And Jesus will meet you anywhere; sending the Holy Spirit to fill you with what you need. It happened for me while unloading laundry from my clothes dryer in a damp, cold basement......and, though I did not expect what was about to come over me, was I ever ready!
The impact of the lengthy (approx. 10 years) involvement he'd had with another woman now exposed and the days of listening to his confession were still so fresh in my mind. My entire body ached with the hurt and sorrow. Still I did not know if he would be wanting me back now that the other woman ...someone I had called "friend" ...was dead.
.............Just trying to separate the shock of the affair from the very real grief over losing this person who I believed to be my friend was mind-boggling. I couldn't imagine even God keeping me sane through such horror.
............I 'plugged' along, going through my daily routines like a programmed robot. After the woman's funeral, my husband discontinued contact with me; refusing phone calls or any other attempts to reach him. I had listened and comforted him through three days of confessing and grieving, and now he was gone without any indication of what might or might not follow. All of the hope I'd clung to for restoration during those three years of separation seemed to be vanishing. I felt so numb.
.............I cried out to God more times than I could begin to count; but felt that He could not completely answer my prayers because He allowed my husband the free-will to act as he chose. All I could hope for was to be given the strength to bear up and survive the pain that was so devestating.... but it seemed impossible in my own mind. Day by day, minute by minute; I was experiencing the worst days of my life.
............Then, just six days (which had dragged on as though it had been six months) after the woman had died and all of my horror began, God touched me in a remarkable way. As I stated above, I was retrieving my clean clothes from the dryer; and, as always, trying to sort through all of my confused thoughts. Suddenly ...and I mean suddenly, something in me finally opened up to God's voice telling me that I was going to be okay. Whether my husband returned to me or I was to continue on without him, I was going to be fine because God was with me and not about to leave. At that moment, the Holy Spirit filled me with a peace that literally filled my entire body. I began to smile, almost laughing, as an audible sigh forced it way out of my mouth; feeling as though it came from every part of my being. It was as though, at that very moment, all of the anxiety was swept away from me.
To this day, my life remains changed because of how God touched me that day. Oh, I have typical "down" times; but they do not overwhelm or control me as they had in the past. As long as I remain close to God the Father and Jesus Christ, my Savior, I can always draw on that peace that surpasses all understanding...even today. Never could I have imagined such tranquility in my past, nor can I explain to anyone how it feels or has changed every aspect of my life; but people who know me well can see the obvious difference in how I deal with life, and say that they even see it in my face.
It is my true desire that everyone experience this truely awesome gift which is only available from our Almighty God...who gives freely to those who seek Him with a sincere heart.
It wasn't to be found in psychology or self-help programs; in physical or material gains; not through what others provided in support or comfort; and not even in "religion", some of whom (like Jehovah's Witnesses) had promised peace through their beliefs....but only through the One who IS peace and love.
............Don't waste all of the time I did. Ask Almighty God to fill you now with the peace that only He has the ability and willingness to bestow!
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