By Joanna ([email protected])
Author's Note: This is my first time writing slash. I enjoyed writing it. I hope
you like reading it. Let me know.
It was just one of those days. Sean really didn�t feel like talking, not to
anyone, especially not to Nick. It wasn�t that he had done anything wrong,
they just spent too much time together. It was always the same predictable
conversation all of the time �Where are we headed today? Which road shall we
take? What should we order from this greasy diner that looks identical to
the one we were in yesterday?� It wasn�t just the conversation that was
annoying Sean. Everything was. The predictability in everything they did.
That wasn�t Nick�s fault, Sean knew that. It was just one of those days
where it would have been more worthwhile to stay in bed. The thing was that
Sean couldn�t do that. He couldn�t just stay in bed. He had to get up and
he had to drive across the country in order to save Nick�s life. There was
too much on the line to just stay in bed.
Sean was just glad that Nick had wanted to stop for the night relatively
early. Nick had been feeling much better lately. The cocktail had been
working extra well. When Nick was feeling better he made an effort to rest
and re-charge before his health decreased again. At least then he would
have some energy reserved for his bad days on the road. The way Nick�s
health went up and down scared the shit out of Sean. He hated to feel he
had no control over situations he was placed in. All he wanted to do was
find Nick�s forsaken and kill the bastard, just so he felt he had a morsel
of control and feel like a normal person again.
That was mainly what he was pissed off about. He was still young, he should
be going out meeting new people, getting ridiculously drunk and passing out
in the streets. He could almost guarantee that that was what his friends
were doing back in LA. He on the other hand felt like an old man. He was
always tired, always worrying about Nick�s drug intake, always worrying
about the fact that Nick could be dead tomorrow. He hated thinking like
that, but it was too to dangerous living in denial. He just had to face
that a fascination and need to help has dragged him back to Nick. It was
his choice to stay and help, but now�he had no choice. He loved Nick, he
couldn�t leave, he couldn�t give up and leave Nick to suffer. This wasn�t
about owing Nick anything; it was about needing to be with him.
That was Sean�s choice, not Nick�s. Therefore he had no right to complain.
Nick was the most important one in the relationship. This was why some days
Sean stayed muted. He had no right to moan, he was in this situation mainly
out of choice, Nick wasn�t. He was trying to save his life. Sean stayed
quiet in order to prevent himself making Nick feel sorry for him. The truth
was that no matter what happened to Nick, Sean would still have his life.
No matter how much his heart would break when what ever was to happen,
happened, he would eventually get over it. He would still have his life,
family and with enough grovelling, maybe his job too.
Sean didn�t want to think about all of this now. He climbed out of the
shower that had cooled somewhat since he had initially got in. He quickly
dried himself off and pulled on a fresh pair of boxers and T-shirt. He
began to shiver; he hadn�t realised how cold it had become. He unlocked the
door and stepped out silently. Nick looked up in his direction and forced a
smile.
Nick didn�t understand Sean�s days of silence. They always left him feeling
like he had done something wrong and had to make something up to his
travelling lover. The worst part was that when Sean was silent he was
usually deep in thought, when he was deep in thought he looked so goddamn
sexy. It would drive Nick crazy. All he would want to do was lean over and
suck Sean�s cock until he came hard in to his mouth screaming out Nick�s
name. But how could be when Sean was angry with him? He never knew what to
do to get Sean talking again. He would say things to Sean during the day,
but never really expected a reply. He would just wait until he started up
the conversation, which was normally the next morning. It had really
freaked him out as well as pissed him off the first time Sean did this, but
the heated night that followed made it all worthwhile.
Sean climbed in to bed next to Nick, still without saying a word. Nick was
flicking through the TV channels, trying to find a programme that was
bearable.
�What do you want to watch?� Nick asked. Sean said nothing. Nick hadn�t
expected him to, just thought that he should at least give him to the
choice. Nick sighed, flicking it on to the fist channel his finger hit on
the remote. For a brief second the room was plunged in to darkness, before
the old television set found the chosen channel.
�Any preferences on where we head tomorrow?� Nick asked again. He needed to
break the silence. He wasn�t really watching the shit on TV and knew that
Sean knew it. He just couldn�t stand a total silence lurking over them all
evening. Sean sighed in response before curling up in the covers, trying to
re-gain some heat that he seemed to have lost in the shower.
�Are you cold again?� Nick asked. It was lucky that the answer was obvious,
as he wasn�t going to receive one. �I�m getting kind of worried about you,
you�re always so damn cold. Maybe you are getting sick� Nick placed the
back of his hand lightly against Sean�s forehead. �I hope you�ll be okay�
Nick whispered as he lightly kissed the patch of forehead that his hand had
inspected. All that could be heard in the room was the murmur of actor�s
voices coming from the television.
The room was in darkness. Nick had given up trying to watch the TV. He
just wanted to sleep. The sooner morning would come; the sooner Sean would
start talking again, hopefully. Nick couldn�t sleep though. It was still
early and he had slept in the car and he had no one to talk to. The
chattering of Sean�s teeth sliced through their silence. Sean was freezing,
he felt like a ice block next to Nick, a naturally warm person, heated
further by the virus. Nick smoothly rolled over and wrapped his arms around
Sean�s shivering body.
�Next time we are anywhere near civilisation you are going to see a doctor.
I don�t want you to be getting sick� Nick whispered. Sean couldn�t believe
it. He was silent to stop himself blurting out something that would make
Nick feel sorry for him, but Nick was anyway! �How do you feel?� Nick
asked. �Do you think you�re getting sick?� He wasn�t expected a response,
so when he got one, he was kind of shocked.
�I�m fine, you don�t have to worry� Sean whispered, the sound of his voice
irritating his own ears. It didn�t take him long to get used to not hearing
his voice.
�Dialogue, that means you�re not still angry with me� Nick smiled. No
answer. �Or maybe not�
�I�I wasn�t angry with you� Sean finally answered.
�What�s with the silence then? I thought I had upset you or something.
God, and they say women are hard to understand!� Nick joked. �I was trying
to work out what I had done wrong and how to make it up to you�
�What did you come up with?� Sean asked
�Honestly, the only thing I could come up with was me eating the last donut
yesterday� Nick laughed. �Are you sure I haven�t done anything?� Nick
asked.
�Yes. I am sure. It�s just been one of those days. I just needed time
just to think� Sean smiled, finally warming up.
�Y�know? You look very sexy when you are so deep in thought. I could
hardly contain myself today in the car� Nick�s hands started to travel
Sean�s body.
�You were asleep half the time� Sean snickered.
�Yeah, well. I had a very�nice dream about you� Nick smiled.
��Nice�? I�m sure that�s the most appropriate word to use� Sean laughed.
�Okay. Dirty, hot, wet, fucking amazing. Will any of those adjectives suit
you better?�
�I don�t think I approve of you having those types of dreams about me� Sean
smiled.
�They don�t have to just be dreams� Nick whispered seductively as his lips
pushed against Sean�s, forcing his tongue deep in to Sean�s mouth.
Sean broke away, panting for breath. He stared in to Nick�s eyes and saw
nothing but desire, obviously he was unaware that his were an exact
reflection. Nick�s hands roamed Sean�s upper body, before pealing Sean�s
T-shirt away from his skin and over his head. Sean lay and watched him as
he was tripped down to his skin. Before Sean could return the favour,
Nick�s mouth became a fountain of kissing; spilling over Sean�s newly
revealed body. Sean felt his dick grow painfully hard. He raised his legs
so his feet were flat against the cool sheets, feeling Nick hard against his
upper thigh.
Sean reached down and pulled Nick back up his body by his upper arms. Their
mouths met in a desperate search for pure pleasure. Sean took the
opportunity to strip Nick down to the same level of clothing as himself.
Clothes were quickly forgotten on to the floor. Nick pulled back from the
kiss.
�I want to fuck you� he panted.
�What are you waiting for then?� Sean smiled.
Nick quickly grabbed a couple of pillows from the other side of the bed and
carefully placed them under Sean�s hips, raising them from the mattress. He
moved down Sean�s body, following the trail of his kisses. He sucked Sean�s
cock in to his mouth, releasing a long groan from Sean�s open mouth. He
reached his arm up until it met Sean�s mouth. Sean eagerly sucked Nick�s
fingers in to his mouth and sucked excitedly, the same way Nick was on him.
When Nick thought them to be sufficiently coated with his lover�s saliva he
pulled them out, electing a short protesting moan. As Nick�s arm travelled
back down Sean�s body his mouth released Sean�s now rock hard cock. Nick
smoothly pushed a finger in through Sean�s ring of muscle, making Sean
fidget, trying to regain comfort. Sean whimpered as the second finger met
Nick�s first. As they curled inside of him he thrust his hips forward, only
to be pushed back down on to the pillows by his partner.
�Slow down� Nick whispered.
�It�s not as easy as it sounds. Why don�t I suck your dick, put my fingers
inside you and see if you can achieve that?� Sean cried in pleasure. Nick
couldn�t help but laugh.
�Just try for me, okay, Babe?�
�I�m�I�m not making�any promises� Sean panted. Nick�s fingers carried on
twisting inside of Sean�s wanting body. Sean howled, throwing his head back
and thrusting his hips in Nick�s direction.
�There it is� Nick laughed as he saw Sean�s reaction to him finding the spot
he wished to manipulate.
�You�re making this�really hard� Sean whimpered, wanting nothing more than
to come. Nick did it again. �Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!� Nick couldn�t help but smile.
Sean whimpered as Nick�s fingers were removed themselves from his body.
Nick quickly positioned himself, ready to enter Sean�s tight, but wanting
body. His hands moved to Sean�s hip before pushing himself inside. Sean
cried out in wordless bliss at the same time as the release of Nick�s groan.
The inner heat of Sean made up for his lower outer temperature. Nick
couldn�t concentrate on anything but the warmth and tightness that
surrounded him. He stayed stilled inside and over Sean�s body. His lips
met Sean�s as they startled to move together. Sean wrapped him legs tightly
around Nick�s waist, pushing him in deeper. He cried out in to Nick�s mouth
as Nick�s cock hit the same spot that his fingers had a few minutes earlier.
�I�I�think I�ve�found�your G spot� Nick released a breathy laugh.
�What�make�s you�think that?� Sean panted, jokingly. Nick found it again.
Sean threw his head back in bliss. �AAHHH, Fuck!!!�
�That does� Nick laughed.
�I�m�I�m not going�to last� Sean panted.
�Not long now, babe� Nick groaned, the thought of Sean coming nearly sending
him over the edge. Their mouths met again. Sean sucked Nick�s tongue in to
his mouth. Nick began to push deeper in to Sean�s body. Sean groaned
again, still sucking Nick�s tongue roughly. Nick broke off the kiss,
knowing that Sean really was close to the end of his endurance. They held
eyes contact. Sean knew what was coming. The same spot was manipulated
again. The howl that came from Sean�s mouth surprised even himself as he
came. The sound of Sean screaming Nick�s name sent Nick over the edge,
exploding inside of his lover.
Nick collapsed down on top of Sean, still inside of him. His forehead
rested on Sean�s chin as he tried to steady him breathing. Sean�s eyes were
clamped shut, legs and arms still wound around Nick�s lightly convulsing
body.
�Wow� Sean panted. �That must have been one hell of a good dream� He felt
the vibrations of Nick�s laughter against his chest.
�You see now why I couldn�t find the right words to describe it?� Nick
smiles as he looked in to Sean�s glimmering eyes. �I told you that you are
so goddamn sexy when you�re deep in thought�
�I might try thinking more often. That will mean you having to get used to
me being silent more often though� Sean lightly kissed Nick�s nose.
�Yeah, well, now that I know that you aren�t quiet because you are angry
with me, I can use the way I have just found to you howl, forget talking,
you never really have anything that interesting to say anyway� Nick laughed.
�I�ll have to remember this. I have a good way to warm you up too�
�I guess I owe you a thank you?� Sean smiled.
�Thank me in the morning, I�m shattered�
�I can promise that it will be the best apology you�ve ever had� Sean smiled
cheekily.
�I�ll hold you to that� Nick whispered as he pulled out of Sean, receiving a
protesting moan.
Nick wrapped Sean in his arms.
�I have no intention of letting you go cold again tonight� He whispered as
he ran kisses up Sean�s jaw line.
�And I�ll hold you to that� Sean whispered as he fell asleep in his lover�s
embrace.
Sure enough, they did both hold each other to their individual promises.
The End