Clouded Judgement

 

 

By

 

Jan

 

Chapter 3

 

Now she had made her peace with Nikki Wade, Helen realised she could string out her investigations for a few more days. The data she was collating was being passed on to a real financial adviser so even if she didn’t find any evidence the women would still be in a position to get their loan.

 

Nikki seemed to be spending more time in the office, sitting on the settee and working at a coffee table that had appeared overnight.

 

Once or twice she had glanced across and found the woman looking at her. During one of these times, Nikki cleared her throat then stood up and walked over to the desk.

 

“How are things looking?” she asked seriously.

 

“Fine. I can’t see any reason why you shouldn’t get your loan,” Helen replied truthfully.

 

Nikki’s face relaxed into a smile. “Why don’t you come to the club one night and have a drink with me?” she suggested.

 

Helen looked at her in surprise. “That’s nice of you but I don’t think it’s my cup of tea.”

 

Nikki raised her eyebrows. “A few drinks, great music, brilliant company is not your cup of tea?” she teased. “We do let straight people in, you know? Anyway, I thought you might have to report back to the bank where their money’s going.”

 

“Alright. You’re on,” Helen agreed. “Tonight?”

 

“Great! See you later.”

 

 

“Nikki Wade has invited me to the club tonight,” she informed Sean when she arrived home. ‘Home’ for the time being was a rented flat supplied by the force. “This could be the break we’ve been waiting

for.”

 

“Do you want me to come with you?”

 

She shook her head. “I think she’s more likely to open up to me if I’m on my own.”

 

He nodded in agreement. “You could be right. Have you found anything out?”

 

“Not a thing.” She kicked off her shoes and sat down on the settee, drawing her knees up beneath her. “I can’t understand why they would need a bank loan if they’re dealing. Apart from the two deaths there doesn’t seem to be any connection with drugs.”

 

“Do you know how many man-hours have gone into this investigation?” he exclaimed. “Everything points back to the club.”

 

“That doesn’t mean Barnes and Wade are guilty,” she countered.

 

“Just don’t let Stubberfield hear you say that. I’ll come and pick you up from the club later. I think it’s time I met them for myself.” He sat down on the settee beside her and ran his hand down her thigh. “Hel, when we’ve finished this case, let’s start making wedding plans,” he said eagerly.

 

Helen looked at him in surprise. They had been seeing each other on and off for about a year but just lately he had been talking about making it more permanent, without ever mentioning marriage. “What brought that on?”

 

“Living here together these past few days has made me realise how good it could be between us. What do you say?”

 

“Let’s get the case out of the way first, Sean,” she edged. “We’ll talk about it then.”

 

“At least you didn’t say ‘no’,” he replied with a boyish grin.

 

‘I didn’t say ‘yes’ either,’ she thought cynically.

 

 

She had been in gay clubs before, both socially and in the line of duty, but as she walked into Skylarks she felt unaccountably nervous.

 

“You made it then?” Nikki spoke behind her.

 

She whirled round. “Yeah. Thanks for inviting me.”

 

Nikki smiled and nodded. “You look great. I like the colour of your blouse.”

 

Helen felt a rush of pleasure at the woman’s words. A woman who herself was ‘drop dead gorgeous’. It had taken her ages to decide what to wear and she had finally settled on a plum-coloured silk blouse she had bought the previous week and black trousers. “Oh, this old thing,” she replied dismissively.

 

“Come on, I’ll get you a drink.”

 

As they pushed their way through the crowd Helen was acutely aware of the arm Nikki had casually placed around her shoulders.

 

“What would you like?” Nikki asked as they reached the bar.

 

“A pint of lager, please,” she replied then smiled with amusement at the surprised look on Nikki’s face. “What?”

 

“You don’t look the type to drink pints.”

 

“Bit sexist that, isn’t it?”

 

Nikki took her hand and looked down at it. “You have such a tiny hand, it’s hard to imagine you could get it around a pint glass.”

 

Helen snatched her hand away. “No Trish tonight?” she asked, the calmness in her voice belying the pounding of her heart.

 

“She’s gone to see her mother.” She leaned towards Helen conspiratorially. “The old witch doesn’t approve of me. She thinks I led her daughter astray.”

 

“And did you?”

 

“I have never led anyone astray who wasn’t up for it.” Nikki chuckled then her face became serious and she looked at Helen with such intensity that the Scot had to turn away.

 

“Helen.”

 

She turned back to find Nikki holding out her drink. After taking it with a muttered ‘thanks’, she turned her attention to the dance floor, much safer than meeting Nikki Wade’s forthright gaze!

 

“Would you like to dance?” Nikki’s soft voice spoke against her ear.

 

“Dance?” she echoed trying to hide her confusion, though why should dancing with this woman be any different than when she danced with her women friends? But she knew dancing with Nikki would be different. None of her friends made her feel the way she was feeling tonight. She could still feel where Nikki’s arm had rested across her shoulders. The searing heat almost taking her skin off. She shook her head. “No! Thanks, anyway.”

 

As the evening progressed, Helen knew she was drinking too much but Nikki hadn’t left her side for a second and the woman’s presence was un-nerving her. They were sitting on high stools beside the bar and she looked around her. The place was heaving even though it was almost closing time. She leaned close to Nikki so she could be heard above the noise. “Is it always this busy?”

 

“This and some,” Nikki said against her ear. “Why do you think we want to expand?”

 

“Have you had any plans drawn up yet?”

 

Nikki nodded. “In the office. Come on I’ll show you.”

 

Before she had time to protest Nikki dragged her off to the office where she took a set of rolled up blueprints from a cupboard and spread them out on the coffee table. She crouched down on her haunches and Helen looked over her shoulder. “We’re going to build an extension here which will almost double the size of the night club.” She pointed to a section of the plan.

 

“But that’s the car park, isn’t it?”

 

“It is now but there’s a disused warehouse at the back. We’ve put in an offer for it and it’s been accepted. Once the ground is levelled, that’s where our new car park will be.” She dropped the first blue print onto the floor and pointed to a section on the one underneath. “We’re going to knock this wall through and build a five-star restaurant upstairs. It’ll be totally sound-proofed so you can’t hear the noise from the club.” She glanced at Helen and saw her broad smile. “What are you grinning at?” she demanded.

 

“You, you’re like a kid who’s been let loose in a toy shop.”

 

“I do get a bit carried away, don’t I?” Nikki said sheepishly.

 

“It’s OK. You must be thrilled. It’s an exciting project.”

 

Nikki stood up, an avid expression on her face. “Don’t you see, if we get this project off the ground Skylarks could be the biggest, bestest club in the country.”

 

“Bestest!” Helen echoed with a smile.

 

“Yeah, the bestest,” Nikki agreed absently. “I think you’re the bestest too,” she said softly as she bent her head and kissed Helen gently.

 

Startled, Helen gasped and tried to draw away but Nikki’s hand on the nape of her neck stilled her. She pushed at Nikki’s shoulder trying to break free. This shouldn’t be happening!

 

Nikki raised her head and looked at her then her hand fell away. “I’m sorry.”

 

As Nikki started to move away, Helen felt bereft and grabbed hold of her arm. Their lips met and she opened her mouth to the thrust of Nikki’s soft, warm tongue. Dear God, what was happening to her? She had never become aroused so quickly in her life, not even with Sean, and she was shaken by her feelings for the woman whose lips were almost devouring her. She felt Nikki’s hands move lightly over her blouse and cup her breasts and began to kiss her back frantically.

 

They drew apart. Helen’s face was flushed, her mouth soft and swollen and her body trembling with desire.

 

“We should stop,” Nikki whispered against her hair. “But I don’t think I can.”

 

“I know,” Helen whispered back. “Neither can I.“

 

Nikki nuzzled her neck. “I want to tear off all your clothes and kiss every part of your body. I want to put my tongue inside you and taste your sweetness.”

 

Helen arched towards her, her body aching for Nikki’s touch. “Then for Christ’s sake stop talking about it and do it! Make love to me!” she demanded harshly.

 

Nikki laughed nervously as, with shaking fingers, she started to unfasten the buttons on Helen’s blouse. As the soft material slid from Helen’s shoulders and onto the floor, Nikki’s hands stroked her bare back and she felt her tremble under her touch. She drew her close and kissed her face and throat as she unhooked her bra clasp. The garment was pushed aside as her mouth fastened over Helen’s nipple. She heard Helen whimper softly and tore her mouth away and again captured her lips. She took Helen’s hands and clamped them to her own breasts and held them there until she felt them move beneath her own.

 

“This is no good, “ Helen said softly against her mouth. “I want to feel you against me.”

 

Nikki released her just long enough to strip off her T-shirt and bra then pulled her roughly back into a burning kiss. She moaned softly as Helen’s hands caressed her breasts. Through the haze of passion that was clouding her brain, she became vaguely aware of a bell ringing and raised her head.

 

“Nikki,” Helen breathed her name and tried to pull her head back down.

 

“Shit!” she said harshly. “There’s someone at the back door.” She crossed to an intercom on the wall and stabbed her finger on the button. “What!”

 

Helen heard a muffled voice then Nikki turned and looked at her.

 

“Someone called ‘Sean’ for you.”

 

“Oh, God!” Helen exclaimed. “I’d forgotten he said he’d come and pick me up.”

 

Nikki frowned. “Who is he?”

 

“My partner.”

 

“Let him wait then.” She moved quickly and pulled Helen back into her arms but as she tried to kiss her, Helen turned her face away.

 

“Nikki, don’t, please. When I said partner, I didn’t mean business partner,” Helen said softly. “We’re getting married.”

 

Nikki released her as if she had suddenly become red hot and backed away from her, hands raised. “Oh, shit! Oh, shit!” she exclaimed. “What have you done to me?” she said accusingly. “I almost betrayed Trish because of you.”

 

“What I’ve done to you?” Helen demanded. “What about what you’ve done to me?”

 

“You were the one begging me to make love to you.”

 

“Because it was what you wanted too.”

 

The doorbell rang again and Nikki ran her fingers through her hair. “Get dressed,” she ordered. “And I’ll go and let him in.” She snatched up her T-shirt and bra and dressed quickly then hurried down the back stairs. She took a deep breath before yanking the door open.

 

“Hi, I’m Sean. I’ve come to pick Helen up.”

 

Nikki eyed him distastefully. What the hell did Helen see in a floppy-haired prat like him? She forced a smile that didn’t come close to reaching her eyes. “She’s upstairs.” As she went back upstairs she was conscious of him behind her. She opened the office door and allowed him to precede her into the room.

 

“Hiya, babe,” she heard him say lovingly. She watched as he slid possessive arms around Helen’s waist and gave her a lingering kiss. Helen’s eyes met hers defiantly over his shoulder and she gave her a mocking smile before turning away.

 

“Use the back door on your way out,” she said sullenly. “Just slam it and I’ll lock it later.” She went out of the room. She couldn’t bear to see Helen in Sean’s arms a moment longer.

 

She went into the now deserted nightclub and poured herself a large brandy. As she stood swirling it around the glass, she heard Helen’s voice behind her.

 

“Nikki.”

 

She swallowed a mouthful of the fiery liquid then turned to face her. “Where’s lover boy?” she demanded sarcastically.

 

“He’s using the loo. About what happened.”

 

“Don’t worry, Helen, it won’t happen again.”

 

“Good.” Helen gave a relieved sigh. “You know there can never be anything between us. I’ve had too much to drink and it was just a moment of madness. I’m not like you.”

“A dyke, you mean?” Nikki asked bitterly. “Are you trying to tell me you’ve never been aroused by a woman holding you, kissing you, touching your breasts?”

 

Helen blushed as Nikki’s words hit home.

 

“Are you really so different to me, Helen?” she said softly. “But that wasn’t what I meant when I said it wouldn’t happen again. Next time I won’t stop and I’ll make it as hard for you to leave me as it is for me to let you go with him now.” She placed her glass on the bar and started to advance towards Helen.

 

“Nikki, please don’t make it difficult for me to work with you.”

 

“I won’t make it difficult, Helen. I’ll make it bloody impossible! Remember that then you’re in bed with him tonight.” She grabbed hold of Helen’s arms and pulled her hard against her. “And remember this.” She fastened her mouth over Helen’s then, hearing Sean’s footsteps in the corridor, thrust her roughly away.

 

“I’ve been thinking, Hel,” Sean said as he came through the door, totally oblivious to the tension between the two women. “We could hold our engagement party here?”

 

“We’re fully booked,” Nikki retorted.

 

“But…”

 

“Leave it for now, Sean, “ Helen interrupted quickly. “Come on, we’d better be going. ‘Night, Nikki.” She headed for the door before he had time to argue.

 

Sean shrugged. “’Night, then…Nikki, is it?” he said pleasantly.

 

“Yeah, ‘night.” She watched him leave the room then, with a wicked smile playing round the corners of her mouth, said softly to herself, ‘Please, God, let him fall downstairs and break his bloody floppy-haired neck!’ When she heard the back door slam she knew her prayers hadn’t been answered and her face became serious. There was no way she could go home to Trish and act as if everything was alright, not tonight. She went downstairs and bolted the back door, set the burglar alarm then went back up and lay on the settee in the office. She would just have to tell Trish she had been drinking and couldn’t drive home. Anything but the truth…that she had fallen hopelessly and totally in love with Helen Stewart!

 

    

“You’re quiet,” Sean commented as they pulled up outside the flat.

 

Helen forced a weak smile. “Sorry. I’m tired and I have a headache.”

 

“I know just the cure for that,” he leered. As he leaned across to kiss her she turned and got out of the car. He frowned and then shrugged. She was in one of her moods again but he knew how to get round her. He ran up the steps, grabbed hold of her around the waist and carried her bodily into the hallway where he pressed her up against the wall and ground his hips against her. “Fancy a shag?”

 

Helen looked at him distastefully, a picture of Nikki Wade forming in her mind. She momentarily closed her eyes. She wasn’t like Nikki! She wasn’t! She slid her arms around Sean’s neck. “Yes,” she murmured against his mouth.

 

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