i only like you for all the secrets that ti can tellmy friends .

when you left i pretended t car and i shouted fotr you in my ghead
but you were too difstant for me than to hear what i really wantred to
        tell y0ou about us...its not real i only wnt everything in back
 of  [in] my memory. before she crushs me i want to tell you that
evrything i said was only redireactd .. i m  in love w1th you   but

i am too fsar away to tell anyone...i have to run to your house,
				    stand outside yourb edroom window
				    screamin g  out your name without
					even
				    realising that im in the wrong
   place
				    looking for the wrong person
				i love you so much
		i don't kno w why but i might as well

	i have already lost all of my other feeligs to the
							   fire tha
 t came to your house 000000000000000000000001-5 years ago
		~-~-~-~-|AND THEY ALL LIVED|-~-~-~-~
		=======[|HAPPILY EVER AFTER|]=======















i can't remmeber, everything i hope you realise that. even ifi kilkle
d your

friends an family


?

i can see thatall i have siad to youmeans nothing to anyone else

except for us..  / in secrecy there isnothing to hide but all my secret
s are here and i can never forget that you are not me.

			whatis love?/
#
nobody want s   the fear of their own existensce but sience and 
			consience will 
and telling me |	never stop eventualating
that i am wrong|
                      ,/<   .    >     ?














i went throught the usual routine

im ran down to the river
i waited inn the rain
i picked up all the road kill and put it to ab etter palace,
in the graveyard and over the dsarain.

	(witgh pain killers whree appropriate)
i walked home and rubbed my handas in flowers to y get rid of the smell
of death.


they arte shouting because he has lost everything his arthrictc hand s
can;t handle rhthe matches so she wants the oil lamp to run away

at least  i am not comingback from the sewers. then images that they
recieved throuh telephone wires  .  .  .  sometimes i blame myself 

i see their          and my brath is taken awqay       the waterworks,
the powernet. and everything on mty street is taken by giantds in
silver suits...but seeing as you're not here i might a=s well .


as silence runs from the tip of your tongue


i know it was just another wake up call but i never wanted to hang up
you'r voice was so beautiful when you said nothing




and then you started to tell me how much you loved me and i had to
stay the same....couldn't let you down  cos it wiould hurt me so much
to  see you cry    


i am standing in a party waiting for my
suposed friends, sipping,on my supposed fun and i want to cry
i know that it would be better to kill you than to let you see me cry
the humility will burn us out one day


this is going to killl us one day and i will br the omn e
to tell yuo you were wrong
.
i keep thinking that i am in love when all is ==

so when i fall asleep i had a dream :






we were walking by a river and it was
raining

but that was a long time ago and i'm not allowed to remember


you don't realise until you can never see them in that way again
you don't realise how much you love them and then you recieve co













she looked at me a long time ago

i felt special but then she admitted that
she never ever noticed me









she has never looked at me  since