essence of godot             9-30-92


aspirations 
and an enduring of the siege 
of waiting 
for the elusive master 
of mental control who
blows himself up to supernatural size


a visceral suffering 
deep/ profound that magnifies itself 
in geometric ratios 
creating/ birthing 
suffering upon suffering

this is madness refined 
for which i thank godot/ 
the god/man
of plentitudes of pain and purgation

there is magical mental madness 
from listening to he who is 
without virtue sufficient 
for he sports with the truth 
or pseudo-truths 
or perhaps none at all 
and tries with these tools 
to gain a foothold on this 
earth

this man is four dimensional 
yet a phantom/ 
a bearer of gifts in phantom's 
form
visible yet intangible 
gifts for the living 
whose lives are played out
in bountiful illusions
of gifts of salvation galore

and godot made a promise 
of the eternal return 
and for this we wait for him 
in our current states to 
be pitied
for the dubious propositions 
of an earthly salvation 
to be gleaned from a false god

what lengths we will go to 
to achieve this benefice 
while eternity is available 
to stare in the face

what lengths we will go to 
to look death squarely in the eye 
yet only here will we learn 
something of reality