Losing a whole year.
Losing a whole year.
I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed.
Losing a whole year,
Hiding in your room, we'd lay like dogs
Till the phone would ring
Like a joke that's left unsaid.
Losing a whole year.
Rich daddy left you with a parachute.
Your voice sounds like money,
And your face is cute.
But your daddy left you with no love,
You touch everything with a velvet glove,
And now you want to try a life of sin.
You want to be down with the down and in.
Always copping my truths,
I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used.
And now I realize that you never heard
One goddamned word I ever said.
Losing a whole year.
Losing a whole year.
I took your stuff and put it in the basement
When I found out what the smile on your face meant.
I've seen you pop that check,
Craning your neck at the car wreck,
And it always seems the juice used to flow.
In the car, in the kitchen, you were good to go.
Now we're stuck with the tube,
A sink full of dishes and some Aqua Lube.
And I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed.
Losing a whole year.
And if it's not the defense, then you're on the attack.
When you start talking I hear the Prozac.
Convinced you've found your place
With the pierced queer teens in cyberspace.
When you were yourself it was tasting sweet
It sours into a routine deceit.
Well this drama is a bore,
And I don't want to play no more.
Losing a whole year.
I remember you and me used to spend
The whole goddamned day in bed.
Narcolepsy
I'm on a train,
But there's no one at the helm.
And there's a demon in my brain
That starts to overwhelm.
And there it goes,
My last chance for peace.
I lay me down,
But I get no release.
And I say, I,
I try to keep awake,
I try to swim beneath,
I try to keep awake, but I,
I can feel this narcolepsy slide
Into another nightmare.
And there's a demon in my head who starts to play
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday,
And I hold my breath till it's more than I can take,
And I close my eyes, I dream that I'm awake.
I try to keep awake.
I try to keep awake.
I try to keep awake, but I,
I can feel this narcolepsy slide
Into another nightmare.
I read dead Russian authors volumes at a time.
I write everything down except what's on my mind
'Cause my greatest fear is that sucking sound,
And then I know I'll never get back out.
And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink
In a crowded room where the glasses clink,
And I'll buy you a beer, and we'll drink it deep
Because that keeps me from falling asleep.
I said,
How'd you like to be alone and drowning?
How'd you like to be alone and drowning?
How'd you like to be alone and drowning?
How'd you like to be alone and drowning?
Still I find this narcolepsy slide, slide
Into another nightmare.
I can feel this narcolepsy slide...
Semi-Charmed Life
I'm packed, and I'm holding.
I'm smiling, she's living, she's golden.
She lives for me,
Says she lives for me ovation.
Her own motivation.
She comes round, and she goes down on me,
And I make her smile, it's like a drug for you.
Do ever what you want to do coming over you.
Keep on smiling, what we go through.
One stop to the rhythm that divides you,
And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse.
Chop another line like a coda with a curse,
And I come on like a freak show takes the stage,
We give them the games she play,
She said,
I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life.
Baby, baby,
I want something else.
I'm not listening when you say,
Goodbye.
The sky it was gold, it was rose.
I was taking sips of it through my nose,
And I wish I could get back there someplace,
Back there smiling in the pictures you would take.
Doing crystal meth will lift you up until you break.
It won't stop,
I won't come down, I keep stock
With a tick-tock rhythm,
And a bump for the drop,
And then I bumped up.
I took the hit that I was given,
Then I bumped again,
And then I bumped again.
I said,
How do I get back there to
The place where I fell asleep inside you?
How do I get myself back to
The place where you said,
I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life.
Baby, baby,
I want something else,
I'm not listening when you say,
Goodbye.
I believe in the sand beneath my toes.
The beach gives a feeling, an earthy feeling.
I believe in the faith that grows,
And the four right chords can make me cry.
When I'm with you I feel like I could die,
And that would be alright, alright.
When the plane came in,
She said she was crashing.
The velvet, it rips in the city.
We tripped on the urge to feel alive.
But now I'm struggling to survive
Those days you were wearing that velvet dress.
You're the priestess, I must confess
Those little red panties, they pass the test.
Slides up around the belly, face down on the mattress.
One, now you hold me
And we're broken,
Still its all that I want to do.
Just a little now,
I feel myself with a head made of the ground.
I'm scared, but I'm not coming down.
No, no.
And I won't run for my life.
She's got her jaws just locked now in smile,
But nothing is alright, alright.
I want something else
To get me through this life.
Baby, I want something else
Not listening when you say,
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.
The sky it was rose, it was gold.
I was taking sips of it through my nose,
And I wish I could get back there someplace,
Back there, in the place we used to start.
I, I, I, I,
I want something else.
Jumper
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.
The angry boy, a bit too insane,
Icing over a secret pain.
You know you don't belong.
You're the first to fight.
You're way too loud.
You're the flash of light.
On a burial shroud.
I know something's wrong.
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away.
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.
Well he's on the table, and he's gone to code,
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here,
And your friends have left,
You've been dismissed.
I never thought it would come to this,
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons.
Maybe today, we can put the past away.
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've living in,
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.
I would understand.
(I would understand.)
(I would understand.)
(I would understand.)
Can you put the past away?
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.
(I would understand.)
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.
(I would understand.)
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.
And I would understand.
(I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.)
And I would understand.
(I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.)
And I would understand.
Graduate
Can I graduate?
Can I graduate?
Can I look in faces that I'll meet?
Can I get my punk ass off the street
I've been living on for so long?
Can I graduate?
To the bastard talking down to me,
Your whipping boy, calamity.
Cross your fingers,
I'm going to knock it all down.
Can I graduate?
Echo fading, we can't let go.
She goes walking by in slow mo.
Sell your heart out for a buck.
Go on, fade out before I get stuck.
Talking to somebody like you,
Do you live the days you go through?
Will this song live on long after we do?
Can I graduate?
Can I look in faces that I'll meet?
Can I get my punk ass off the street?
Won't die on the vine,
I want to knock it all down.
Can I graduate?
Echo fading, candle blow,
Did you flash out long ago?
Cross my fingers, I don't know.
Someone poked you down below.
Can I graduate?
Can I graduate?
Can I graduate?
Can I graduate?
Can I graduate?
Can I get my punk ass off the street?
Can I look in faces that I'll meet?
I'm not waiting here for you to die.
Will this song live on long after we do?
How's It Going To Be
I'm only pretty sure
That I can't take anymore,
Before you take a swing, I wonder
What are we fighting for?
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this.
I wonder is there anything I'm gonna miss.
I wonder how it's going to be
When you don't know me.
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there?
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me.
'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be?
How's it going to be?
Where we used to laugh,
There's a shouting match.
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch.
A silence I can't ignore,
Like the hammock by the doorway
We spent time in, swings empty.
I don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me.
I wonder how's it going to be
When it goes down.
How's it going to be
When you're not around?
How's it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me?
'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be?
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore?
How's it going to be?
Want to get myself back in again,
The soft dive of oblivion.
I want to taste the salt of your skin.
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion.
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore?
How's it going to be?
How's it going to be?
How's it going to be?
Thanks a Lot
It's all in your mind, she said the darkness and the light.
The clock it bleeds for you, but you never got the time in right.
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence,
And we laughed in the night, and I felt alright.
All hands on deck boys, 'cause this ship was made to sink.
Your swabber salutes you now, but I know what he's thinking.
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence,
And we laughed in the night, and I felt alright.
Thanks a lot. Thanks a lot.
Don't even know, thanks a lot.
The clothes she wears misfit, and she's nervous when she speaks.
Her zombie mom and dad live in a separate house of freaks.
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence,
And we laughed in the night, and I felt alright.
Thanks a lot. Thanks a lot.
Don't even know, thanks a lot.
I'm the one for you,
'Cause I know all the dirty things you like to do.
I'm the fear in your eyes,
I'm the fire in your flies.
I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head
Thanks a lot. Thanks a lot.
Don't even know, thanks a lot.
Thanks a lot.
Burning Man
The rise and fall of my sloppy love,
The smatterings and splatterings,
They'll get you.
I'm not the one you were thinking of.
Maybe you thought I'd call
Instead of crashing down your hall.
Hold me down, I want to find out.
You know you will never get what you need.
Blue Diamond, strike 'em anywhere.
First we caffeinate, then incinerate.
We'll get you,
And sparks will fly in the summer air.
Did you pull out of your stall?
Maybe I'll see you after all.
Hold me down, I want to find out.
We say no, 'cause I live my life
Like a burning a man, like a burning man,
A burning man, like a burning man.
And I won't get enough until my legs are broken.
The stars, they shine in an empty void.
Life is not to fear, life is to enjoy.
They'll get you.
Mr. Death catches all some day.
Baby, I thought you'd call
Or leave a light on in the hall.
Hold me down, I want to find out.
We say no, 'cause I live my life
Like a burning a man, like a burning man,
A burning man, like a burning man.
Hold me down, I want to find out.
We say no, 'cause I live my life
Like a burning a man, like a burning man,
A burning man, like a burning man.
And I won't get enough until my legs are broken.
Good For You
Hey, will you stay awhile?
My smile will not mislead you.
'Cause I've been alone,
My faith turned to stone.
Still there's something in you
That I believe in.
Close to your pierce
I go wild and fierce,
Still I let you be.
I feel you next to me.
'Cause inside I feel
A wind that starts to blow.
I'm taken in your undertow.
Everything is fine,
I'm lonely all the time.
'Cause all I want to do is be there for the things that's you're going through.
Well is it good for you?
Is it good for you?
'Cause you haunt the nights when I don't know where my life should go.
Well is it good for you?
Is it good for you?
Hey child, please stay awhile.
My smile will not mislead you.
'Cause I've been without,
I go wild with doubt.
I grab at you.
I can't stop grabbing at you.
'Cause I feel you cross my mind in disarray,
Intoxicated ricochet.
There's nothing wrong.
Just don't take too long.
'Cause all I want to do is be there for the things that's you're going through.
Well is it good for you?
Is it good for you?
'Cause you haunt the nights when I don't know where my life should go.
Well is it good for you?
Well is it good for you?
All I want to do is be there for the things that's you're going through.
Well is it good for you?
Well is it good for you?
'Cause you haunt the nights when I don't know where my life should go.
Well is it good for you?
Well is it good for you?
London
Through the satellites I fight with you.
That local brew is spillin',
I know just how you spend your time.
I want to get my hands on him.
Somebody's party in a London flat,
You're where it's at, and I know
You want to see me loose my mind.
I'm tired of chasing after you.
The residue is jealous,
See me on the dark side of your mind.
I want to get my hands on him.
To a club that's pounding in the London rain,
The world could end,
We won't hear it.
I know just what's on your mind.
I see the way your face has changed.
We're no good for each other.
You tricked me into coming here,
So let go,
I don't want to go to London,
I told you I don't care.
I don't want to go to London,
To live there.
I don't want to go to London,
All your friends afflicted.
I don't want to go to London,
She's addicted.
I saw you with him,
I know where you've been.
That nose is broken wide open.
Your way has got me out of line.
I want to get my hands on him.
You're so sick just to make me prove
It takes a fight to move you.
I know just what's on your mind.
It's been this way a thousand years.
We torture each other.
So why the hell did you call me here?
When you know,
I don't want to go to London,
I told you I don't care.
I don't want to go to London,
To live there.
I don't want to go to London,
All your friends afflicted.
I don't want to go to London,
She's addicted.
I don't want to go to London,
I told you I don't care.
I don't want to go to London,
'Cause you're not there
Even when I see you,
You're somewhere else in London.
I Want You
The suckers lose themselves in the games they love to play,
And children love to sing, but then their voices slowly fade away.
People always take a step away from what is true,
That's why I like you around.
I want you.
Oh, you do, you do, you do, you do, you do,
You do, you do, you do,
You're making me want you.
An open invitation to the dance,
Happenstance, set the vibe that we were in.
No apology because my urge is genuine,
And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine.
Here I am, and I want to take a hit of your scent
'Cause it bit so deep into my soul.
I want you.
Yeah, you do, you do, you do, you do, you do,
You do, you do, you do,
You're making me want you.
Oh, you do, you do, you do, you do, you do, (send me all your vampires)
You do, you do, you do,
I want you.
And I can't get enough (you, and you, and you, and you).
And I can't get enough.
And I can't get enough (oh, oh, I, you, I, I).
The village churchyard, there were bones weeping in the grave.
A silver lining of clouds shines on people Jesus couldn't save.
You wanted to know how deeply my soul goes,
Deeper than bones, deeper than bones.
And I can't get enough (I, I, I, I, I).
Oh, I can't get enough.
And I can't get enough (you, you, you, you, you).
Oh, I can't get enough.
After we did it by the windowsill,
Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky.
Presently in the quilt that your mother made,
A burning candle to fight off the gloom.
I said, to live this way is not for the meek (send me all your vampires),
And like a jazz DJ, you talk me into sleep.
I said there will be no regrets when the worms come (send me all your vampires),
And they shall surely come.
Yeah, you do, you do, you do, you do, you do,
You do, you do, you do,
You're making me want you (send me all your vampires).
Yeah, you do, you do, you do, you do, you do,
You do, you do, you do,
You're making me want you (send me all your vampires).
I want you (send me all your vampires).
I want you (send me all your vampires).
Send me all your vampires.
There will be no regrets when the worms come.
Send me all your vampires.
The Background
Everything is quiet
Since you're not around,
And I live in the numbness now
In the background.
I do the things we did before.
I walk Haight Street to the store.
And they say where's that crazy girl?
You don't get drunk on red wine
And fight no more.
I don't see you anymore,
Since the hospital.
The plans I make still have you in them
As you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words
Like I always used to do.
The words they use so lightly,
I only feel for you.
I only know because I carry you around
In the background.
I'm in the background.
Words they come and memories all repeat.
Lift your head while they change the hospital sheets.
And I would never lie to you, no.
I would never lie to you, no.
I felt you long after we were through,
When we were through.
And the plans I make still have you in them
'Cause you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words
Like I always used to do.
The words they use so lightly,
I only feel for you.
I only know because I carry you around
In the background.
'Cause I felt you long after we were through.
When you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words
Like I always used to do.
The words they use so lightly,
I only feel for you.
I only know because I'm way,
I'm way in the background.
I'm in the background.
Motorcycle Drive By
Summer time and the wind is blowing outside
In lower Chelsea, and I don't know
What I'm doing in this city,
The sun is always in my eyes.
It crashes through the windows,
And I'm sleeping on the couch
When I came to visit you.
That's when I knew,
That I could never have you.
I knew that before you did,
Still I'm feeling stupid.
And there's this burning,
Like there's always been,
I've never been so alone,
And I've never been so alive.
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by,
The cigarette ash flies in your eyes,
And you don't mind.
You smile,
And say the world, it doesn't fit with you.
I don't believe you.
You're so serene,
Careening through the universe,
Your axis on a tilt,
You're guiltless and free,
I hope you take a piece of me with you.
And there's things I'd like to do
That you don't believe in.
I would like to build something,
But you'll never see it happen.
And there's this burning
Like there's always been.
I've never been so alone,
And I've, I've never been so alive.
And there's this burning,
There is this burning.
Where's the soul?
I want to know.
New York City is evil.
The surface is everything,
But I could never do that.
Someone would see through that.
And this will be the last time
We'll be friends again.
And I'll get over you,
You'll wonder who I am.
And there's this burning
Just like there's always been.
I've never been so alone, alone,
And I've, and I've,
I've never been so alive,
So alive.
I go home to the coast,
It starts to rain,
I paddle out on the water
Alone.
Taste the salt and taste the pain,
I'm not thinking of you again.
Summer dies and swells rise,
The sun goes down in my eyes.
See this rolling wave,
Darkly coming to take me home,
And I've never been so alone,
And I've never been so alive.
God of Wine
Every thought that I repent,
There's another chip you haven't spent,
And you're cashing them all in.
Where do we begin to get clean again?
Can we get clean again?
I walk home alone with you
In the mood you're born into.
Sometimes you let me in,
And I take it on the chin.
Can we get clean again?
I want to know, can we get clean again?
She takes a drink and then she waits,
The alcohol it permeates,
And soon the cells give way
And cancels out the day.
I can't keep it all together.
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know
I can't keep it all together.
And the siren's song that is your madness
Holds a truth I can't erase,
All alone, on your face.
Every glamourous sunrise
Throws the planets out of line.
A star sign out of whack,
A fraudulent zodiac.
And the god of wine is crouched down in my room.
You let me down, I said it.
Now I'm going going down,
And you're not even around,
And I said,
No, no, no, no, no, no, no,
No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
I can't keep it all together.
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know
I can't keep it all together.
There's a memory of a window, looking through I see you
Searching for something I could never give you,
And there's someone who understands you more than I do.
A sadness I can't erase,
All alone, on your face.