Name: Jody

City: October 6, 2007

: Aunt / Gugu

:Sent: 05/10 23:10

Jacob dear, I can't believe it's been 5 years since you've been gone. It still feels more like 5 months. We visited you at Yeh Yeh's headstone unveiling on 8/26/07 and said some prayers. We ran into Wayne and his new girlfriend. It is so nice to know that people (besides your family) still visit you. As I sit hear, Ziggy is watching me write this to you. I pulled out the old "pen light" that you and he used to play with. As soon as he heard the sound of it and the jingle of the chain(even though he hasn't heard it in 5 years) he immediately knew it was the pen light. I know it reminded him of the fun he used to have as you shined that red light all around the house for him to chase. He is looking around the walls now still looking for the light with a little sparkle in his eyes. It's amazing how even after all this time, just hearing the jingle of the pen light's chain made him remember instantly. I think it's like that for all of us. We see something or hear something and it reminds us of something we shared with you. A special conversation, a celebration, watching you perform, seeing your face in our mind's eye that was always smiling or just remembering a special moment in time with you. Just like the jingle of a chain instantly made Ziggy think of you and playing with the pen light. It's that way for all of us. There are so many things that instantly remind us of you. (Most especially ORANGE). You touched so many lives in your short 16 years. I can't believe in the 21 years since you were born that I spent 3/4 of that time with you and it's already been 1/4 of that time that we've been without you. My hope is that no one will ever forget you. Somehow I think I can put that worry to rest. I think the Oakton High school Yearbook of 2003 said it best. Just like in the Master Card commercials: "Swim Cap $10", "Latest Videogame $50", Music Lessons $500", "97 Nissan $20,000" but your friendship and memories: "Priceless". You were a priceless jewel. And an orange one at that. Just like Ziggy has his chain jingle memory of you, may everyone have their own "chain jingle" memory of you that is priceless to them and lives on forever in their minds and hearts. You know I love you always. Sending you a giant hug and wish I could actually feel the hug you are sending me back.

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Name: Jody Wilens - Aunt / Gugu

City: March 17, 2007

: Happy 21st Birthday Jacob

:Sent: 17/03 21:36

Jacob, Once again while everyone else was thinking green today we were all thinking ORANGE. I think for the rest of their lives, all your family and friends, will always think of you when they see orange. All the family went to visit you and Yeh-Yeh at the cemetery today on what would have been your 21st birthday. It's hard to believe you would have been 21 but it would have been fun to go out for a drink with you today. We brought you some new orange flowers as always and some nice purple ones for Yeh-Yeh. I also added 2 signs for him saying "The Earth Laughs" since he always made us laugh as I hope he is making you do now. May the two of you enjoy music and much laughter together. We all noticed that through all the storms we've had over the years all the stones showing how many people have visited you, keep piling up. None of them ever seem to blow away in all these windy snow storms. As Yeh-Yeh wrote you last year at this time from: "The September Song". "For its a long, long time from May to December, and the days grow short when you reach September". He's been next to you since the first days of September 2006, a few days after he died on August 27th. May the two of you feel the warmth from the love you have for each other and rest in peace for eternity next to each other. It was Yeh-Yeh's final wish. I miss you and will love you always. I'm imaging a little twinkle in your eye right now in addition to that unforgettable smile as you think about age "21". Here's to raising a glass and toasting....to you.....you were the best. Gugu

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Name: From Live Journal

City: Post from Live Journal by "Yida Li" on March 17th, 2007

:Sent: 17/03 20:23

I wonder if you would have liked to have your first legal drink with me tonight. Happy 21.

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Name: Wayne

:Sent: 17/03 11:24

Happy Birthday Jake. It's been quite awhile, hasn't it? You look so young while everyone else is aging. We still remember you though. I think I could imagine you a bit taller still with that funny hair of yours. Cheers.

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Name: ni ni

City: boca raton

:Sent: 21/02 17:47

my darlilng jacob feb 21, 2007 you are still in my heart for always i love you and miss you ni ni

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Name: Angela

:Sent: 11/12 20:33

hey! still thinking of you.

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Name: Amanda

:Sent: 14/11 23:49

Jacob, so much has happened this past summer. (yeah - I know it's now November, but I suppose I needed time) Do you know that people from the other side of the world have now heard about you and the life you lived for Christ? Jake, I went to Ethiopia! It was so amazing, seeing the way God worked in the lives of the Ethiopians. Wherever I went, I shared the testimony of how God changed my life. And I can't share it without talking about you - since it was you that brought me to Christ. You should have seen it. Maybe you did - or at least you might have heard the angels rejoicing up there. We had a team of 14 go on this trip. Our focus was to plant a church through door-to-door evangelism. You know, I had my doubts. But God is good. We prayed to see maybe twenty or so people accept Christ, and maybe plant one church. Guess what? Without any assembly, just door-to-door, God used us to speak to about 7229 people. 844 came to Christ!! And hundreds more are seeking because they've finally heard something that will give them hope. So many hearts were mended, and so many angry men and women finally found peace. I can't wait until the day comes when we're all in Heaven and I can introduce you to the brothers and sisters from Ethiopia that you helped lead to Christ. I miss you, my brother, and I can't wait until I see you again - this time in the fellowship of Christ.

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Name: ni ni

: 10/12/06

:Sent: 12/10 15:09

my darling jacob, jody has told you that yeh yeh has lost the battle against his cancer i have not been able to write to you until today. today in the car i was listening to the song that yeh yeh wrote to you about - it's a long long time from may to december and i missed him and you also very much. he was the bravest man i ever knew. he fought and fought to the end. he fought a good battle. and now he is where he wanted to be for a very very long time - with you. you both loved each other so much and i know that you both are happy to be together again. take care of each other. love you and miss you and you both will always be in my heart. ni ni

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Name: Jody Wilens

City: Bethsda

: Aunt Gugu

:Sent: 15/09 21:22

Jacob, Yeh-Yeh lost his battle with cancer on August 27th. He missed you so much and was looking forward to seeing you again. I hope the two of you are together. He had a really tough time towards the end and we are glad he is at peace now and out of misery. It was the 4th anniversary of your death on Sept 3rd. I can't believe you have been gone 4 years already. It still seems like it was just 6 months ago. Rebekah went off to Boston University on Sept 1st and seems to really like it. Ziggy lives with me now and he has been adjusting very nicely. We miss you and love you very much. Sneding much love and a giant hug to you and Yeh-Yeh. Love you always, Gugu

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Name: ni ni

City: boca raton

:Sent: 21/06 15:50

dearest jacob yeh yeh and ni ni were up visting you and the family for bekahs graduation. we had a great time. bekah is now a lovely young lady and i know that you were looking over her and enjoying all that she has become. she had her recital o n june 10th and she did a great job. after the recital mom and dad had a graduation party for her at the house. of course all the food was delicious. bekah was very busy all week going to partys and getting ready to go to france for two weeks with some of her friends. she also had a recital with mrs. kasten and it was happy and a sad occassion because it was the last rectital bekah would ever play as her student. but bekah played brillantly that night . she put her entire body and soul into it.everyone complimented her because she really was outstanding. i know how proud you are of her and how well she has done these past years without you. she has chosen boston u as the college to attend. moom and dad are doing great and gugu is also terrific. yeh yeh is settling in and making the best of his illness. we are trying to make him as comfortable as possible. we all miss you so much aspecially at times like this when you are not here to share with us, but i know that you are looking over us and know how much we love and miss you. we are so proud of you and bekah and what wonderful people you both have become love you so much ni ni

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Name: ni ni

City: boca raton

:Sent: 23/05 16:15

hi my dear jacob just want you to know i'm thinking about you and love you. ni ni

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Name: Melvin Wilens

City: Boca Raton

: Jacob's Grandfather Yeh-Yeh

:Sent: 24/03 12:41

Dearest Jacob. As time goes on, my thoughts go back to a song of my youth."The September Song" "For its a long long time from May to December,and the days grow short when you reach September,and the Autumn weather turns the leaves to flame,then I haven't got time for the waiting game. The days dwindle down to a precious few, September, November and these few precious days I'll spend with you,these golden days I'll spend with you." But these few precious days I cannot spend with you and relish the things that would have been. But even if those wonderful things did not occur it would have made no difference in my love for you, because you were you Jacob. Now at night when my head touches the pillow and I hear the soft night wind which disturbs the stillnes of the night I am off to dream the dream of dreamers and of what could have been. Goodnight dearest Jacob. Yeh-Yeh.

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Name: Danielle Adams

City: Los Angeles, California

: friend, always.

:Sent: 20/03 10:34

I left a comment on your last lj entry on your birthday...i figure you might still check up on that every once and a while. I just want to wish you a happy birthday and let you know that I still think about you every day.

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Name: Jody Wilens

: Aunt / Gugu

:Sent: 17/03 21:57

For most people today (St Patrick's Day) was about "green". For us, the day was about "orange". All your friends and family wore orange and were thinking about you today. A day when you would have turned 20. It is hard for me to imagine you as a 20 year old. Unfortunately, all I can do now is "imagine" you in all stages of life. Stages that most people are lucky enough to live through and are lucky enough to be alive to experience. Mom, Pop and Bekah got a delivery of a dozen orange roses today. The anonymous card just read: "thinking about you today". Some how, again, we made it through another year. Everyone continues to go on with their lives. Rebekah continues to awe us with her sweet, caring personality and accomplishments. She excels in music and song and brings great joy to those who are lucky enough to watch her. I know you are one of them. You and Rebekah have grown up to be wonderful human beings. We are very proud of both you. We are anxious to hear where she will go to college and further her accomplishments. I still think of you whenever I see orange butterflies. It seemed very fitting that the entire family went to Butterfly World the other day and were surrounded by those gorgeous creatures. They quietly floated around watching over everything. Then softly landing as if to take a closer look. Just like you watching over us. I miss you and love you and wish I could see your smiling face and hear your voice just one more time. I carry you in my heart always. Gugu

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:Sent: 17/03 17:47

hi jacob its ni ni again. i forgot to tell you that this past weekend the family was all together to celebrate aunt renees 80th birthday. our family and renees family were here and we had a great time together. alan and jeff's familys could not make it but we really enjoyed the weekend together. on saturday mom,dad,bekeh, jody, yeh yeh and moi went to buttterfly world and thought it was great. its not only butterflylies but birds and botanical gardens and we loved the day sunday, bob. ssndy, chaya,zak,dad, mom, jody, bekah, yeh yeh and moi went swimming at the tennis pool and had the whole place to ourselves. aunt marsha and uncle steve also joined us and we had a great time again. then sunday nit we all went to a resaurant and ate and danced and had a great time. aunt renee alao had friends but after everyone left the family danced and sang we are family. a good time was had by all. we talked about you with love and caring as we always do love you and miss you ni ni

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Name: Melvin Wilens

City: Boca Raton

: Yeh-Yeh

:Sent: 17/03 09:00

Dearest Jacob today you are twenty years old but you were a man long before this. I miss you more than I can say or put to paper. I miss so the good times we had up in the Poconos, when you were a toddler and then a growing boy. Those good times were now all to short,but will live forever in my heart. I remmember telling you just before you went away that you could be anything you wanted to be so aim for the top and you told me you would. Oh Jacob what you could have and would have accomplished. Someday soon I willbe with you again in body and soul. Until that day I wil miss you more than my heart can say. I will miss your college gaduation, your marriage,and your first born,my great grandson. Oh Jacob what could have been. My eternal love Yeh-Yeh.

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Name: ni ni

:Sent: 17/03 07:39

happy birthdy dear jacob you are twenty years old now and i still remember mom and dad coming down the hosptal corridor with you when you were just born. this year has been bad and good yeh yeh was very ill with his cancer in 2005, but he is a miracle man and is doiong okay now . he is on a new medication and we all hope that it is what is helping him. i am still playing tennis and bridge and exercising to help me with my aches and pains. gu gu is doing great at her job and has a busy social life.dad has a new job working on a gadget to detect mines and is enjoying the work very much. mom is at the same job and is doing great.bekah has come a long way from her first tragic day of high school. she is having a piano recital on june 10th and all are invited and on june 20th she is graduating. we are all waiting to hear which schools have accepted her to college. i know you are so proud of her. she has formed an acapeela group and she conducts them. she is now a beautiful young talented lady and we are all so so proud of her. jody and mom are going to visit you at your grave today and i will be remembering you and how proud i am of all your accomplishments. my heart is always full of love for you and i miss your wonderful smile and dispostion. love you forever ni ni 3/17/06

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Name: PaPa

City: Brooklyn

: Fellow partisan

:Sent: 16/03 17:58

I'm starting a new softball team. I know you'll like watching as always. Look for me wearing orange on St. Patrick's day tomorrow.

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:Sent: 30/01 20:56

i am missing you. today. i learned alot about life from you. i learned alot about what really matters from you. and i am just patiently waiting, til that day i see your smiling face once again. ...til next we meet.

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:Sent: 06/09 21:50

my darling jacob it is three years that you have been gone. many people loved you and you gave love and caring to all. i feel your presence surrounding me and your love is with me always and my love for you is forever ni ni sent 9/3/05

Name: Jody Wilens

: Aunt Gugu

:Sent: 03/09 21:00

I can't believe it has been 3 years. I wore orange for you today. Mom, Pop, Rebekah and I went to visit you at the cemetery today. We left you some stones with angles and nice sayings on them to show we visited. I left you orange flowers and a new orange stuffed animal on the crash site pole. Someone had visited both the cemetery and the crash site before we got there. Both places had fresh orange flowers left earlier today. Your sister Rebekah has her first day of school, senior year, on Tuesday. Somehow we made it through another year without you. It is so hard. You have left such a big hole in our family. I think about you all the time. I love you and I miss you. Forever in my heart.

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Name: Mom

City: Your home

:Sent: 03/09 09:52

there hasn't a day passed that i don't think about you.

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Name: Angela

:Sent: 03/09 09:42

i haven't forgotten you :)

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Name: Jody Wilens

: Aunt Gugu

:Sent: 08/06 21:47

Tonight was the Oakton High School Spring Choral Concert. It was Mrs. Stanford's farewell night after 17 years. There was a very moving tribute to her. Rebekah sang with Madrigals through a very emotional "Sing Me to Heaven". Last week was the Senior Awards Banquet and pop presented the "Jacob Wilens Award" again this year. Rebekah's friend Katie Hidalgo won this year. It is nice that the winners over the past 2 1/2 years have all been people we know. Yida, Brian and Katie. Rebekah took the SAT's again Sat and we are waiitng for the results. She, mom and pop looked at colleges in VA and go to Chicago area schools in a few weeks. Pop got a new sporty car "Celica" that he loves. Yei Yei is hanging in there with his new clinical trial and the cancer that has moved to the bone in his arm. Rebekah has a piano recital with Mrs. Casner on Sat. We know she will shine. We miss you.....smile on us and send us some sunshine. Love and Hugs, Gugu

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:Sent: 31/05 04:42

i miss you and love you ni ni

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Name: wayne

:Sent: 02/04 02:10

still haven't forgotten you. when i walked around spring break, your testimony stood out above everyone else. i wish my life could have such a strong statement. i am trying to find my faith again.

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Name: Jody Wilens

City: Bethesda

: Aunt (Gugu)

:Sent: 17/03 21:13

Another birthday without you, Jacob. I went to the crash site today and put a new orange tiger on the pole. Then I visited the cemetery and left you two potted orange mum plants. I wore orange today to remember you and thought about you throughout the day. I lit a candle for you tonight. I can't beileve you would have been 19 years old today. Your sister Rebekah had a big day last Friday. She got a "superior" for playing piano at Festival and performed with Madrigals also for Festival... and then took her SAT's the next morning. Whew !! In addition, she was on the cover of the "Weekend" section of the Washington Post on Friday March 11th. The article was about where teenage kids hang out these days. Yei Yei continues to beat his lung cancer each time it spreads. He just completed 6 weeks of radiation treatments and we will know the results in a few weeks. He and Ni Ni will go on another cruise next month. I miss seeing your smile and watching you play piano, guitar and DDR plus chasing Ziggy with the pen light. Your bedroom is so lonely and empty and sad now. I like looking at all your awards and seeing all the memories in there but it is heartbreaking seeing your eye glasses just sitting on your dresser. Where is the person who was so full of life that used to wear them? We still struggle to continue with our lives. It is so hard without you. There is still such a huge hole in our hearts that your laughter and sweet personality used to fill with so much love. I love you and I miss you so much.....Happy 19th Birthday. Gugu

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Name: ni ni

:Sent: 17/03 13:46

happy happy birthday on your 19th you have been with me all day celebrating your life. iwatched your first birthday tape and of course you were so adorable and we all loved you with hugs and kisses. daddy made a bio tape of you and i watched all the things that you had accomplished in your short life. you are always in our hearts and loved and i praise your life to all my friends and family. you have been missed so much and we will never forget. always in my thoughts love you ni ni

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:Sent: 17/10 10:59

missing you dear friend! Until we meet again, its the memories that keep us going. we love you then, now, and always!!

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Name: Angela Jiang

:Sent: 03/09 14:37

i love you.

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Name: nii ni

:Sent: 03/09 00:14

Near a shady wall a rose once grew Budded and blossomed in God's free light Watered and fed by morning dew Shedding its sweetness day and night

As it grew and blossomed fair and tall, Slowly rising to loftier height It came to a crevice in the wall Through which there shone a beam of light

Onward it crept with added strength With never a thought of fear or pride It followed the light through the crevices length And unfolded itself on the other side

The light, the dew, the broadening view Were found the same as they were before And it lost itself in beauties new, Breathing its fragrance more and more

Shall claim of death cause us to grieve And make our courage faint and fall? Nay! Let us faith and hope receive- The rose still grows beyond the wall

Scattering fragrance far and wide Just as it did in days of yore Just as it did on the other side Just as it will forevermore

Dearest Jacob It is two years and you are still the beautiful rose that lives in my heart forevermore Ni Ni

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Name: Alicia Yim

City: Herndon

:Sent: 09/08 13:35

hey Jacob, i don't know y, but it's like ur memory has been coming in and out of my mind ever since the accident.. I know i barely knew you, but for some reason u have this really comforting atmosphere about u, one that's so approachable and soothing. hm.. i just wanted to say again and again thanks for the reminder, the reminder of how precious life can be, and how beneficial it's lessons have to be, and most of all for the reminder of Christ. I needed it each time u gave that to me. Thanx kid, wish i could've gotten to know u better, but amazingly enough the tiniest relationship that i was privelaged enuf to have with you was one that will continue to affect me untill the day i die.. Love, Alicia ...to live is Christ, to die is gain... much love

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Name: Jody Wilens

City: Bethesda

:Sent: 31/07 16:36

While in Spain, the six of us stopped at a gas station way off the main road and hundreds of orange moths came up out of the fields and landed on our van. We all felt you with us. It was wonderful. Miss you so much. Love you, Gugu

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Name: ni ni

:Sent: 30/07 23:02

hi sweetheart mom, dad,bekah, jody, yeh yeh and ni ni all went to spain on vacation last week. we missed you so much. yesterday yeh yeh was seventy five. can you believe that. three quarters of a century, wow. love you so much ni ni

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Name: ni ni

:Sent: 23/06 09:48

cousin lauren was married in israel today i miss you ni ni

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Name: Jody Wilens

:Sent: 07/06 15:02

Hey..... We all went to see Rebekah sing in the Oakton High School Spring Chorus Concert tonight. She was great in Mads & Chorale. You'd be so proud of the beautiful and talented young lady she has become. Brian Gavron won the "Jacob Wilens Award" tonight and won the scholarship money toward the college of his choice. All the kids voted for him. Pop gave the award out while mom, Ni-Ni, Yeh-Yeh and I watched from the audience. I think you would have been happy that Yida won last year and Brian won this year.

We also went to Michael's Bar Mitzvah this weekend. The first candle was lit in memory of you and Aunt Barbara and Bubby. It was so sad not to have all three of you with us.

Love you kiddo......Gugu

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:Sent: 10/05 01:12

I've been thinking about you a lot lately, as I'm sure you know. Well I guess I just wanted to say hi.

am I right?

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:Sent: 04/05 12:55

I don't know what to say... except i miss you

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Name: daniel

City: Atlanta, GA

:Sent: 26/04 12:59

its been a while... i've been really encouraged by what i've heard about your life and through the little bit of it i've actually been a part of. i dun really feel as sad anymore but just wish that i could play guitar with you once more or just to come to the DC area to hang out with you once more... but i'm sure heaven will be a much better to place to hang out and praise the lord! until we meet again... :)

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Name: pp

:Sent: 26/03 16:44

hi jacob, I found two verses that i think exemplified your life: Philippians 1:20 I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. 21. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.

miss you, but can't wait til we'll meet again

Name: Aunt Jody (Gugu)

City: Bethesda

:Sent: 17/03 14:57

Hi Jacob, I have much of the same memories as Ni Ni. My last memories of you were playing DDR and watching the first season of American Idol. I can still see your smiling face filled with joy.

Today you would have been 18. The family all went to the cemetery to visit you and we sent helium balloons up with notes attached. I also left you a huge pinwheel that blows in the wind and a sweet orange bird that seems to fly when the wind blows. JJ came over to say Hi and told us some fun memories of things the two of you did during the summer.

Everyone seems to be going on with our lives. Rebekah is still playing the piano, singing in Mads and now driving. Yeh Yeh is still playing golf and tennis and watching Seinfeld re-runs.. Ni Ni is still playing tennis, going to ballets and making jewelry. Mom is still cooking great dinners, active in church and busy socializing with friends. Pop is still working hard, planning vacations, fixing things around the house and teaching Sunday school. I'm still working, re-decorating my house and dating. And Ziggy...well he's still looking for that pen light and trying to figure out a way he can get into the kitchen! I don't know how we do it. It's so hard to go on without you. You've left such a hole in our family and in our hearts. We miss you and love you so much. Happy 18th Sweetheart. Love and Hugs, Gugu

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Name: Erin

:Sent: 17/03 13:37

Happy Birthday Jake. Much love to you.

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Name: Mi-Mi

:Sent: 17/03 11:29

Hi, Jacob,

Wow...18! I can't believe Jonathan and you are turning 18 this year. It makes me feel old! What I'd give to see your face again... I'll always be celebrating your birthday -- 2 days before mine! love and miss you...

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:Sent: 17/03 10:08

Missing you on your birthday Jacob. Forever in my heart.

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:Sent: 17/03 04:55

Happy birthday, Jacob.

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Name: Tien-Tien

:Sent: 17/03 03:59

Happy 18th birthday, dear Jacob. Reading Ni-Ni's memories of you brings back many of the ones we shared over the years...They leave me wishing that we had more memories, more time...and at the same time, make me hold even more precious the ones I do have. Toa-Yi, Mi-Mi, and I are going back to Taiwan this summer. It's the first time we've been back since you passed away. We'll be sharing your stories with the triplets, A-Gong, and everyone else. We'll remember.

Love, Tien-Tien

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:Sent: 17/03 01:28

happy 18th birthday Jacob i remember when you were born. i remember when they told me that mommy was about to give birth to you and i went to the hospital to see you.they told me to wait in the birth room and i went in and waited. i kept looking out in the hall for your arrival and finally i looked out and saw mommy o n a gurney and daddy beside her dressed in hospital gown and mask holding a bundle - and that was you and they called you Jacob. it was love at first sight. i remember when you were one and we played bubbles in the house and you had such a good time running after them trying to catch them i remember, when you were about two, the basketball you tried to put in the basket near your house(have a picture of that). the ball was almost a big as you but that didn't stop you from trying. even then nothing stopped you from trying. i remember when you around four and i had to learn all the names of the dinosaurs to keep up with you. yeh yeh and i took you to the museum to see them and you were skipping along and another couple was coming the other way and you said there's a triceratop. the couple turned and looked at you with their mouths wide open astounded that you knew the dinosaur's name and that you could even say it correctly. i knew how smart you were even then. i remember you started piano lessons. yeh yeh and i would sit and listen to you play and we got so much pleasure from your wonderful talent. we would go to a piano recital and be awed by your talent. we are so proud of you. i remember the nina turtles you would draw. you made hundrerd of them and the art work was so good. i put some up on the refrig so i could be reminded of you. you would stuff a sock and twirl it around your head and that would be the turtle's nunjuck(spelling?). i thought how creative you are. i remember you and bekah playing together and having so much fun. you always made these inventive games up and were such good friends i remember going to see you practice swimming for the team and going to see you compete and watching how you kept progressing as a swimmer. i remember being proud of you for the marks you got in school i remember when you would come up to the poconos to visit and we would play and swim and we would go blueberry picking and eat almost as much as we picked. i remember taking you to guitar lessons and amazed at how great you sounded. i remember you break dancing in the hallway of the house, amazed again at all your talents. i remember your first love. iremember how handsome you looked in your first tux. i remember the discussions we had and how you and your dad were relating as adult to adult and not adult to child. you had grown up to be a fine young man. i remember you and bekah laughing together and how you and she were best friends. i remember all your wonderful talents but most of all how caring and kind you are to everyone especially to your old grandma. i will always remember and love you forever. Happy Birthday ni ni

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Name: wayne

:Sent: 03/03 06:36

one and a half years, and we all still miss you.

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Name: ni ni

:Sent: 26/02 10:26

just wanted to say hi love you and miss you ni ni

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Name: Aunt Marsha

:Sent: 24/02 05:24

I havn' visited here in a long time, because it is still so very hard. I think of you and miss you every day, and, for whatever it might mean, I wear orange as much as possible. I will always love you. Aunt Marsha

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Name: a friend

:Sent: 16/02 11:21

Randomly opened up the bible, and this verse jumped up at me: Psalm 135:4- "For the Lord has chosen Jacob to be his own. Israel to be his treasured possession."

"a breath away's not far to where you are" -Josh Groban

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Name: ni ni

:Sent: 15.21 - 26/12

hi jacob dear, i see that gu gu told you about the unveiling on sunday. your friends were there to remember you and aunt marsha and uncle steve came from florida to be with you. the washington area relatives also came to honor you. it was a sad afternoon for us but we did get to see bekah sing at kennedy center in the evening. i can just see you jumping up and down for joy at your little sisters accomplishment and saying awesome. i can feel how proud you are of bekah. we too are proud of her just like we are proud of you.miss you so very much and and i am sending you a big hug. love you forever and you know you are always in my heart. ni ni

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jody Wilens

city Bethesda, MD

:Sent: 14.40 - 24/12

Jacob, Sunday Dec 21, 2003 we had the unveiling of your headstone. It is a beautiful combination of cultures and religions. Your friends and family were there and it was a beautiful day with the sun shining. It was a very emotional time for all of us. At night we went to see Rebekah sing with Madrigals at the Kennedy Center. It was awesome. I really felt your presence there with us, celebrating. Still missing you and love you lots, Gugu

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Steve Selig

city Boca Raton

:Sent: 14.57 - 20/12

Hey Jacob, We all miss u very much! Here for Rebeckah's show at Kennedy Center; wish you were here to see how great she is. We miss u!

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: PP

:Sent: 13.47 - 2/12

Hey Jake. you're always in my heart and i've been thinking about you alot lately. I learned so much from you, and i hope my life reflects that. Still missing you....

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jody Wilens

city Bethesda, MD

:Sent: 19.38 - 22/10

Hey Jacob, You have a new cousin. Ben and Gabby had a little girl named Melanie yesterday. Can you believe Uncle Marty is a great grandfather? Love you and miss you lots, Gugu

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Leigh

:Sent: 20.04 - 14/10

still thinking of you...

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: wayne

:Sent: 17.56 - 8/10

i think even though we all would've changed and went our seperate ways, i'll forever remember you the same way. remember that time we all jumped into that moon bounce thinking it was full and then free-falling 5 feet into the ground? haha, those were good times...

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: wayne

:Sent: 18.48 - 2/10

you're always still on my mind. throw in a good word for all of us. =)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Matt Takane

city Fairfax

:Sent: 10.20 - 7/9

It's been so long since i've been able to say hey at a swim meet or see you randomly at a sporting event. I miss being able to catch up w/ you. I can still remember the time we got caught on the WOD bike trail in that lightning storm. That lightning was right above our heads, scary stuff. I'll catch ya lata jackrabbit!

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:Sent: 09.31 - 5/9

In loving memory of you, Jacob. Have fought the good fight,I have have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 2 Timothy 4:7

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Claire Cannon

city Houston (Mechaniscville)

:Sent: 20.12 - 3/9

Jacob, I can't believe it's already been one year. I dont really know what to say. I kinda feel numb at the moment. It's almost funny, ya know...part of me doesn't feel like I have the right to still miss you the way I do, because I didn't know you for that long. But then again, you were just one of those people that you didn't have to know for very long to love. I am truely grateful for the way you chose to live your life here. I am sure you were not perfect, though I can not think of any flaws you displayed :). But no matter what you're imperfections were, you chose to live a godly life. And for that I am grateful. World Changers this year brought back sooooo many memories. You were in my heart all week. I shared your story with many people there, they were amazed. (You have touched so many people)I worked for Christ, but in honor of you as well, cuz I know that if you were here, you'd have given your all! I found a dead bird in the gutter on the roof we worked on this year. I laughed cause it reminded me of the one we found last year. The speaker challenged us this year as always, to make our faith visible. No matter where we lived. You were all I could think of. You made your faith visible, and because of that, you changed your world. Before I met you, and saw how God used, you I did think it was possible. But You Answered His Call, You Told His Story, You Changed Your World, and you prooved me wrong. :) Thanks for changing my world Jacob. Thanks for challenging my faith, thanks for leaving me with a story to tell. Thanks for everything! I still like to watch the world changers video and see you and remember that week. Thanks for the memories, there is a lot of great ones! I wish I knew if you could see how many you've touched, and that your work for Christ did not end with your death. Although I know that all the blessing that have come from this came with the highest price, and I often pray for your family and close friends, we all lost someone really special when we lost you. I can't even begin to imagine what this past year has been like for you. Part of me can't wait to be there to, and part of me is nervous cause I dont know what to expect! But I know it will all be great! Until then, I am just trying to live my faith and let God change my world. God rest your soul my friend, can't wait to see you again. In His Awesome Love, Claire P. S. I will never forger your passion to spread the love of our Saviour. It still seems like yestarday.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Brian Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/users/Brian48216

city Blacksburg/Herndon

:Sent: 12.27 - 3/9

One year man. I still haven't forgot the last time I saw you at the end of the day.

And it feels like you've been there for all the good and bad times.

I may not have taken to religion like you had hoped. But it isn't lost on me. In no way has it been lost on me. I'll see you again. There's lots to catch up on. lots.

Say hi to David for me.

Normally I'd have to say take care of yourself. Or something like that. But I wouldn't think you'd have to in heaven.

I don't like to ask for favors from anyone. But can you keep an eye on us? Thanks.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: patty

:Sent: 08.46 - 3/9

Anticipation. Of that day so far away. Wondering what it¡¯ll be like To once again see your face. Could it ever be the same? Or have things changed too much? To me you still remain, the same gentlemen, the same friend. Unbridled fear, yet amazing hope. Wondering, dreaming, waiting. Missing and remembering you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Wayne Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/users/wanusmaximus/

city Blacksburg

:Sent: 16.06 - 2/9

This Is For You Jake:

You know what, I still wonder everyday what he said... Was it, "Where am I? This Is a mistake!! I can't be... There must be a mix-up, only today did school start, and early I got out of bed! NO, I refuse!. I've still got my whole life ahead!

This is all too sudden. My friends, my family. I never got to say goodbye! What did I ever do to deserve this? And now i must see the ones i love most, cry? I did everything you wanted! And the best you could do was... let me die? Oh God! Why Oh Why?! Please God, tell me why?

Only next year was college. I never even got married and start a family! Oh God, please! Show me and let me see, Cause I can't possibly see how this is your will for me! Oh God, please! I'm begging you, here on my knees!"

You know what, I still wonder everyday what he said... Or was it simply humble submission, knees bent with a bowed head, When he heard these great words read, "Well done, my good and faithful servant.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Brian

:Sent: 10.51 - 7/8

Still thinking about you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Christina Haskell

city Portland, Oregon

:Sent: 18.22 - 26/7

THE DASH

I read of a man who stood to speak at the funeral of a friend. He referred to the dates on her tombstone from the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth and spoke of the following date with tears, but he said what mattered most of all was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time that she spent alive on earth... and now only those who loved her know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own; the cars....the house...the cash. What matters is how we live and love and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard... are there things you'd like to change? For you never know how much time is left. (You could be at "dash mid-range.")

If we could just slow down enough to consider what's true and real, and always try to understand the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger, and show appreciation more and love the people in our lives like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect, and more often wear a smile... remembering that this special dash might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy's being read with your life's actions to rehash... would you be proud of the things they say about how you spend your dash?

by Linda Ellis

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Christina Haskell

city Portland, Oregon

:Sent: 19.44 - 19/7

Hey Jacob, It's hard to belive its almost been a year. Well I'm off to college but before I go I need to say this. You were amasing! I'n FCA and in Chorale. You were always making us laugh. You could laugh at yourself. Not many people can do that. I had a hard time my senior year. I got away from God. Many times I would go for a walk at night and find myself in front of your parking spot not knowing what to do or even what to think. Jacob you made such an amasing diffrence in so many people. So many people came to Christ because of you. We had to get a bigger room for FCA. People were sitting on top of other people! But you not only made a diffrence in the lives of un-christians but also in the lives of Christians. Your legacy will live on through the people who knew you and loved you. I promise I will be more open about my faith. Trying to reach everyone for Christ. I'll be a better Christian. And when I die we are going to party in Heaven! See you soon Jacob. Miss you 'till then!

Love Always, Christina

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: ni-ni

:Sent: 04.21 - 8/7

my darling jacob your grandma bubby has passed away and is with you now.she loved to play cards and i am sure she can teach you a few new tricks. you were her first great grandchild. she would call you her g g and loved to hear you play the piano.you followed in her footsteps, being a person who always did for others and didn't expect anything in return. you both had big hearts yeh yeh is not well and we are staying in your house until he is better.it feels good to be amongst your earthly belongings i miss you so much and you are always in my heart i love you ni-ni

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Amanda

:Sent: 21.25 - 3/7

Jacob~ Like many others, I didn't actually know you and you didn't know me, but I remember noticing you on stage while you were singing in Mads. I remember sitting there thinking I wanted to be your friend. (that never happened.) I wish it had. I didn't know David either but I feel as if I missed out on friendships that I should have had. I hope one day I'll meet up with you in heaven and we can talk about the Ninja Turtles, and just Oakton in general. I think about you two a lot, and maybe because I could see myself being friends with you and that hurts a lot more. You knew my cousin, Leigh. He knew you through church group I believe. He was at prom this year, he went with my friend (as a favor to me.) I looked over at him during the dance and I knew he was thinking about you, and I realized that I was thinking about you too. i remember thinking that I wished you had been there. Did you hear Yida got Prom King? He did. He deserved it. Peace be with you and David. Someday I'll get to see the great smile I hear so much about.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: kristin

:Sent: 20.39 - 1/7

hey jacob. i guess i wanted to say. you know. i hope things are going well, & i missed you at the party last week... you'd have loved the DDR. it seems silly, but that's how i most clearly remember you. take care, ok?

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Anonymous

:Sent: 11.31 - 1/7

Jacob. I loved you. I miss you so much. I am so sorry.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jody Wilens

city Bethesda

:Sent: 20.08 - 29/5

Hey Kiddo.....Yida was given the first Oakton Choir's "Jacob Wilens Award" at the "Senior Recognition and Awards Ceremony" tonight. I think you'd like that. Miss you and love you, Gugu

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Chrystina

city Chantilly

:Sent: 12.47 - 23/5

Hey Jacob-I was just thinking about swimming this year. This season wasn't the same without you. When we swam Oakton I didn't have you there to say hello to. The swim season just wasn' the same. I Hope you're having fun up there partying with God. Peace.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Stef

city Herndon

:Sent: 12.28 - 21/5

Jacob- I could've *sworn* I already posted a message... I probably did, but I can't find it right now. Anyways, I'd like to thank you for something that I never really had the chance to say to you. You have taught me blunt honesty like none other. I think the thing I loved most about you was how you had the ability and the integrity to voice your mind, regardless who disagreed with it. That takes a LOT of guts and I thank you for being one of the few people who can do that. Since I never really got the chance to reminisce about pasttimes and all the other things we've gone through like everyone else here, I'd like to now. Over the years (starting way back when we carpooled for Chinese School), we've had our ups and downs and I'm happy to say that we ended in a very high "up". From the times we used to hang out at JJ's after school every day (the salt-on-slug incident :p) to the chicken sauce at the mall with Yida to the Culture Festival, it's come to my attention that we've really had some awesome times. It didn't matter if we were going to some big event like homecoming or just hanging out at JJ/Yida's house, every second with you was well-spent and cherished. I'll miss our serious talks, our silly talks, our music talks, and in general, just talking to you. I know you and David are having an absolute blast up there and nobody deserves to more than you two. We're all gonna miss you and again, thank you thank you thank you for everything :)

Heart, Stef

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Leigh Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/users/thursdaytrio

:Sent: 12.05 - 21/5

That picture of you at the front of this site...you dressed up all fancy in your tux...boy, you look good. I wish you were at prom this year. it's not fair that we got a senior prom and you didn't. save me a dance in heaven.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Angela Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/~10101

:Sent: 23.17 - 2/5

hmm. i'm just feeling bad right now. and i miss you, so.. yeah. just saying hi again dude :\

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Albert Kim Homepage: http://www.xanga.com/mister_ak

city Fairfax

:Sent: 21.09 - 24/4

hello, we all miss Jacob. go to this siteL http://www.soundclick.com/bands/theAK_music.htm and theres a song called "Rest In Peace" click on that song. because its a rap song dedicated to Jacob Wilens.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Sean

:Sent: 14.56 - 18/4

Jacob, even when we never had a chance to hang out together, but I've always consider you one of my coolest friends. I've always wanted to duel you in DDR someday- Dynamite Rave. I regret that I didn't get to duel you sooner. One day, let's us bring the groove on again. Sincerely, Sean

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: claire

:Sent: 09.54 - 25/3

happy birthday, sorry it's a little late :)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Ben Wang

:Sent: 20.09 - 23/3

Jacob, Where do we begin? The Ninja Turtle slippers? The Lego sets? The bite-ridden Nerf football? But like the webpage reads, you ARE in a better place--with Him--and far from our tax returns, term papers and countless mundane worries. Thank you for teaching us what it is to live for God. We love you forever, and we'll see you someday.

The Wang Family

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Angela Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/~10101

:Sent: 23.17 - 2/5

hmm. i'm just feeling bad right now. and i miss you, so.. yeah. just saying hi again dude :\

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Albert Kim Homepage: http://www.xanga.com/mister_ak

city Fairfax

:Sent: 21.09 - 24/4

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Sean

:Sent: 14.56 - 18/4

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: claire

:Sent: 09.54 - 25/3

happy birthday, sorry it's a little late :)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Ben Wang

:Sent: 20.09 - 23/3

The Wang Family

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jody Wilens / Gugu

:Sent: 17.45 - 21/3

Two poems found by Phyllis Lau:

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

If tears could build a stairway and memories were a lane, we would walk right up to heaven and bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken, No time to say good bye. You were gone before we knew it and only God knows why. Our hearts still ache in sadness, and secret tears will flow, What it meant to lose you No one can ever know.

But now we know you want us to mourne for you no more, To remember all the happy times, Life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten, we pledge to you today, a hallowed place wthin in our hearts, is where you'll always stay.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'M FREE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Don't grieve for me, for now I'm Free, I'm following the path God has laid, you see. I took his hand when I heard him call, I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day, to laugh, to love, to work, or play. Tasks left undone must stay that way. I found that peace at the close of day.

If my parting has left a void, then fill it with remembered joys, a friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss. Oh yes, these things I too will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow. I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow. My life's been full. I savored much. Good friends, good family, a loved one's touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief. Don't lengthen it now with undue grief. Lift up your hearts and peace to thee. God wanted me now, he set me free !

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: eileen

:Sent: 22.37 - 17/3

happy birthday, jacob. I miss you so much. I remember mo and nelly and I breaking into your locker to decorate it for your birthday...was it last year? a day doesn't go by when i don't think of you, and that's the truth. can't wait to see you again. love always, eileen

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Mi-Mi

:Sent: 16.46 - 17/3

Hi, Ya-Ge,

We had our first wonderful WARM, spring day today. How fitting to celebrate your birthday and life! :) Our birthdays are just two days apart... it's a bit poignant to go through this mid-March week without calling or IMing you or something, but I know you're celebrating today in a place that's as good as it gets! :) Miss you...

Happy birthday, Jacob.

love, Mi-Mi :)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Katherine Ku

:Sent: 15.35 - 17/3

Hey Jacob. Happy Birthday Bud. I remember joking how you were one of us Sophmores or Juniors. I remember last year in spanish we sang Happy Birthday to You. I carried an orange rose as a rememberance of you to school today. I wore the Jacob Shirt. Only problem was that you were missing. We visited you today, saw the Ferrari and Sculpture, and I left the rose. It was painful for all of us, yet we felt relieved afterwards. I thank the Lord for having the pleasure of knowing you. I Praise the Lord for today is your birthday, St. Patricks Day. God Bless You Jacob Wilens.

KitKat

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Tien-Tien Chen

:Sent: 06.06 - 17/3

Dear Jacob,

I'm thinking of you...especially today. Happy birthday.

Love you and miss you, Tien-Tien, for all your cousins

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: ni ni

:Sent: 05.36 - 17/3

my dear dear jacob happy birthday my wonderful grandson. today is the celebration of your birth. i remember when you were born how happy we were. you have always made us happy your entire life and we have always been proud proud of you. we miss you so much and know you are resting in peace now . we love you always ni ni

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: ni ni

:Sent: 05.28 - 17/3

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jody Wilens

city Bethesdsa, MD

:Sent: 22.11 - 16/3

Jacob dear,

Lots of people know you for your participation at your church and your love of God and the Bible. Lots of people know you for your skills at piano, guitar, swimming, break dancing and DDR. Lots of people know you for your success academically. Lots of people know you for your success at being a good friend. I know you for all of those things but most of all I know you for your skills at being a wonderful part of our family. Your positive outlook and always smiling face were always a joy to see. You always showed your patience with us. Over and over again I remember you showing Nih Nih the same procedure with her email. And over and over again you showed it to her with total patience. You seemed to fill the shoes so well of an older brother showing Bekah the ropes of advancing in school years and in life. You always listened patiently as Yeh Yeh would give you advice. You always seemed to take the time to show respect to older family members. I know you helped mom and pop around the house whenever they asked you. You truly brought joy to our family just by being you.

I have such wonderful memories of the times we used to spend together when you were just a toddler and a young child living near me in Gaithersburg. I don't think I'll ever forget the joy we both shared as we ran to greet each other in the townhouse parking lot in Gaithersburg. As you ran yelling "Gugu", "Gugu" all the way from your front door until you reached my car in the parking lot. We had so much fun going to the county fair and Chuck E. Cheese and the circus together. And no one, but no one could draw ninja turtle pictures like you did.

As you grew up I always appreciated whenever you shared with me. I loved seeing your new sound system in your car. I loved being involved with helping you choose flowers for Monica for both prom and homecoming. I got such a chuckle the time you answered the phone at home "Burger King" and I replied: "Can I have fries with that?" But most of all what soars higher than all your talents at guitar, swimming, piano, school and church was the wonderful quality person that you were. You always thought of others and gave of yourself and did for other people. Plus, you had more friends than one could count. Not too many people can leave this earth with that legacy.

We visited your grave for your birthday today and Paul left you an orangy/red model of your favorite Ferrari car. I gave you a sculpture of an angel lying on it's stomach and a "17" candle because you would have been 17 on the 17th. Pop read from the Bible. Bekah wore her orange "Ask Me About Jacob" shirt. As our family gathers together today, to share this first birthday without you, know how much we miss you and love you, and how proud we are of the person that you were. I'll love you always. Happy Birthday sweetheart.

Love, Gugu Aunt Jody March 17, 2003

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:Sent: 20.20 - 3/3

6 months? WOW. You taught me a lot. I have been so on fire for God. You have inspired me so much. I miss you, but you I am comforted in knowing that you are in Heaven with our awesome God. Now I'm jealous... :) Love always.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: STEVE Selig

city Boca Raton

:Sent: 13.39 - 13/2

Jacob: You are in our thoughts all the time. We miss you very much and I hope you are hppy where ever you are now!

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Danielle

city Myrtle Beach, SC

:Sent: 14.43 - 8/2

I really miss you Jake. Last night, I would have given anything to have been able to call you up. I needed to hear your voice. It has been so long...so long...and no matter how hard I try to believe that this is all for the better, I cannot. I miss you man. I really do...

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:Sent: 21.30 - 24/1

Please be my angel. Sometimes i feel alone, and when i look at the stars, i see your face. Julia told me that her friend saw you look at your rear-view mirror right before the accident...so you knew..u knew. I pray in that split second, you didn't fear... but u felt the arms of the angels engulfing you with love. Life is just so strange sumtimes... but i will never forget what you have meant to me, i love you dear friend.

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-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Rachana

city Oak Hill

:Sent: 17.51 - 24/1

Hi Jacob,

Happy New Year! I just wanted to say hi (even though I do on a daily basis). . . . I miss you so much. I'm listening to NFG right now and I was about to cry. . . oh how I wish I could see you. Btw, "Sonny" is a really good song. It means a lot to me. I'm sure you know :) I've been trying to improve myself sorta. . . I guess, with the new year and all. This "Monica and Ray" thing is getting to me again. I don't know what to do. I've been trying so hard. I wish I could have your guidance. I guess I needed to rant XD Well anyways, thanks for visiting me a couple of weeks ago. It made my. . . well, certainly more than a day. More like my life. I love you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Becca

:Sent: 21.49 - 17/1

Hey Jacob, Today I started a scrapbook full of all the people in high school that i'll remeber. Of course you're in it! well, anyway, i got about half way through your page when i started to cry uncontralably. as a matter of fact as i write this note to you tears are trickling down my face. It's still so hard! i remebered all the fun things we did, and all the memories we had. i know i've olny writen you one note before, but there was just something about today. something that made me want to talk to you. i saw my self just looking at your pic. for a while thinking about how much you mean to me, to all of us. whenever i hear someone say...bring it on, i think of you. knowing that was the last thing you said on your online diary. and whenever i drive by that spot, i'm quite for a few minutes. i've only driven by it a few time, like two. the first time i had to pull over to the other side of the road i was crying so much and the second time i just sat there quitly for a little bit. i couldn't cry then, my sister and her friend were in the car and it would have rouned their fun day of shopping and sleepovers. well another reason i wrtoe to you today was to let you know what went into my scrapbook on you. i have some newspaper articles from that day, and so pic. i have of you. i thought i had one of you and mon from prom, but i was wrong. remeber prom! i remeber that mon's dress had so many sparkels on it that by the end of the night you, and your car, were covered with them. it's funny cause at homecoming this year i had sparkles on me, no my dress, and i got it all over everyone, especially ray since he lent my his coat for a bit sicnce i was getting cold at the resterant. hey did you know mon and him went together. it was nice. they were each other's cruch when you left, and they're really close now. we all still miss you. you're never to far from our thoughts. in our class pic we all tried to wear orange, sorry i didn't but i don't look good in orange so i don't own that color, well one shirt that i bought for you. wow, boy did i get off topic, well i also have things on there about how i made fun of you during while you were having your senior pic taken since you had to wear the pengian suit. i still think it was funny. i also have things on there about my summer party were you were watching summer catch while no one elas was. i know i know, it's a good movie right. oh well, to each his own. i know you and i didn't know each other that well. but you were still one of the nicest people i've ever meet, and a friend. i hope you know that. you are a friend. and yes i do mean ARE. you're not gone, just somewhere elas. well since the third, i have thought alot about how much it would hurt if it was someone i was close to. like what ray and mon much have felt like. i know i don't get a lot of the jokes people tell, but i enjoy hearing them. i think what if it had been chris. i don't know if i'd ever be ok agian. i still think of you, and i still miss you. i still wear my orange ribbon, chaning it from puse to purse, as a matter of fact i need to do that right now sicnce over the weekend i changed my purse back and forth between two different ones. i hope it's nice where you are. i hope you get a chance to read all teh messages we write to you. i hope you can look down on us and see how people are doing. i'm not sure what more to say. i have so many thougths in my head, but don't know how to say it. i'm also tired, crying does that to me. i don't ever want to forget you and honestly i'm afraid i might. i don't want to let go of you. you survived Am Civ. shouldn't you be able to survive anything. it seems so unfiar that you should have had to work so hard last year, and for it to all seem like it was for nothing. i hope it wasn't all for nothing. i hope you don't have any regreats. hey who know maybe some of the history stuck in your head and your catting it up with some of them right now. that would be pretty cool. well, i sould go. i can't promise that i'll write agian, i'm not sure i will. but now that you are in my heart. always and forever, weather or not i know who you are, or even who i am, you are part of my now.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: aunt marsha

:Sent: 15.09 - 16/1

Dearest Jacob: Time is not making it any easier. I think about you all the time. You brought so much to our family, and there is a terrible void. we all love you. aunt marsha

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:Sent: 22.09 - 11/1

i'm sorry jacob, he didn't have the self-decency to admit to wrong-doing..but he'll get his dues...we all miss you so much.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: James

city chantilly

:Sent: 17.00 - 1/1

hey, we had the youth group all nighter yesterday for new years. not a whole lotts cbc peeps were there, but i knew that youd have probly been there. during the time, i proudly wore my "ask me about my friend jacob" shirt. a lot of people asked about jacob. well, i wish you were here in 2003, but, i guess thats not a part to the BIG picture. miss you and love you.

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:Sent: 14.41 - 28/12

Hey Jacob, Merry Christmas! I had a dream that I left you a message on your phone the other day. I don't remember what I said anymore, but you probably already know. I still think about you all the time, and I talk to you too. Miss you and love you.~

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Erin

city Oak Hill

:Sent: 18.04 - 25/12

To Jacob,

Merry Christmas Jake! The world continues to turn however we still all love you. I will never forget your humor, homesty and all of the good times we spent together in and out of Am Civ. with everyone in 3/4.

Wait for us please.

Love always, Erin

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:Sent: 20.02 - 24/12

merry christmas jake =)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Devorah

city Oakton, Va

:Sent: 21.09 - 19/12

Dear Jacob,

I bearly knew you but the times we met you touched my heart. Remember we met in Behind the Wheel last year. I was the lowly sophmore with two juniors who were friends. But you always had a smile and were willing to pull me into the converstation. Then when i would see you in the halls you would always have a smile for me, for everyone. During the Europe trip the summer Yida always talked about you. Good things i promise :) I only wish that i could have been in Mads last year. I am this year but i feel as if i missed out on this wonderful phenomenon that was Jacob. But i know one day we may meet again. And even though our heavens my not be the same, i will see you there regardless. May the stars shine forever bright in your name and all others who have touched so many hearts as you have. Thank you for your smile and for your friendship and your love. Thank you for being the best thing you could ever be, yourself. Thank you. Devorah Litt

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Angie

:Sent: 20.01 - 18/12

I wrote this on Sept 4th on a crumpled piece of paper, it needs a better home: Dear Jacob, I guess what I mostly want to say is: I miss you and I love you. We all love you. I wish you could see how everyone comes together to remember you. There are so many people that care and love you. Right now things are really hard. You don't know how much we miss you, how much I miss you. I'll never forget you. I never will. I just keep thinking, I wish I knew ahead of time and I wish I culd have told you. I mean, I know you're happy and that you're in a good place but I just wish you could give me some sign that everything is alright. A lot of us really need that assurance. I just don't know what to say. I've been back and forth between denial and tears. You don't know how much some of your friends care for you. We're willing to do anything just to know that you're ok. You were the most wonderful person ever. Remember sheep? And that time you and Crhis crashed my sleepover and kocked on my basement window? And how we sat outside eating granola bars and watching the stars. I can't get over this, dear. We all miss you soo much. I've been beating myself up about caring about such petty things before. I went home and vented about peety things yesterday. I miss you, Jacob. It's just not fair. Love you, dear. How will I ever find us a morning meeting place...we just talked about it yesterday. I am wishing so many things and I don't know where to begin. I know I must forgive but it's really hard. I just hope you're ok. No, I know you're ok. I remember how you always called when Monica and I were doing homework together and how we'de sit in a group every morning. And homecoming dinner. I was so glad to see you in my calculus class yessterday. I'm so glad I saw you. I'm so glad I knew you. I'm so glad we were friends. I'll miss you soo much my sweet, talented, wonderful Jrabbit. Lots of love. Miss you so much. Wait for me. Wait for all of us. Love you. Angie

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: James

city Chantilly

:Sent: 12.27 - 7/12

i never knew there was a website for you jacob. i had gone to oriental jew a lot and set it out to everyone i knew to be seen. i knew you had prolly gotten a newer site but i couldnt find it. anyways buddy, i wrote a peom after i heard the news. you see that week, my school was on a retreat, and my welcome home present that friday was the worst news i can remember hearing. heres the poem.

Jacob to Me When I try to think; Of Jacob Wilens, my friend My head overflows; Mind full of him God did send Memories of him; Wasn't always there Tuesday He'd remember me; Week after week he would say, "Hey James how are you?"; On his guitars he could play On command he strummed; Any song any way Jacob showed God's love; No need to state faith a lot Reflected in him; To be more like God he sought We had guitar lessons planned; For the summertime Our work schedules had that banned; Spoke on Saturday Before his first day of school; We apologized Planned after class settled cool; Well me and my friend Will never jam on this earth; But one day sometime Together well play value of good worth; And I will see him One of my best friends again; Jacob I love you In this life you helped me win.

well things have been good and bad since you left, and at times i really miss you. my comfort is that you dont wana come back, and deepinside, i know i dont want you to come back either. i love you bro. james

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Leigh

city herndon

:Sent: 10.01 - 7/12

hey jacob! thanks for coming and visiting erin and steph; they really appreciated it, so did everyone else. oss is trying to form a 7th period BC calculus band with Ashuk, and i think you would have been a great rhythm guitarist. I hope you're having fun up there, and by fun, i mean you better not be doing any calculus. If I get up there and you know integration, you'll have some explaining to do ;-) I guess what I really wanted to tell you was that I still miss you, but it's ok, because i was lucky enough to know you for two and a half years, and we had fun while you were here. I'm sorry that you didn't get to go to college (and by college, I mean cornell, of course) but I know you're having fun up there. I'm sure you're playing CCR and rocking out on your guitar. You're such a rock star. See you later. -Leigh

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Michelle

city Chicago, Illinois

:Sent: 16.02 - 6/12

Jacob - I only wish that I had the faith that you and your family and friends have. For someone like me, your passing makes absolutely no sense. I was so looking forward to hearing about your college applications, your success at Cornell (because, of course, that is where you would have gone!), your dreams and your fears as you grew. Now all of that is gone and I just cannot understand. I am comforted that your family is so strong - if your mom and dad (and of course Rebekah - mei mei) can smile each day, then I should be able to. I just wish it were that easy.

I will think of you always. Cousin Michelle

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: James

city Chantilly

:Sent: 12.27 - 7/12

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Leigh

city herndon

:Sent: 10.01 - 7/12

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Michelle

city Chicago, Illinois

:Sent: 16.02 - 6/12

I will think of you always. Cousin Michelle

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: rebekah

city in your house

:Sent: 15.59 - 4/12

i hope.... o i hope so bad you like what ive been doing, now that you can see the way i live my life. i wish you were still here to give me guidance everyday, i guess its not so bad not having you around, but sometimes i need you.

well you know everything else i think....i so cant wait to see you. i just wish....just that everybody else would be able to see you soon too. ~mei-mei

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Tien-Tien

:Sent: 14.06 - 22/11

Dear Jacob,

I keep thinking that you're going to school everyday, enjoying senior year, driving around, getting ready for Thanksgiving in Florida... and that I'll see you at Christmas. And it hits me all over again.

I, too, remember that time when the six of us "U.S. cousins" talked late that night in your room, long after all our parents had gone to bed. I remember thinking afterwards, wow, we have so many conversations like this to look forward to now that everyone's older. I also pictured all of you in my wedding.

But somehow, His ways and His thoughts are higher than ours, and "Better is One Day." I know you're bringing and sharing smiles in His courts. I can't even imagine what the praise team must be like in His very presence! And I wonder, what language do you and A-Ma talk in?

I miss you very much, Ya-Ge.

Love, Tien-Tien

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: claire cannon

city mechanicsville

:Sent: 16.27 - 21/11

hey jacob, i still think of you often. i am still encouraged by knowing you, even though i wish i could have gotten to know you much better. and i am still telling you story to anyone who will listen. i'm telling them God will use all, if you give all. and that he has a plan in everything even if it's hard to see. In His Wonderful Love ~me ~For I am not ashamed for the Gospel of Christ, for it is the power of God for salvation... Romans 1:16

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: ni-ni

:Sent: 09.25 - 7/11

hi jacob this morning i watched the tape we made of you playing the guitar the week before your accident it was so great to see you strumming ,singing and smiling it felt as though you were right there with me in the living room i love you and miss you always ni ni

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Tien-Tien

city Norfolk

:Sent: 05.50 - 29/10

This is the poem that our 10 year old cousins in Taiwan wrote for Jacob:

To Jacob Wilens - Prince in Our Hearts Forever

God gave you such intelligence, that nothing seemed to puzzle you; such courage, that nothing seemed to hold you back; such gentleness, that you won all our hearts

And God loves you so much that He decided to keep you from the trials of the world.

Whenever we look into the starry sky, we know you are there with our Father in heaven, saying hello to us.

And we know that someday We will see each other again.

Loving you forever, Your cousins in Taiwan

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Tien-Tien

city Norfolk

:Sent: 05.47 - 29/10

This is the poem that our 10 year old cousins in Taiwan wrote for Jacob:

To Jacob Wilens - Prince in Our Hearts Forever

God gave you

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: jj

city herndon

:Sent: 18.54 - 21/10

hey jacob... i miss you man...

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Mi-Mi

city Providence

:Sent: 12.26 - 17/10

Hi, Jacob,

There is a beautiful tree outside my apartment that is just the perfect shade of orange... it makes me think of you every time I go out and come home. I've been writing down all my memories of you in a journal I keep...from our first reactions to you as a baby (haha!), to the time you fell into that fountain at the mall, to our last 2 family reunions. Jacob, do you remember that time the six of us all sat around in your room two summers ago and just talked and hung out for awhile after our parents went to bed? That was the summer before Ben went off to college and we were all just kind of sharing and listening. Rebekah was just 12 then and Tien-Tien was already 21, but it seemed somehow like we had all grown up suddenly and were starting to relate differently and really get to know each other. That time was so special in Tien-Tien and my heart, and I remember Jon saying afterwards, "hey, that was a good time." I had been looking forward to more such times... and now...I know we still have them in store for us, only we will miss your presence so much. I miss you; our whole family misses you. Thanks for all the memories -- you've made a lasting impression! Have fun up there in His courts! Better is one day...

love, Mi-Mi :)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Aimee Klimchak Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/users/punkassangel

:Sent: 18.07 - 9/10 ill miss playing ddr with you and the rest of the azns..one day i know i will see you again.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Ceann

city Herndon-Fox Mill Estates

:Sent: 16.45 - 9/10

Well, it's a little late, but better late than never. I guess I never really wrote anything cuz I was kinda scared. 1: cuz I was afraid maybe some people would kinda "look" at me funny and 2: cuz I didn't really know you. I knew you like an acquaintance, but more than that. I remember always seeing you waiting for Monica after French class and walking with her and everything. I used to say hey to you guys n whatever. ~sigh~ it's really hard to write down these words because I dont really know what to say, but from what I can see everyone loves you very much and is going to miss you, because I too have had an experience w/you. I remember I was sitting by myself somewhere, and w/out hesitation you came sat next to me and asked what was wrong. I'll never forget that because there've been plenty of times when I've felt lonely, and now when I do, I think of that one time you sat next to me. My one regret though, is that I never really go to know you like I could have, but i'll miss you anyhow. And I know you're smiling down on each and everyone of us up there in heaven. Take care wherever else you may be. oh, and say hi to dad for me.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: rebekah

city oak hill

:Sent: 15.17 - 9/10

i have so much to say, but still im speechless. im still waiting, but i dont know what im waiting for anymore. i cant do this write now, ill post later.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Ni Ni

city boca raton,fl

:Sent: 06.17 - 6/10

to my darling jacob i miss you so much every morning when i awake i say this hopi prayer and it i know that you are with me.

do not stand at my grave and weep, I amnot there I do not sleep I am a thousandwinks that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow, I am the sunlight on the ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn's rain

When you awaken on the morning hush, I am the swift up lifting rush of quiet birds in circled flight, I am the soft stars that shine at night,

Do not stand at my grave and cry: I am not there I DID NOT DIE

Yeh Yeh says hello we both love you so much

Ni NI

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Chrystina

city Chantilly

:Sent: 16.51 - 4/10

Jacob-> i miss you. We all miss you. When I found out what happened i was in shock. I couldn't believe what happened to you b/c i had just spoken w/ you on sunday @ church...God has a plan and it was your time to go. You lived a great life. You touched so many lives.

*life is precious, live everyday to its fullest**

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Brian Ho

:Sent: 19.29 - 3/10

I don't know what to say but I'm sorry. You didn't deserve to leave this world so soon. There's so much more that you never got to experience. There were so many more hearts out there you needed to touch. We're short one man on robotics. That spot's still open for you if you feel like giving us any good ideas. We didn't get along all the time, and I'm a bitter guy. But you're seriously the most upstanding guy I know. It's been a privilege and honor to be friends with you.

Take care of yourself. And have fun up in heaven, I'm sure it's a blast up there. Stop by sometime, maybe when I'm passed out in seminar.

I miss you man. I still think about seeing you sign on, or thinking we'd be working side by side on robotics. I really miss you a lot.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Steve Selig

city Boca Raton

:Sent: 17.46 - 1/10

WE miss you JACOB more than we can say. Marsha & I look at the memorial site every day and hope it stay active forever. WE listen to Classical Music and think how well you played every instrument you tried, especially the piano. Keep up the good work wher ever you are. We are confident that you are with Gd in heaven.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Franklin

city Marietta

:Sent: 18.57 - 30/9

Hi Jacob! I've never met you in person before, but I had been waiting to. I'm Daniel Yao's good friend and he told me much about you. I still wait anxiously to meet you in the air on that day! God keeps His faithful servants forever with Him. There is no better place to be.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Daniel Yao

city Marietta, GA

:Sent: 14.42 - 30/9

Jacob, I remember the many times when we were little, I would come to your place during times like Spring Break to visit you and we did so much together. And the last time I hung out with you was this past Spring Break and you showed me a whole bunch of things on the guitar and we jammed and stuff and I was hoping that after this year that hopefully I would be able get better and come back next year to learn some more and to have a great time playing guitar with you. You taught me so incredibly much and you were so awesome at guitar I was amazed. I remember when we were young I felt that we were almost like distant brothers or cousins. I know I'm going to miss you immensely. By the way I got a electric guitar now like I was telling you I would and I just wish that you were here so we could hang out once again and I had a great time when I came and you introduced me to your friends at church. I hope to see you again... just wish it could be sooner.

Your Brother in Christ,

Daniel Yao

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Katherine Ku (KitKat)

city Oak Hill

:Sent: 14.32 - 28/9

I remember I met you in my freshman year on the bus from school. I sat in the seat across from you and asked for a pretzel without even knowing you. Without hesitating you generously gave me one and introduced yourself. I kept seeing this generosity throughout the years I had known you. I admire your dedication to Christ, devoting your life to him. You invited me to your youth group at CBC and I met so many people there :) When I arrived I immediately saw your genuine smile and you waved at me. Then there were times when I saw your amazing guitar skills, where you taught me about the different types of guitars. Youth group was fun, and afterwards you asked me to go come back on Sunday. You always wondered why I didn't come and would frequently invite me back there. Thank you for reaching me closer to Christ. You invited me to Revolution 2001 and now i regret not going...nevertheless you helped me get to Revolution 2002. I remember you inviting me to go to See You At The Pole last year...and this year so many ppl came :) Thank you Jacob... You never judged anybody and accepted me for who I was. You helped so many friends become closer to Christ. I will never forget all the times I had with you in lunch last year, all the times I talked to you online, and all the fun times in Spanish class. I'm so glad I bought a yearbk last year, because now I look back at what you wrote: *~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Helloo KitKat! I remember meeting you on the bus last year, wow so long ago. And then you came to my church on friendship sunday. Well I'm glad we had Spanish togheter. Losada is NUTS. Yup, I'll probably see you over the summer. You shoudl coem to one of me, David, and Jason's swim meets. ttyl online. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Thank you again for everything you have done. Ever since I moved here, You were the first person to reach me back into Christianity. Thank you and I know i will see you once again in Heaven. God bless.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Claire Cannon

city Mechanicsville, Md

:Sent: 16.27 - 26/9

Jacob What an honor and a privilege to know you! I cannot thank God enough for putting you on my crew. And I canont thank you enough for answering the call. You served him with all you heart that week! WE HAD THE BEST CREW EVER!!!!! As we were leaving world changers Brian(aka Paul)told us to live the call, not just in watertown, but at our homes. and you did just that! In Phil 1:20 Paul say "I live in eager expectation and hope that I will never do anything that causes me shame, but that I will always be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past, and that my life will always honor Christ, wether I live or die." You did just that! you lived the life worthy of being called a Christian! you ran this race and never gave up, and you won jacob! you pressed on and you finished! God has taught me soooo much through you. You finished sooner than we expected, and I miss you. Sometimes it just seems so weird. i mean, i see the pictures and vidoes and you look so alive! I never thought you'd go so fast. You were great to work with, from finding that dead bird in the loft :), to the encour-o-gram you sent(it meant so much to me :), and that fact that Jesus Freak will never be the same :). You have encouraged me so much as a Christian. YOu gave everthing over to God, and he used you. you didn't just change your world, you changed mine forever too. I will never forget you or the lessons i've learned. I know GOd will continue to use you. have fun in heaven, i can't wait to see you when i get there! In His Awesome Love, Claire ps>i think it is so cool that i can write to you. i makes me feel better :)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: AJ Yim Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/~aka-apple-juice

city ...Chantilly...VA...

:Sent: 22.12 - 24/9

see you later jacob

-aj[apple.j]

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jody Wilens

city Bethesda, Maryland

:Sent: 19.38 - 24/9

To my dearest nephew, Jacob, You were a bright shooting star. Your light touched so many people in the short time you were here but you will be remembered for eternity. I watched you grow from an adorable toddler to the wonderful young man you had become. I feel blessed to have known you for 16 years. I miss your always smiling face, your always happy attitude and hearing you call me "Gugu". For our family, your light will never go out. I miss you terribly and will love you always. Love, Gugu (Aunt Jody)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Charlie Harris

city Oakton VA

:Sent: 16.40 - 24/9

Jacob I wrote to you and David on the York website too..... I still miss you.... i always will.... I miss you and David a lot.... i know we werent best friends but it feels like a piece of my heart is gone without you two... jacob and david you were my swim team buds... i only wish i couldve taken the friendship further... its been 3 weeks now and it seems like it was just yesterday that i saw you guys and yesterday that jacob you and i tried out for swimming freshman year and it seems like tommorrow that i will see you both again... I only hope i can see you both again some day.... because knowing that you wont walk into the room some time is pretty tough...

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: marsha selig

:Sent: 16.36 - 24/9

Dear Jacob: Keep looking up to the clouds so that maybe I could see your handsome face and beautiful smile. I will always love you and think of you. I pray that you are happy. Love, Aunt Marsha

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jordan Ramey Homepage: http://jordanramey.com/

city Houston

:Sent: 15.33 - 24/9

You truly knew what it was to have a servant heart. I had an awesome week at Watertown with you. I pray that there are more fine men like you. with a heart for God! Your testimony alone has touched the lives of many and I don't think that God is done. You inspire me as a christian. Thanks for being a Jesus freak with Nigel! All the love. jordan ramey

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Brian Richards

city Columbus, MS

:Sent: 12.28 - 24/9

It was a privilege to have met you this past summer and to serve with you at World Changers. Your love for Christ and just humble, serving spirit was an inspiration to us all...I will never forget how you and Nigel brought the house down on the Jesus Freak rap the final night...thanks for the memories...I know you are praising our Savior now...

Passionately Pursuing Him, BRIAN...World Changers Summer Staff Team Leader

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Natalie Kakovitch

city Herndon

:Sent: 14.27 - 20/9

Jacob- I didn't know you, but everything I've heard makes you sound like such an amazing person. Before I went to the memorial, I didn't know you were a Christian. When I heard, I was so happy. I had just become a Christian a few weeks prior and I then understood where you were and why you were there.This is quite selfish of me, but during the memorial service, I was disappointed because I never had the chance to meet you. Everyone was talking about how devoted you were to the Lord, how much you loved life. It was somewhat depressing, but also convicting. But by the end of the service I realized that you were in a better place, the greatest place of all. Looking down at all of us. I wasn't so sad anymore. Just by hearing about your life, it impacted me so much, helped me grow in my faith, helped me grow as a person. Thank you for that, and I know one day we'll meet in heaven.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Paul Kagan

city silver spring

:Sent: 14.09 - 20/9

Missed you for 15 years. Now I guess I'll miss you for more.

Paul

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: patty

city oakton

:Sent: 18.56 - 15/9

hey jacob~ I wonder, do they have the internet in Heaven? :P thanx for always brightening up my day. I'll never forget Cult. fest. sophmore year, that was such a blast! And thanx for my first slow dance...I'll never forget you, until the day that i see you again. I was reading this book and it said " the last breath that is taken by a christian on earth, is the first breath taken in heaven." I know u are in eternal paradise right now, and i am truly happy for you. I love you!!! R.I.P

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Angela Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/users/10101

city Gaithersburg, MD

:Sent: 20.02 - 13/9

Jacob, It feels as if I don't really feel like I belong here, but well.. I haven't been as tight with you as I liked to be, but I remember when we were little kids and we would play together at each other's houses (remember Becky? she moved away when we were kids and I was so sad.. and i'm sad now too..). I remember your always being really nice to me but playful too, kind of like a brother. I was not raised to any religion, but knowing about your relationship with Jesus makes me feel doubtful about my lack of belief.. perhaps one day I will see you again, and we can once again play together. Wouldn't you like that? I would :) Love, Angela

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Christine Chu

city Herndon/Los Angeles

:Sent: 20.42 - 12/9

Jacob, I only met you once or twice when you came over to hang out with David. Actually, I think you were the first of David's friends that I met. I wish I had been around the house more when you were over because from what I hear from everyone, you were someone special. David always talked highly about you and you guys seemed to have so much fun together. To Jacob's family, as David's sister, I know nothing I say can be of comfort because nothing anyone says to me has lessened the pain I feel.The only comfort I find in this whole tragedy is that the two boys are safe in our Father's hands and that He has a purpose in everything he does. I have already seen so much good come out of something that seems like it's the end of the world. David and Jacob, you guys have inspired so many people with your actions and the way you lived your lives. I know you both would be proud to see how many people have strengthened or found their relationship with Christ. With each passing day, I know I am one day closer to being with you again. Love,Christine

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Lydia

:Sent: 17.15 - 11/9

Jacob - It seems to write to you on here - Ive had so many conversations with you since tuesday.. but I guess I just wanted to send you a note after your beautiful smile in all those pictures.. Ive only known you three years but it seems like forever - our choir trips and classes - church trips to the beach and our most recent adventure to watertown.. I love you so much Jacob - and hurts so bad - but I know I will see you again along with everyone else who has accepted Christ.. youve shown so many people the light - through your life - and even in your death.. you really have "lived the call" - everyone is so proud of you.. I'll never forget our time together and I will never stop looking forward to the times to come.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Amanda Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/users/banddork13

city Oakton

:Sent: 13.03 - 11/9

Hey Jacob,

Guess what I did yesterday night?! I bet you were watching anyway. I ACCEPTED CHRIST AND STOOD UP FOR THE LORD. It felt so good. I know that I made you proud and I know that God is pleased with me and especially with you for bringing us closer to His Son.

Thank you Jacob, you always were one of my "brothers"...now just even more so. Save me a mansion okay? I'll be seeing you up there soon. :-)

Love,

Amanda

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: John

city Centreville

:Sent: 15.01 - 9/9

whoever knew that one life could change so many lives, those who know and do not know you jacob. i personally never knew you until i found out about the accident today through a friend. whoever knew that God would use a young soul such as yours to show the people in this world that life is so fragile and that nobody ever knows when tomorrow will be no more. i am glad to know that beyond the people i know there are those who choose to live out the life of Christ, without shame, spread throughout this world. and to come across one who has influenced so many friends of yours, makes me think again about where i am with God. thanx for reminding me, and hopefully all who know you, that Christ desires our faith today, not to wait for tomorrow. cuz tomorrow might be no more.

"I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile. For in the gospel a righteousness from God is revealed, a righteousness that is by faith from first to last, just as it is written: 'The righteous will live by faith.'" - Romans 1:16-17

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: ak

city md

:Sent: 10.09 - 8/9

david & jacob -im sorry but i dont really know either of you..even so, i feel saddened by your dissapearences and feel for everyone who knew you because it seems to me that both of you have made positive changes in this world

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Michael O'Connor

city Oak Hill

:Sent: 08.38 - 8/9

We miss a lot jake. The last time I saw u was at the very end of the first day of school. I said "Cya Jake." and you said "Cya O'Connor." Far from the goodbye you deserved. Jacob, the saddest thing is that the only way we get to see you again is by bringing more sadness to others. That the only way for us to enjoy your face again, others will have to lose ours. A cruel reality is death, that our ultimate peace and happiness, brings so much sadness and sorrow. We love u jake.

It is darkest before the dawn. In your life you choose when the dawn comes. Jacob's passing was the darkness...when will your dawn come.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Danielle

city Myrtle Beach

:Sent: 07.08 - 8/9

Jake~ I never thought that when I said 'goodbye' to you before leaving for college that it really was. When I said it, I was totally looking forward to chillin' on my next break when I came home. I guess now, I have to look forward to chillin' with you when I join you. I can't wait dude. You were such an amazing person, and you are a totally amazing spirit, and although I am devestated knowing that you are no longer here in body with us, I take comfort knowing that you are my angel, Jacob. I love you, and will forever be thinking of you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Amanda

city Oakton

:Sent: 06.29 - 8/9

Hey Jacob,

Guess what? I'm finally going to church now...and I'm also carrying my bible in my backpack. I'm sorry it took me so long to listen to you....but from now on I swear...I will be a better Christian. I know that you are reading this right now and I hope that this makes you happy...because during the times that we knew each other...you were the one who always made me happy. So...wait up for me..because I will see you again someday. I love you Jacob, I will never forget you. Thank you for touching our lives...for teaching me...and most of all....for being my "special friend".

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Dreyfuss Homepage: http://www.deadjournal.com/users/3foot

city Reston

:Sent: 22.00 - 7/9

Jacob- You're life touched more people than you could ever know. You brought warmth to the hearts of everyone you met; and I am proud to have known you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Amy Kravitz

city Herndon

:Sent: 20.57 - 7/9

Hey Jacob- I know youll be reading this and have no idea who i am, but thats ok. I always passed you in the halls and you always looked so happy and content. I wish I would have goten to know you. Just stopped to say hi a few times, maybe we could have gotten to be friends. I have heard so many great things about you and I wonder why God choose to take you away from us. With all the bad people in this world we need people like you. I guess God had his reasons, but I am still trying to figure them out. I hope you aren't alone up there, I hope you are doing something great and having a ton of fun up there. Maybe we can become friends if I make it up to heaven. Until then, take care.

-Amy

PS. I am sorry I didn't go to the serivce. I felt like I should go, and also that I shouldn't. Hope you can forgive me for that. I know you can though becasue from what I hear you had the best heart. :)

David- I didn't know you at all, but I know you and Jacob are up there together, laughing, having fun, doing your thing. I am having such a hard time finding closure becasue this was so tragic. I have been questioning God lately, but when (if) i make it up to heaven, I know I'll get all the answers I've been looking for. Hopefully we can become friends one day...I am looking forward to it. :)

-Amy

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Kilika (Chris Malone)

:Sent: 20.34 - 7/9

Jacob, you will always be in my prayers. You were just such an awesome person, that I will never forget you, or that time that you stayed up teaching me how to play the guitar. Just for you, I will be starting it back up:). I'm also going to be carrying my Bible around with me at school with Zack and some other people. You've inspired many lives at Oakton, and many more outside of it. I just wish that we got to hang out more, but maybe you can help me jam when I see you when I see you again when I join you up above. Later dude. We love you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: sarah

city tilly

:Sent: 09.50 - 7/9

jacob, you were truly a Godly person. we will miss you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Yida Li Homepage: http://www.geocities.com/yida_empire

:Sent: 07.29 - 7/9

David, I'm sorry I do not remember you as well as I did Jacob. But I was blessed by the your very first day of school that we talked to each other. Even if it was only then.

Jacob, I know you're grinning in Heaven right now. You've turned me back to my Christian roots, and what a lifting I've recieved from God. I spoke a prayer to you along with Spencer, James, and Kaz last night outside the Cage. We'll sing together soon.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Ray Homepage: http://www.geocities.com/spikeinferno

city Fairfax

:Sent: 22.04 - 6/9

Hey Jacob. It's hard looking around this world and not seeing you here. I practiced with the praise team tonight - was singing my heart out like i never had before. They were mostly pretty happy songs. I hope you liked them. We'll be jammin in your memory man. I can see now why you liked singing so much. Tonight, everything just came out in the songs we went over. Instead of tears, I cried with my words today - words in a melody that'll rock da house. I miss you so much man. You've always been like a brother to me, cuz I don't have any official ones. My brother as a friend, my brother in Christ, my brother - "the way black people say it, therefore bringing much more meaning to the word" - I hated seeing you go on Tuesday my bother. Then again, God couldn't have chosen a better person to join his kingdom, cuz you did not fear eternity. You desired to be with Jesus - a desire that I'll never forget. I'll never forget you Jake. I love ya man.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Catie

:Sent: 20.39 - 6/9

Still thinking about you, Jacob. I've sent you a lot of notes, I know. I bet you're busy. I'll write out a draft for you tomorrow, drop it off... somewhere. Make it legible for you. I'll get it done, promise. We miss you =(

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Jen

city "Somewhere in Wisconsin Also"

:Sent: 20.08 - 6/9

Jacob~ I learned about you through Emily. I talked to you several times online... mostly goofy non-sense. What I realized is that I was talking to one of the wisest human beings. I wish I could have known you in person, I could have learned sooo much about life from you. I admire the fact that you were not afraid to die, because you were so sure of yourself and that you knew had your place in heaven. I know your wish came true. I am greatful for the times that i did get to talk to you. I want you to know that you will by my hero for all eternity!! Love~ Jen

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Susan Staley

city Herndon

:Sent: 20.02 - 6/9

Jacob~ I just wanted to let you know how much you've touched an entire community. As a part of student government I've watched flowers arrive from Herndon, cards from TJ and Langley and other places. You were not only a treasure to Oakton. You were a treasure to the entire community. I discovered a song today on an old cd of mine and a lyric went...."we can cry with hope, we can cry with love, because we know our goodbye is not the end. we know your home now and free" we love you and miss you very much, but find comfort knowing you are with your Father now. be at peace now jacob...

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Emily

city "Somewhere in Wisconsin"

:Sent: 19.47 - 6/9

Jacob~ I can't believe I'm writing this but here it goes. I started talking to you about 4 years ago, and i will always be greatful that you im'd me that one day in '98. I remember it was on my birthday and you and your friends were just saying random things..just having a good time. Most people would have blocked you, but i laughed. I thought you were awesome right away..through the years i've gotten to know you a little better. I loved our kareoke nights...i can still remember singing The real slim shady. You've taught me so much, like never to take people for granted. It hurts that it had to take something like this to realize you never know how much time you have with the people you love. But then i think, you are in a better place, a happier place where i know you wanted to be. I know you are smiling down on us and watching over all the people you love. I just wanted to thank you for IMing me that one day because i'd rather have talked to you for just 4 years than never knowing you existed on this earth. I hope you know how many people's lives you have changed. Without a doubt you are my angel. Love you always and forever, Emily

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: MATT LEHMAN

city Oakton

:Sent: 17.04 - 6/9

Jacob, There might have been times where it may look like I didn't like you but I didn't I always thought you were a good kid. I still remember the time your sophmore year when you just made the second round of districts. In my mind I was proud of you. I hope I should have went up to you and congratulated you some more. You were a pretty good swimmer but an awsome guitar player. I wish I could have talked to you some more and got to know you better. I hope your doing just fine where ever you are

David, I met you last year, I hope you didn't think I was wierd when I kept asking you about swimming stuff. The only reason why I asked, was cause I was afraid I might loose my spot on a event but everything worked out and I didn't need to worry. I enjoyed are stupid/funny conversations that we had. You were an awsome swimmer and alot better than I was. I hope your doing just fine wherever you are

Matt

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Flo

city Oak Hill

:Sent: 15.15 - 6/9

Hey Jacob! It's very hard to deal with the fact that you're not here on Earth with us. But I do know that God has taken you to a much better place where you can watch over all of us. I don't quite remember when I met you...middle school maybe? But I do remember that you were always the laid-back, cool kid who got along with everyone. I especially enjoyed having you in my classes last year. I remember you wrote, "Physics is Phun" in my yearbook...and it was "phun" because of your warmth and humor. Sometimes I wonder why God decides to end a life so suddenly. It's even more perplexing when He takes someone who is as young, loving, and talented as you are. But He has his reasons, and we should trust in Him. Perhaps we should look at it like this: "A lot of people have a new guardian angel...and it's you, Jacob." It hurts for a lot of people right now. But I think we should take comfort in the fact that you'll be there for every step we take. You're in our hearts forever!

Love, Flo

David-I didn't know you, but it would have been an honor for me to play music with you in Chamber Orchestra. Mrs. Maclin was telling us about how much you wanted to make it...and you did. Your devotion is certainly an example of what every musician should strive for. God bless you.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Matt Hoffman Homepage: http://www.livejournal.com/users/hoffman_log

city Fairfax

:Sent: 11.36 - 6/9

Jacob, I never got to know you. I didn't even know you existed until this tragic event. But I wish I did get to know you. You were friends with so many friends of mine. Wayne, Mike Ott, his brother Matt, and I'm sure i'll find more people who knew you well.

Jacob though I never knew you, don't think that your passing hasn't been tough on me. It hurts to lose a friend, and it also hurts to see a friend in pain. That's what i've been coping with. But the more and more I find out about you, the harder it is.

Get to know Donna up there. You two left in the same tragic way. I'm sure you're going to be there to greet us when it's our time.

_MaH

Nobody should have to die at this age. Nobody regardless of age should have to die in that fashion. I lost my grandma in a car accident. It hurts, I know. God does it hurt.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Mike Liu

city Fairfax

:Sent: 20.36 - 5/9

Hey, i know we didn't always... ever.... get along that well. things were said, things weren't said. it sucks i didn't get a chance to apologize and make amends. to tell you the truth, i had almost forgotten about you until the accident. now, i don't think i'll ever forget. you're the second person i've known to have died in the last two years. what's worse, you're the second person i've known to have died in the last two years, because you were rear-ended by a truck. you're the second person i've known to have died in the last two years, because you were rear-ended by a truck at a stop light. it's scary to know that things like this happen to innocent people. when you visit all the people you left behind, in their dreams, see if you can't squeeze some more fun into the few minutes that you're resurrected. obviously you haven't truly died, as it you're very much alive in everybody's hearts. it's impossible to talk to anybody from Oakton or the old church on Frying Pan without hearing about you. anyway, i know you're hangin out, breakin and ravin and whatever it is that you've been up to with the big guy now, so i'm not worried about you. i've got a hardass year ahead of me so you're gonna hafta party extra for me while you're at it. i gave up christianity since losing touch with you so you might not see me when i bite the dust. still, i'll find a way to come chill with you and make up for all the crazy shit that went on before. some day, we'll play more pick-up football between the trailers.

--Mike say hi to Thomas Liu for me wouldja?

it seems a lot of people are forgetting about David. David, i didn't know you at all. not a single clue who you are and as much as i hate joining the crowd and becoming another one of the conformists, but as an asian brother, i feel for you too. make sure you help all the asians take over the afterlife alright? when i get up there, i wanna see myself rejected cause some white guy's filing for affirmative action cause there are too many damn asians crowding the place, "stealing their jobs."

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Zach Carter

city Oakton

:Sent: 20.30 - 5/9

Guess the old board got erased.. heh anyway Jacob, I hope you're having a blast up there. I never really got to know you, we had very few conversations at lunch mainly consisting of hi and, whats up? But through talking to some of your friends like Chris, and through my experiences with you I've gathered you were an awesome kid. Sorry you had to leave us so soon. I wish I had gotten to know you better, hung out with you and your friends, talked to you more when I had the chance. These past few days have been really hard for everyone. I hope they all know you're looking down on us jacob and I'll see you up there in the future.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Charles Kitchen

city Vienna

:Sent: 19.53 - 5/9

Dear Jacob I didnt meet you until last year, and even then I didnt actually get to know you till the year was half over. But even in so short a time, I got to consider you a friend and you were such a wonderful person. I can think of really few people I know who never said bad things about anyone, who could be funny yet not crude or insulting to anyone, who could just be pefectly cleanly funny and you were one of them Gymnastics was so much fun. Thank you. Thank you for talking me into joining. All these reports on you, they say good swimmer, they say good student, they say good friend, all true. But they all leave out that you could gymnastificate so well. It was so impressive at the first meet, the way you got right up there on the pummel horse and went through the routine and then did the vault while most of us other newbies just sat and watched. I wish I'd known you better. I wish i'd talked to you every time i'd seen you online. I wish I'd hung out with you outside of school. I'm glad we had that talk about God a few days ago. Your were right, it was a great conversation. You were a shooting star man. You were here so breifly, but you lit up the life of everyone you knew. I'll see you when I see you(if I get in), and until then, have fun in Heaven

Someone happy to call you friend Charles

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Puja Deverakonda

city Oak Hill

:Sent: 19.27 - 5/9

Dear Jacob - I've known you since 8th grade, but never truly well - my one regret is never getting to know you better. I always admired your great attitude and easygoing-ness. You inspire me to aspire to better things.

Much love, Puja Deverakonda

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Name: Mark Lee

city Herndon

:Sent: 19.26 - 5/9

Jacob man, The times we had at Oakton and at some parties that we went to. The two times i went to Revolution you were there and encouraging me to go more and more. You were always so nice to me and i'll never forget that. Oh yeah, by the way Jacob, we still need to have that talk about women and divulge all the "classified info" that we both know so that we could both be educated in that field of confusion. You always knew how to have fun and include everybody, it was just something you had in you... There was no way i expected this to happen to you...nobody did, we all just knew we were going to see you the next day of our senior year as we have in the past. Thank You for you enlightenment on my life, making it brighter than it was at the moment i wasnt talking to you or around you. We'll never forget you man, wait up for us at that place. and i know you wont forget to have fun where ever that place is.

You're friend, Mark a.k.a mahk!

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