sometimes when i look around
everyone smiling at something
but i dont know what they're smiling about
sometimes when i look around
people are laughing
but i don't know what is there to laugh at
so i try to see what is it they're seeing
but they just look right through me
as if i'm not here
and i try so hard to feel what they're feeling
but i can't get it down right
as if i'm not there
i feel my eyes burning and wonder
what is so different about me?
why can't i be with them?
and smile with them?
and laugh with them?
and when i reach out
it all fades like a disappearing dream
and i'm left without anyone.
and when i look once more
i find i was wrong
they don't disappear, they just walk off without me
and i feel my heart pounding with the pain
and i wonder what is it about me?
it seems i'm not allowed to be with them
is it just me?
or is this... feeling.... real?
