i want hope for humanity (myself)
i want justice for all those people out there who have no food no water no love no sex.
i want joy for those who cannot see cannot hear cannot feel happy.
i want something for myself.
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life as boring Well, today was pretty uneventful. Besides the usual boring classes and the grind in the Yearbook office, everything's fine. Student Council elections are coming up, and you know what this means. I'm going to be kicked out of office soon! hehe.
Well, amongst other things, I'm debating whether or not I should call Danny. I know I haven't mentioned him before, but here it is: He's a guy i met online, and it turns out that he's a neighbor of mine. A close neighbor. So we chatted, I invited him over, and we talked soem more. After some boring time trying to make conversation or just do whatever, we end up doing something that I think violated a 2002 New Year's resolution of mine. but I don't feel guilty. in fact, it was really nice. Since we live so close to each other, we could stay friends and all, but our so different lifestyles kinda makes me feel awkward. I never ever really fit in anywhere before, and I just don't know how I could adjust. Right now I'm just hoping that I will get to talk with Danny again, online or offline.
Okay kids! I'm moving!My blog will no longer be on this site as of April 2.
It will be hosted on a blogspot server. teh address will come soon on April 2, but until then, this site will still be upadted, and it will be slowly moved towards a aite dedicated to my own writing and Allen Ginsberg.
Well, I watched the Oscars for a while before callign ti a night. Congrats to Jennifer Connely for winnign Best Supporting Actress! She deserves it! What I don't get is why that award was the first one to be presented. But anyways, i was hoping to see the musical performances, but I had to go. Oh well. i will knwo tommorow, so I can wait. Maybe Rachel will update me on all that.
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just got my grade report today. I'm not happy at all. For my third quarter, my grades are actually a perpetual line of Cs. A C in Calculus. A C+ in Chem. A C in English. A C in PR history. And a C- in Spanish. I'm not surprised. I knew it was coming. I have no one to blame but myself. I know my mom is going to go ballistic when she sees it. My phone line is going to be cut off, by computer shut, my books maybe destroyed, and my activities heavily restricted. But it was predicted. The past quarter was another perpetual hell for myself. Student Council, Forensics, the newspaper, and the Yearbook have taken my time. So much that a few papers were handed in late, quizzes were missed, and make-up tests and quizzes not being able to be made up because time was short. It's horrible. It's not that i do not understand the stuff, mind you, (except maybe Calculus, but I'm actually getting it now.). There's just no time. This quarter I've taken tests and quizzes with barely any studying, depending on my past extensive reading and maybe some logic and reason. but I guess that's not enough. Sarah, my college counselor, believes that I should quit some clubs, especially the newspaper and the yearbook. I know that that is the logical thing to do, but she does not understand the fact that I can't. The newspaper I owe a debt to for starting me off in Saint John's, and my dedication to freedom of expression and ideas includes the newspaper. As for the Yearbook, I can honestly say that without me, there won't be a yearbook. As mentioned before, I am working on a plan for my Senior class. I want the yearbook to be my contribution to my class. It's supposed to be a multiple-person job, but I have kinda been left alone to do the work. I don't know what's wrong with my class. I already have problems getting them to hand in their Senior Pages. And the deadline is coming up. The deadlines for the Yearbook, Newspaper, my AP exams, and Student Council elections are coming up. And I don't know what I can do. I suffer from the curse of Mr. Nice. Damn my code of honor! It's gonna be hell. And if there is a Lord, please help me.
In preparation for my subsequent need to move my blog off Geocities, I am redesigning my site. (Yet again) in fact, i have decided to maintain two sites. one site will be solely for my blog. The other will be for my personal hijinks and whatever I see fit to unleash upon the major populace. The blog will be simple and updated (hopefully) fairly often. but geocities has forced me to make this move.
Sorry for not posting... but things have been a weird swirl lately. I'm currently caught up creating the Senior sections of my school yearbook, trying not to be overshadowed by some over-active Eigth Garder who's trying to (literally) steal the Seniors' thunder in the yearbook. I am currently trying to plan out a strategy, and I call it OPERATION:GLAM (SENIORS 2002). it will be in effect as of the following week, as i give every Senior a survey to fill out. It's just a preliminary plan, and I have been looking into my graphic design books to look for good layouts for the sections. i just hope my efforts pan out....oh, and about my dinner with Tais, well, she got rerally sick this week. I wanted to go and be there at least to console or just spend some time, but my mom tells me that i shouldn't go because she was sick. how is that!? I wanted to go BECAUSE she was sick. i haven't seen her in such a long time, and I know she needs some companionship right now. i had to cancel our dinner. i just hope she doesn't think I'm a jerk now....
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short on words
I haven't blogged in a while. I just didn't find anything interesting to blog about. Everyday's just about the same old routine. Wake up at 6AM form two or three hours of sleep, then experiencing a morning of the daily grind of education.
Some highlights:
1. Invitation to dinner with Tais and her Family on Thursday.
2. Yearbook computer got wiped under strange circumstances.How boring am I? Every day is just so... the same. What happened to spontaneity? What happened to inopportune events? this is Stanley, reporting from the Land of the Dead.
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I just added a bio to my web page, for those who want to know more about me.WARNING! Explicit picture that will make straight boys feel queasy!
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