Title: What Might've Been
Author: Jami Lynn
Chapter: 1
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the wrestlers used in this story, 'cause if I
did, I'd be busy with them right now *grin*. The song belongs to the one and
only Texas Little. And don't bother suing me...all you'd get is a half eaten ham
sandwich and a bag of chips from 2 years ago.
Distribution: Ask me if you can use it, more than likely I will say yes.
Rating: So far, it's a PG-13
Content: Nothing bad as of yet, probably won't be anything to bad
either....maybe some cussing.
Spoilers: Um...anything can happen and I'm just writing as I go, so I don't know
yet *L*.
Summary: Again, I have some things I just really need to work out, so I'm doing
it in story format. I'm hoping this helps my battling emotions. Anyway, the
shane in the story is Shane Helms, 'cause he most resembles my ex. Anyway, on
with the story.
Feedback: I need feedback like I need air! So give it to me, babee! I have been
suffocating lately....so please, send in the feedback.
Email:[email protected]
April swept the small broom in her hands in a wide arch, pushing the small pile
of dirt closer to her. She was almost done with the cleaning tasks that came
along with her overnight shift at the gas station she worked at.
She felt the air stir around her when someone opened the door and she looked up.
Her hand quickly grasped the broom handle that had nearly slipped from them when
her eyes met the eyes of the man who had just walked in.
The sickly familiar fluttering in her stomach reminded her heart to pound.
Dressed in casually baggy jeans, a white t-shirt and a blue checkered unbuttoned
shirt over that. Her eyes traveled across the achingly familiar face, all the
way up to where his short, spiked, brown hair was tipped with green.
"Hey." He smiled at her and the fluttering in her stomach increased. Realizing
that she hadn't said anything yet and was just looking at him dumbfounded she
let herself fall into his welcoming hug.
"Sh-shane, what are you doing here?" April asked, pulling herself out of his
embrace. Her mind raced to remember the last time they had spoken. It had been
in that very station, nearly 5 months ago. They had parted way on not so
friendly terms that night and hadn't spoken since.
"I was in town and saw your car, so I thought I'd stop by and catch up with an
old friend." Shane said. April leaned the broom against a small ice cream
freezer, and on the pretense of throwing something away, she moved so the small
freezer was in between them. The smile on Shane's face dimmed when he realized
that April had purposely put space between them.
"How have you been?" he asked. "I've been great. I'm healthy. I have a social
life on nights I don't work, and I have a job that I actually like. I have the
best of all world's." April smiled.
Shane's hand reached out to grab the broom and leaned some of his weight on it.
"I guess a lot has changed since we last talked." Shane said quietly. April
nodded as her mind traveled back to how they had been at one time. NIghts of
sitting in the park, watching the stars, and talking about anything and
everything. Nights of sleeping in each others arms, feeling completely immersed
in love.
***
Sure I think about you now and then
But it's been a long long time
I've got a good life now, I've moved on
So when you cross my mind
I try not to think about
What might have been
'cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been.
***
April finally brought herself into the present and saw Shane watching her with
eyes that were glazed with past memories. "Do you ever wonder where we both
would be if we had stayed together?" Shane asked.
April swallowed the conflicting emotions that were playing keep away with her
heart. "Sometimes." was all she said. "I miss you." Shane said, moving to step
around the ice cream freezer. April started to back up, fear reminding her of
how he had left her with a broken heart.
The air shifted around them as a couple walked in, clutching each other against
the cold night. April moved to stand behind the counter, her eyes following the
couple, afraid to look at Shane.
Shane removed his bulky coat and laid it over the top of the freezer before he
walked back to the the fountain area. A whir a few seconds later signaled he was
getting a cappaccino. A few moments passed before he was back in front of her.
Trying to keep from trembling from how near he was, and that look in his eyes,
she took his money and handed him his change. As her fingertips brushed his
palm, a shiver raced through her body. Luckily the couple had come up behind
him.
As she rang their purchases up, bagged them and took their money, she reminded
herself to get her emotions under control. She couldn't let him weave his spell
over her again. She's fallen for it to many times in the past.
***
We could sit and talk about this all night long
And wonder why we didn't last
Yes they might have be the best days
We will ever know
But we'll have to leave them in the past
I try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been
***
When the couple left April turned to look at Shane, who had one hand around the
broom handle while the other brought the cappuccino up to his lips. Small talk
passed between them for half an hour before he brought it back to the more
personal edge.
"I saw Kara last night." Shane said. The name felt like a thousand bee stings
across her body and she fought the urge to throw up. Kara, the woman Shane had
been sleeping with for the last few weeks of their first attempt at a
relationship. Their relationship had ended for reasons that had nothing to do
with Kara. In fact, April hadn't even known Kara existed until after their
second failed attempt at a relationship. Shane had dumped her that time to be
with Kara, a face April had realized when Kara and Shane had become an official
item less than 24 hours after Shane had massacred April's heart.
At first April had wanted to think the best, and had decided not to hate her
because she was with Shane. She wanted to hate her because she was a horrible
human being. After talking to her, April knew that Shane had cheated on her with
Kara. A fact Shane didn't dispute.
April collided into the present when fingers appeared in front of her face and
snapped. "huh?" April asked. "I was telling you that Kara and I broke it off 4
months ago. She had some insane idea that we would get back together and end up
married. I told her that we were over forever and that I would never get married
to her." Shane said with a heavy sigh.
"how'd she take that one?" April heard herself asking, wondering where her voice
came from. "Not well. But she had to know. Anyway, I was wondering if you wanted
to go grab a bite to eat sometime while I'm in town?" he asked.
"Uh, maybe. Email me and we'll talk about it. I really don't have time to now. I
need to finish cleaning and all." her eyes checked the clock which read 3:00 AM.
'Forgive me for lying God.' April sent up a quick silent prayer.
"Oh yeah, sure. I need to go anyway. Great seeing you again. I'll email you."
Shane smiled one of his special smiles at her while he slipped on his coat, but
April avoided his eyes.
***
That same old look in your eyes
It's a beautiful night
I'm so tempted to stay
But to much time has gone by
We should just say goodbye
And turn and walk away
I try not to think about
What might have been
'Cause that was then
And we have taken different roads
We can't go back again
There's no use giving in
And there's no way to know
What might have been
***
April watched him walk out to his car, and she kept watching until his tail
lights disappeared. 'Back to watching Raw to get a glimpse of him.' she thought
as her hand grabbed the broom.
She felt the warmth of where his hand had just been. "Yeah, I do wonder what
might have been.....a lot." April said out loud to the empty store.
***
No we'll never know
What might have been
***
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