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GOD ALMIGHTY!
My healing experience is shared here, in brief, with the desire that it will offer Hope to any who read it.
The fullness of this miracle will have a greater impact on those who know me and have been aware of my physical condition, especially over the past thirteen ears or so. The intensity and frequency of the seizures has subsided in the past few years, but they continued to a big factor in so many aspects of my life.
I know that some will wonder how I know that I am healed, and my answer may not tell them what they want to hear; but I just knew!
Surprisingly, it didn't have anything to do with the fact that I had only one seizure in the previous seven months. I was so physically and psychologically dependent on my multiple medications; I feared missed doses would create probems. Yet, when God put in firmly in my heart that I had been healed, all such fear vanished. Since my body had been accustomed to these medications for so long, I decreased my doses gradually over a four to five week period; but I'm not sure that was necessary. Within two weeks I had terminated all asthma medications and a mild anti-depressant. By the end of five weeks, the only remaining medication was a single pill for acid reflux and a hormone prescription. I felt the hormones remained necessary, since my ovaries have been removed and God had not chosen to replace them. The acid reflux, I believe, will depend on me improving my diet.
It is indeed strange not to be taking twenty and more pills throughout each day.
Praise be to our Almighty God and Father!
Below is a copy of the letter that I presented to my doctor when I went in to inform him of this miracle and the details of my medication reduction.
My Healing�
After so many years, I finally feel like I have my life back� fully and completely.
Why God has chosen me, and chosen now, to manifest His majesty is not something I can explain. For years there have been prayers going up on my behalf; but I�m not sure that He could work His fullness in me before I was able to put my complete trust in His willingness to do so. Perhaps I never thought I was �worthy� of such a miracle; but now I realize that I never could be anyway. No one is. Yet, we have a God who loves us in all of our imperfection.
It�s too bad that many will not recognize or want to see this as the mighty work of our Heavenly Father; but, instead, may choose to tell themselves that I never had the ailments and didn�t need the medications in the first place. Not long ago, that would have distressed me to the point of fearing what "bad things" would be said about me next; but no longer. I have no responsibility to prove anything to anyone. It is they who will miss out on the blessing of hope that my healing provides, and will be opting to deny the opportunity to give praise to the One who deserves it.
Judging by this �natural� world, it appeared to most that any real reconciliation of our marriage was impossible; but we have a stronger marriage than ever. Having nearly lost our home, who would have believed that we could come out of over $12,000. of debt in less than 18 months and buy a newer home? But, you see, we did not do any of it in the �natural�. Only by turning our complete trust over to Almighty God has any of this been possible. The miracles have been too numerous to count. So why not healing?
What makes it truly sad is that many who will have such negative, doubting reactions are people who claim to believe in and trust God for this very type of thing. Yet, when it�s in their face, they cannot allow themselves to be that vulnerable� knowing that there is a power that exists without their control. It puts their faith in a position of testing that they are not ready to give in to.
So, they can decide for themselves whether they are choosing to doubt me or doubt God; and whether they are belittling me or denying God�s work in me. It�s not my problem anymore. In fact it never was, but I could never quite comprehend that. I�m not responsible to convince anyone. I am presenting what I know in my heart is from Almighty God. If anyone chooses not to believe, they are not rejecting me, but God�s power in me.
Perhaps they will see their way clear instead, to attributing to God the �mental healing� of the psychological mess that they seem determined that I�ve been. Then so be it! At least they will be giving recognition to God. If I truly was that �messed-up�, I certainly couldn�t heal that on my own, anymore than physical healing.
The only thing that God has asked me to do is to share what He has done, to give hope to those who doubt; and to forgive those doctors, and others, who have treated me unjustly and turned people, including my own husband, against me with their opinions.
S. R.
April 2000
