Title: The Hardest Thing
Author: Jami Lynn
Chapter: 1
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the wrestlers used in this story, 'cause if I
did, I'd be busy with them right now *grin*. But I do own Jami, for she is me.
Tasha owns herself. (Heaven help the person who tries to claim he/she owns
either of us). This is the next part of a song fic series. The first part being
I Honestly Love You. The second part being Ain't It Funny. the third part being
she's been good to me. The song is the property of 98*. And the address to the
stories is at the bottom of this email. And I use the wrestlers wrestling names
in the story, JUST DEAL WIT IT! And don't bother suing me...all you'd get is a
half eaten ham sandwich and a bag of chips from 2 years ago.
Distribution: Ask me if you can use it, more than likely I will say yes.
Rating: So far, it's a PG-13
Content: Nothing bad as of yet, probably won't be anything to bad
either....maybe some cussing.
Spoilers: Um...anything can happen and I'm just writing as I go, so I don't know
yet *L*.
Summary: oh the hell with the whole summary. Everyone loves everyone.
Feedback: I need feedback like I need air! So give it to me, babee! I have been
suffocating lately....so please, send in the feedback.
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Adam was pacing around the outside of the hotel. His long blonde hair was pulled
up tightly under a baseball cap, the bill low over his eyes. He had his jacket
zipped up all the way so he could hide his chin underneath that. He didn't want
anyone to recognize him. Not that there was anyone out...it was 2 in the
morning.
He was waiting for Jami. She had this weird habit of going off on a walk at two
in the morning, not the most safe habit, but one she refused to give up. She
said it was her favorite time of the entire day. The only time she ever thought
clearly.
Adam was feeling rather guilty, since his girlfriend Tasha lay asleep in their
room upstairs, having no idea he was even gone. But he had to talk to Jami. Just
the other night she had confessed that she not only loved her boyfriend Jeff,
but that she also loved him. And he had never had the chance to say anythiing to
her then. But he wasn't about to be denied right now.
***
We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that.
***
Just then Adam's eyes landed on Jami rounding the corner of the hotel. She
stopped when she saw him, confusion shining in her eyes. She slowly began to
walk towards him. He took her in from the small distance.
She wore a pair of faded blue jeans and tight lavander shirt that showed off her
curves. Her brown hair looked especially dark in the night, and was loose around
her face. She stood in front of him, her eyes asking him what he wanted.
"Jami. I wanted you to know....well, that your feelings aren't unrequited.
I love you too. I love Tasha. I love you. Hell, we are all in love. And I
shouldn't even be here, now, telling you this. Tasha is up in our room, asleep,
not having a clue how I feel about you. And I am not telling you this so we can
run off somewhere and live happily ever after, but more so.....so I can go and
live happily ever after with Tasha. And you can go live happily ever after with
Jeff. They both deserve that." Adam said.
***
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I dont' love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you.
***
"Why are you telling me this?" Jami asked him, obviously confused.
"Because...well, because from this moment on I'm going to have to walk away
from here, and pretend I don't love you. If you ever ask me again if I love you,
I'll tell you know, even though it will be a lie. But I can't afford to tell you
the truth after this. I love Tasha. And I have to be with her. So from this
moment, as far as you know, I don't love you." Adam told her.
***
I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
'Cause there can be no happy ending
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you
***
"Why are you telling me this? Just to be cruel?" Jami asked, tears
streaming down her face. "Maybe...maybe I'm hoping that if I'm cruel, you
won't hurt so much when you know that we can't be together. There is no happy
ending in store for us together, but with Tasha I have my happy ending and you
have yours with Jeff. I'm sorry. I do love you, and there will always be a piece
of me that does, but I'm locking that piece up. It can never be
rediscovered." Adam told her, a part of his heart breaking as he watched
her cry.
***
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
***
"Maybe if we had met first this could all have been different. I know. But
you have your man and I have my woman. And I don't regret getting with mine, and
I know you love your's. So now that I've told you, we can go on with our lives.
The moment I walk away...I no longer love you." Adam choked out, trying not
to cry himself. Then he turned and left Jami standing there, tears running down
her face.
***
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye and tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To turn around and walk away pretending I don't love you
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