WHO

AM

I?

I am a woman predisposed to introspection and introversion,
and discontent with myself and many aspects of being human --

I am a pacifist.


I am spiritual -- I believe in the inter-connectedness
of life, the 'oneness'. The Universe is my word for 'God'.

 

      CREATIVITY


I love writing, art (obviously!), modern dance (my

teacher, Lynda Raino, is a FANTASTIC emotive

choreographer whose work is influenced by the very late

Martha Graham), music, theatre; all of those 'ARTS'

that we humans SO BEAUTIFULLY express through.

I think the most BEAUTIFUL part of humanity

is CREATIVITY.

 

MY LOVE OF NATURE
I battle with guilt because of the impact my life-style has on nature and animals. It's tough to be part of humanity with feeling guilt for having 'taken over' the planet, 'controlling' it and pushing nature out of balance. I enjoy nature daily if possible -- a walk on a trail in the woods is my meditation -- it makes the rest of the day go better.

 

I have a love/hate relationship with technology. I hate creating
pollution but I do it anyway: driving a car, and (in keeping with
North American living standards) using gluttonous amounts of
natural resources (oit, electricity), buying pre-packaged foods
and other non-essential 'stuff'... I love/hate computers and television
too, but I use them almost daily.

I live with a Battle in my Head because I haven't figured out how
to balance 'cerebral/spiritual values' with 'lifestyle'.

 

DRUGS
Recreational drug use (including alcohol) is okay; it can be fun
AS LONG as you are not taking care of children (or driving).
I prefer (most of the time) to take on life with the brain chemistry
that the universe has given me naturally...I only came to this value
when I became responsible for another little soul...when I became a Mom.

Having just taken a stance on addiction to pot (and other drugs), I also
feel pot is far less damaging than alcohol ( it doesn't cause aggressive
behaviour) and I would like to see it legalized! It is up to individual
people to ensure they don't abuse drugs.

        

 

FAMILY
Despite my 'holistic' values, my life (and poetry) is 'not exactly, uh,
'balanced'. I got separated last year. I left my 'ex' because we have
too many differing values, interests, and communication style.. We
are the classic example of two people who rushed into baby-making
and marriage before getting to know each other! Despite being
separated we being as kind to each other as possible, trying
to 'co-parent' our seven-year-old child as well as is possible...		    

 

  I totally love my daughter, she's so vibrant,
creative and loving. I believe in a parenting
philosophy called 'attachment parenting'.
This includes values like not pushing your
child to independence before they are ready,
being emotionally in tune and available to
your child (including not pushing them away
at night if they 'need' you), not spanking,
and nursing for a good long time when they
are very young.

 

MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS
I came down with Multiple Sclerosis symptoms after my first and only pregnancy. This is a condition where your immune system starts attacking the myelin coating on your spinal cord, brain and optic nerves (the myelin coating is the actual 'white matter'). Where the myelin is degenerating, the nerve impulses from the brain get muddled. In mild attacks you get sensory distortions like numb limbs, or you feel really hot/cold patches, or you may		  
  even feel part of your body is simply 'not there anymore'. In moderate
attacls your muscles don't respond properly to what the brain tells them
to do. Aside from coordination, MS can affect hearing, vision, vertigo,
speech, I could go on! Lucky for me I only have mild to moderate attacks
and only 2 or 3 times a year. SO Far. Stress management is key to keeping
the disease at bay, as is getting enough sleep and eating well. I'm not
great at stress management these days, but, oh well...

 

MY CHILDHOOD
It's a long story but the short version is I am the youngest of three,
and my parents divorced when I was six years old.

My Mom was and is gay, which in my opinion is not a bad thing, but it
did make my childhood atypical. We children had to live with 'hiding'
our home life, as our Mom was a school teacher. Also, the partners Mom
had when we were young were mentally unstable people, which was
hard on us.

My Dad totally objectified ALL women and lived in the distortion of the
past (and still does those things), and is Manic/Depressive.

Both my parents are FANTASTICALLY musical -- my Dad emotes on
the piano and organ in a classical way, and my Mom plays piano
in the 'show tune' way and loves to sing. I can thank both of them
for the gift of music.

Jane Lily

        

 

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