Okay I better write this down before it goes away. I have this urge to just love someone but I have no one to give this love to:=(.  Usually I'm very calm and level headed putting my feelings second to everything, etc: school work, my friends and what problems that they might be having, planning out the entire month before it begins and so on. I'm not used to feeling this way (urge to just love someone) perhaps this is what happens when you allow everything and everyone else to come ahead of what you want emotionally for so long. Is it wrong to want someone to share your feelings with, to just love them, I don't think so but I've not allow my self to do that because I feared that somehow it would interfere with everything else that in the process instead of helping myself I've only caused myself harm. Perhaps I haven't planned out things as well as I had thought. Okay that's it I have to re-prioritize my self, I can't be quite as stubborn (so to speak) but I will still keep on being the good friend that I am but this time I will also try to put some time aside so that I can have a shoulder to cry on hehe: =)
It felt so good to actually be able to type this down and now if I ever need a reminder I'll have this to look back to.