| Distance-wise, we aren't that far apart But emotionally, it's another story. We both feel the distance, the lacking of everything that once mattered. You took away my self-esteem - replacing it with a dirty blanket that ever served its purpose of silencing. Someone had to know my joy even if I made it seem as pain. I was afraid and nervous, dissapointed at you yet angry at myself because you never praised me and I never made myself worthy of it. Falling prey to my own vulnerablilty you caught me off-guard and wrongfully consumated the friendship. I'm not complaining anymore but because of my stupidity, everyone else is. All I'm doing now is weighing my chances, testing the waters - because crazy as it seems, I want it to wrok. - Jacqueline Audrey |
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