| " I Love You" |
| Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn�t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual� Me: I don�t need it. Jin: What�.why� I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road. Me: I don�t need this doll, I don�t need it anymore!! I don�t want to see a person like you again! I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking. �I�m sorry� He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll� Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!! But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then� Honk~ Honk~ With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him. �Jin! Move! Move away!� I shouted� But he didn�t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll. �Jin, move!� HONK~!! �Boom!� That sound, so terrifying. That�s how he went away from me. That�s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him� And after spending two months like a crazy person� I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days� when we were in love� �One�two� three�� That was how� I started to count the dolls� �Four hundred and eighty four� four hundred and eighty five�� It all ended with 485 dolls. I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly� �I love you~, I love you~� I dropped the dolls,shocked. �I�.lo..ve�you??� I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach. �I love you~ I love you~� It can�t be! I pressed all the dolls� stomach as it piled on the side. �I love you~� �I love you~� �I love you~� Those words came out non-stop. I�love you� Why didn�t I realize that�.That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn�t I realize that he love me this much� I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it�s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much� �Jo�Do you know what today is? We�ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn�t say I love you�. Um� since I was too shy� If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you� everyday� till I die� Jo� I love you�� The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can�t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute� For that� and for that reason� to me� it became courage� to live a beautiful life�. |