time someone gave two unhappy people a shove in the right direction.

 

 

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