Today I found out I have diabetes, type 2. Large bummer. My life's already bad enough why do I have to have this. Oh well. I downloaded this software so I could keep track of my sugar and what I eat.Funny it included a diary too so I guess ill keep a diary from now on.maybe itll help keep my mind off of food.
11/6/2003
found out today that pumpernickel bread and chromium picolinate could be beneficial in keeping blood sugar down.didnt exercise any though.i had chicken,a small potato,salad, a slice of tomato for supper.oh yeah and my hormones r still bothering me-i know why though.felt a sharp pain in my stomach area for maybe 30 seconds then it went away.
11/9/2003
very sad today.didnt exercise.i no i need to but i just dont have the spirit too.maybe the dvds im getting will help me exercise.my bg's didnt go above 120 today thankfully.my jaw started hurting a bit, first time in two weeks-i guess ill have to start brushing again.i had turkey, some succotash, a stick of celery with peanut butter on it and a few slices of peaches for supper.
11/12/2003
today i felt an odd sensation in my chest-not a pain, just a faint pressure like something was clogged.probably heart disease.i wouldnt be suprised.still not sleeping right.going to doc rykman about it next monday-probably say he cant help me though.im finding that following my diet isnt too hard to do.didnt exercise or brush my teeth today though ill have to start sometime-hopefully when the exercise dvd's arrive.oh well, till next time i guess
11/15/2003
got my exercise dvd's today.looked at them but didnt exercise though, think ill try and start monday or tuesday.go to see the sleep doctor monday-they called and reminded me so i guess i still have the appointment.what he'll say i dont know.my sister came by last night, shes convinced i think that religion can help me-she doesnt understand though.missed joan of arcadia, sucked but i got to talk to my sister, which suprisingly i missed.never missed anyone but recently ive been actually lonely.
11/18/2003
went to sleep dr yesterday.he thinks i may have sleep apnea and so he rescheduled me to do another sleep study next week.i apparently slept for little less then an hour, but i don't remember doing that at all.the girl i like, works on tuesdays and im scared.i really hate emotions, just wish i didnt have them or at least the famous vulcan logic.i know something bads going to happen to me next week.i think it might be a brain infection.till next time i guess
11/22/2003
missed yesterday..made pizza today with low carb crust, not bad but not good either.felt good to sweat again.watched end of michigan vs ohio state game today-they lost so i don't have to eat my shoes i guess.haha.i think using my computer more is helping me with my emotions-i dont feel them so bad now.my mom yelled at me today for stupid stuff, i wish she wouldnt.i love her.oh my sister and her hubby went somewhere, dont know where.till next time.
11/25/2005
this morning ive been having to go to the bathroom alot-4 times in less than an hour and a half.i didnt eat that much protien and my blood sugar is only 93.i go to the my doctor today.supposed to go to sleep study tonight but my friend cant take me and i dont want my parents taking me so i probably wont go.unless doc says sleep apnea can kill me i think i will just live with not sleeping like i used to.i wiped my old puter of all its files, thinking of giving it to my sister if she wants it.
11/27/2003
thanksgiving day and im alone.i dont like it,but i have to be.sucks.i was kind of manic last night i think, not sure.i apparently lost 16 pounds in a month-dietician told me yesterday.this scares the hell out of me.i think im dying.i think i might ask my doctor monday if i can get an mri.i cannot go to the sleep study, my friend wont take me.i havent been exercising at all.till next time.
11/30/2003
had my thanksgiving yesterday.my sister,brother and law and his grandma came over.i think brother in law and his grandma both noticed my "problem".they didnt say anything though.i gave my sister my old computer along with the copy of windows xp.i didnt check my blood sugar but i think it was a little high after dinner cause i was hot and sweating a little bit too easily.watched justice league that night-was a good one.oh my sinuses i think were hurting some today too.till next time
12/2/2003
went to dr yesterday.she gave me more drugs.my friend was having a bad day.i sit in her office for an hour waiting for dr.i think my friend is going to quit soon.i got wendys chicken strips and they didnt make my bg's go up.have problem with paypal-wont give me my money until they get my address confirmed.i faxed a copy of my bank statement and id to them last night, hopefully they'll confirm it okay-i have alot in my account i want from ebay sales.
12/4/2003
having a bad feeling in my sinuses' i think it is.probably another sinus infection.i exercised a little today on my treadmill.last night i tried to get dad to get me a check card unsuccessfully.i just wonder sometimes how my dad ever got to marry mom and have a family.he doesn't listen to me at all-anything i say to him just goes through him.its pointless for me to try and talk to him about anything.says hes trying to help me but i dont believe him.my problem i guess.my life is just a waste.
12/5/2003
my sinuses were hurting again today a little.dad came home early with the idea of getting me a prepaid visa card.apparently he asked the ssa if i could have a check card and they said no.whereas the guy i talked to said to ask my bank.don't think this is going to happen for me.Stuff i sold on ebay arrived in pieces. gave guy his money back. so far he hasn't left negative feedback but i think he will.he might be lying but in truth I don't care
12/7/2003
i have to go to the eye doctor tomorrow-and i dont think its a good idea.apparently the flu has struck right where i live and if i get it, i could die.i think i may tell my friend to reschedule the appt for after the flu season is over.if she's not quitting that is.i think she is.oh well.sucks.i have to see my doc on jan 5...prob reschedule that too if i can.satan wants me bad.if i do die, i want to be cremated so i don't wake up in a coffin.i just wonder if im going to make it to xmas this year.
12/9/2003
didn't go to the eye doctor yesterday.i think im going to get the flu no matter what i do.i still keep pissing constantly every hour or so.its ridiculous, im young and im having all these problems.im going to die soon i know it.oh well my life really isnt worth much anyways.i hope i get a better life next time, if there is a next time.battlestar galactica, the new one was on last night-it was pretty good suprisingly.starbuck's a woman in it.i ate too much popcorn.
12/11/2003
my dad came home last night-he got the wrong form to send the money to the prepaid mastercard company and I had to explain to him even though the correct form to get was on the paper i gave him in the first place.my dad is just getting old i guess.he doesn't like complicated things.he gets angry when they are too complicated for him.i guess im just too sensitive and it bothers me alot.wish it didn't but thats the way i am.it'll probably be after xmas that i get the card.brushed my teeth today.
12/12/2003
dad got the right form and it worked.i can log into the wired plastic website and see my balance-$220 and so many cents.I hope i can make some money on ebay with it.won't get the card for probably a week or two though.i exercised an hour ago to richard simmons dvd.pretty good workout.hard to do exactly what he does but i did okay.bg's were only 87 so i guess exercise doesn't raise them luckily.my uncle's mom died tuesday night.going to have funeral tomorrow.can't go.
12/14/2003
saddam hussein was captured last night.one of the last evil guys in the world.I have a rash on my hand-it actually opened a small wound after i put moisturizer on it.my urinating every hour is going to every two hours now.im not sure but i think my liver may be failing.having that infection a few years ago may have fucked it up badly and i think the doctor that cut mythe infection off knew that i would have problems.i was so stupid, but i wasn't working and dad didnt want to pay for getting it fixed
12/16/2003
got my prepaid mastercard yesterday finally.i had a very high blood sugar reading of over 200 after i ate dinner-5 minutes after.i called my doc and the nurse said not to worry about it-i guess its normal to have high readings after dinner.she said anything above 400 was bad.i signed up for netflix too finally.im afraid this card may be the worst thing i did.im getting that old need to buy stuff immediately.thankfully this isn't a credit card.hopefully ill do okay with it.
12/19/2003
my power to most of my room went off yesterday morning around 8:30.i tried to get in contact with my friend wednesday...as of now havent gotten a call back.had a strange problem-i kept on having to go to the bathroom just about every 5 minutes and i had diarrhea.i called aebi and he said to come in to the office.so im trying to do just that.doubt ill be able to though until next month-date of my original appt.funny thing...had alot of annoying calls yesterday prob my neighbor.
12/27/2003
have been playing earth and beyond.why i havent posted anything in a while.ive stopped testing my sugar-prolly start testing it again this morning.i ordered a directv tivo system from circuitcity, hopefully get it by wednesday.had a good xmas, got what i asked for pretty much.my sister gave me the book a purpose driven life.it makes me angry but ill try and read it.hopefully ill get to see the future.havent gone anywhere in a month.i still think im dying.
12/28/2003
my aunts are coming over today.sucks.wish they'd leave me alone.i dont hate them,just dont like being around people,any people anymore.reminds me of what i can't do.told mom i didnt like it.lvl 54 in e&b.i really like the game..im a part of something, finally.never have been before really.oh i got a new meter from liberty medical in the mail yesterday.takes less blood then the one i have.hopefully itll work on my arm so i wont have sore fingers.noticed ive lost more weight.without exercise.scary
12/31/2003
got my directv tivo yesterday.works well.tested the new meter i got,works but the lancer won't work on my arm so i still have to test on my fingers.felt tired in the morning today and yesterday.i think my uncle from tennesee laughed at me sunday when i come up.i looked at his son and he laughed.hes an ahole.oh well least i only see them once a year.only reason my aunt from tennesee wants to see me i think is i look pretty.might try to get out of seeing them next year, somehow.i miss people, but i hate being around them
1/3/2004
sent dad to send $300 to my card today.saturday so probably wont get the money till monday.want to try and get a home theater off of amazon.i got to go to the doc monday-probably tell me i have an infection of my jaw.or ill be in the hospital afterwards.Neighbor is being an ahole today, gunning his engine right now.hes just a child.tivo works good.no big problems so far.e&b wont run on a limited xp account.sucks.
1/8/2004
geez 5 days well went to doc on monday, he said i was doing good, but he had no idea why im pissing so much-every hour on the hour now.called yesterday to get the results and as of now, they still havent called me back.oh i ordered the home theater-jr music world said they shipped it yesterday so prolly get it friday, hopefully.dad n mom aint gonna like it, but i dont get to go to the theater.dad got mad cause i was using his precious cordless phone last night to get the call from my doc.
1/12/2004
got results back from doc of blood test.my cholesterol was 190.under 200 is good i guess.i got the home theater friday.works great.my friend's coming soon at 2:00 today.prolly set up an appointment for a dentist.not sure if im gonna have enough money for all the stuff im getting.my pissing every hour is seeming to slow down,yesterday i didnt have to piss for a whole 6 hours.bush is supposed to announce that were going back to the moon.
1/18/2004
been playing e&B alot-lvl 75 now.im still pissing alot-every 2 hours now.i think i might try to go to a gastroentrologist get a second opinion cause this really scares me.i want to talk to my sister and tell her what ive went through but my pride i think is holding me back.purpose driven life book,becky and all my health problems are making me want to.i think im probably going to die soon.i want so much to have someone love me-i think thats why i havent been taking care of myself.im in trouble.
1/22/04
well i told my brother in law about my main disease.gave him a book bout it.havent heard anything from my sister.oh well i tried.thought about telling my cousin, but i dont think she would come over.oh my pissing every hour or 2 is lessening hopefully its over with.i had a strange pain down where i shit for a couple days and now the pissing is lessening.dont know what was wrong.have to see brain doc on monday 26, think its pointless now.whether im dying or not just dont know.going to backup my puter today.
1/26/04
well nothing from my sister about what i told her hubby.oh well.i have e&b at least.dad's going to get a computer and wireless router so he don't have to use my puter so much i guess.thinking about getting broadband,or at least what broadband i can get which is 144k idsl.i didnt go to the brain doc today cause of big snow storm we had.bout 6 inches w/ice i think.i got to go to the doc on this week and the dentist less then a hour half later.dont think thats gonna work.hourly piss is almost back. 4 minutes later-
oh had a strange thing happen to me yesterday on enb.i was buying some lvl 5 beams from a guy and he had me go get the components to make them.i did, but i forgot one had to go back and get it.i did,came back to where the guy was-he made them i paid him and said tks.then he called me a bad word and told me he wouldnt build anything else for me.told my guildmates and they said he was/is just a dick.oh well.otherwise enb is pretty good place.
1/28/2004
im noticiing that stress,especially with my dad affects me badly.i got really warm tonight after talking to him about getting broadband with a good company.and im tired now alot earlier then usual.he got mad and i got mad.he doesnt like me spending money on stuff that'll make me happy-or hes concerned that ill need money and wont have it.i guess thats my view-that he does want me happy.im gonna try and get control of my money tomorrow cause of it.no more fights with dad hopefully.
2/2/2004
Well dad got a computer and wireless router-i got it working after 2 different emachines-one had a reboot problem and the next floppy drive had something stuck preventing me from using it.i can transfer files to his pc and he to mine.it is so cool.still playing enb up to lvl 96 now.i love the game.lets me accomplish stuff.i think thats all i really wanted.and a girlfriend.oh well that aint gonna happen.least i have enb though.
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still havent called my cousin-i want to so much but im so scared to.i think its a combination of her hubby and her laughing at me is what im afraid of.My sister hasnt called or come over to tell me that she understands.i think thats what i would like.i spose i might try to call tomorrow but she might be in school.whether her hubby told her or not i dont know.oh i got warm tonight while i was setting up the wireless to dads pc.not sure if it was me or just the heater.
2/4/2004
jaw was hurting bad today.the dsl company got my sales order for the 144k broadband.100 a month for 12 months once i get it.oh well better then what i got now.i hope ill be able to use it fore i leave.took 3 hours today for me to go up one combat lvl on enb-lvl 30 now.thinking about getting grandma's bible rebinded, looked online said it cost $45.00 to do it.i think itll be worth it.feel sad i didnt get to know grandma or grandpa for that matter.i was so selfish with my own problem back then, still am i guess
2/11/2004
boy been a long time.i tried to get becky to call about going to a diabetes doctor yesterday i think,she still hasnt called me back about it.im lvl 102 on enb now.guy from ameritech came this morning and hooked up the line for my dsl service.dont know when the tech will be out to hook it up.hopefully soon.feel good suprisingly.think the game does that.still fighting with myself about going to church.god wants me to, i know but i just cant.havent called my cousin either
2/16/2004
well got my dsl installed today.had my bother in law come over so i wouldnt have any probs with the guy.good guy though.i want to call my cousin but im so scared.i talked to my sister yesterday on the phone for awhile.first time i ever had much of oa conversation with her.i feel better then i have in 15 years.im not so alone now.i think i might try and call the pastor of her church tomorrow.and my cousin.mom looked at me with a strange sad look today.dont know why.i asked her but she didnt say anything.
2/18/2004
well tried to get a referral to the diabetes specialist from my doc and he said no or come in and "talk" about it.think hes worried i wont go to him anymore if i see the diabetic specialist.my stomachs been feeling odd lately.my bg this morning after eating was 83.realllly low.asked my friend to get the social security letter so i can get control of my money also.my dsl is working great.downloaded 200mb last night in about 4 hours.didnt call my cousin yet.still terrified to.i love her and i miss her alot.
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i tried to install directx 9.0b and halo on my puter tonight and it completely eliminated my internet access.so no directx 9.0b for me.was going to try and install unreal tournament..but i had to restore my puter and i lost the 2004 version.might try the 2003 one though.my stomach's bothering me.i think it may have been some bad ham i ate but im not sure.i feel okay right now.i love my dsl!even though it is only 130k at best.better then dialup.oh my bg's were really low this afternoon-83.
3/3/2004
well alot has happened.i finally talked to my cousin today.went over to her house told her bout my disease and she seemed okay with it.i feel better.im not so alone anymore.im not sure, but her kid might be my spirit guide.shes a sweet intelligent kid and i hope her hubby doesnt get scared about me and stop me from seeing them.i told my cousin not to tell her hubby about me yet-ill tell him in a week or two myself.i just pray nothing goes wrong with this.if it does..it will be bad for me but ill have to handle it.
3/7/2004
i called my aunt yesterday and asked her to come get me so i could tell her and my uncle.i am glad i did.while i was talking to her in her sunroom it got dark and cloudy.it rained a little and then i saw a rainbow.i was having strange thoughts and god knew it and he sent me a rainbow to help me.i love him.he helped me.thank u god.thank u so much.i love my family
3/10/2004
brother in law came over last night for a bit and talked.said my cousin's hubby was kind of distant at family meetings.didnt inspire my confidence about telling him my prob.my friend took me to bank and i got the payee thing xfer'd to me so i dont have to deal with dad except with payin him rent.which will probably be a problem.im either going to have to get becky to take me to the bank every month on the 3d or hes going to just have to take a check.might call the pastor today.my friend said hes probably okay.
3/11/2004
well my dsl is down again.i called to ask if i could please get into my router since they had locked me out of it when they fixed it.then while i was on the phone with att it went out again.guy said that their was a problem at the C0 i guess.not sure if i believe him completely.oh well.i called the pastor of serenas church too, left a message on his answering machine.i guess ill just try a little and see what happens.
3/13/2004
got my bank accounts setup in quicken so i can keep track of everything.bought xbox live starter kit on amazon via toysrus.hopefully be here next week sometime.i gave paypal my checking account info,hopefully wont be a problem.dsl working ok so far, downloading fedora-redhats free linux thing.i also put on my old jeans-and they fit.I've lost alot of weight without exercising.this worries me alot.i wish my doc would tell me what the hell is wrong with me.
3/18/2004
well enb decided to close its doors on sep 22,2004 yesterday.i played some this morning and then canceled my account.there was only 7% in the server i was on, usually at least 20%.i think ill try eve online instead.i called my cousin this morning, she's sick so i cant go over and chat with her hubby.my friend hasnt called me back about my appointments with dentist and its been 2 days.i asked her tuesday if she'd made them and she said no.i dont know if shes maybe trying to get me self sufficient or not
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also got xbox live yesterday.i played a little, the voice doesnt work all that well on it but i can play.one game was bad-had 2 or 3 players ganging up on me and kill me repeatedly.one guy i heard left cause of it.i tired to stick it out for awhile but then i left after a bit.still had 5 mins left in game.i might try phantasy star online next month when i have money to.other games were okay that i played.oh well.
3/19/2004
well i started writing again.got a story going about a sister and a brother in a very bad situation in space with a wormhole and hyperspace.got in touch with my friend after having to call the operator to call her.for some reason the phone number for her is going to someone else's number a renee and her kids as the answering machine said.my friend set up all my appointments, finally.she was just busy and don't want to get rid of me like i thought.stupid disease
3/21/2004
bad problem last night. my sinuses opened up or whatever it is they do and i lost control of my brain for a few seconds and my hand was numb. happened several times before and i don't know whats wrong. i didnt exercise yesterday but i did help mom and dad with putting their new bed in. I got their bed now.its better then the foam.i sweated some after helping them.im scared.i was up till probably 3am
3/31/2004
Well, went to church this past sunday. Did okay and it was interesting. Had missionaries do the sermon and explain what they did. Said muslim's would argue right in front of you and then when you approached them to say hi they would stop arguing and greet you nicely. Then after you left they would go right back arguing. Went to the library today, one of the librarian's who was about my age smiled at me. She was hot too. think ill try and call my cousin tomorrow since its been awhile. pastor is supposed to get back to me so i can bind grandma's bible soon. I really want to. If i don't, I hope my sister will.
4/8/2004
Well been busy with getting my website and helping people in chat rooms. Wonder a little bout that though. some might just be tryin to get attention, but I figure I might as well give em the benefit of the doubt. bein careful though of course. Im not stupid. had my cousin take me to doc, we had good talk while we were there. thinkin of going to church this sunday even though its easter. god been givin me a few hints that he wants me to go. gun law went into effect here today. anybody can carry a conceled weapon with a permit now. stupid idea i think. oh well. till next time.
4/16/2004
Been awhile. getting busy with my writing and i may have a job or two that's coming my way from some of my friends that I have now. thinking about putting together an idea for a novel that i can write this summer. so i probably wont be blogging alot then with the jobs and everything. exercising regularly now and i feel much bettter. ill probably be down to 200lbs by summer at the rate im losing weight. steady but good amount. went to doctor this week and im losing about 4 or 5 lbs a week. since i been exercising most of my problems are leaving me. can't say im sad about that. lol. got the number of a good bible binder, but its long distance from me. anyways, till next time.
4/24/2004
Well, been busy this week. I am now exercising every morning about forty minutes and i feel alot better. Met a few more interesting people online and heard their story. everybody has an interesting story, but some are stereotypical I'm finding out. Found out about a site that is like ebay except everything offered is free. Might be good for a church in any local town to use to get people to interact a bit more. Occupied with writing a story and outlining my novel that i will write this summer.Not sure how long it'll take to write but I hope to have it finished by the end of the summer. As for finding a publisher for it, well I might just publish it myself if I can't find anyone in a few months time. I might try to get into website design too, I have the knowledge since I ran a couple of website domains a few years ago.So I know pretty much everything there is about running a server and a website.
5/8/2004
Occupied a bit too much i think with the new mmorpg city of heroes. I have 4 characters I created and you can customize just about everything on them. Oh I found out that my favorite tv channel TechTv is merging with comcast's G4 channel so accordingly, comcast decided to fire everyone that works at techtv. Don't know if they're going to hire the on-air personalities back once they merge or not. I learned alot of my computer knowledge from that channel and I will greatly miss it if it changes too much. hopefully it won't though. Wish i had more time to chat with everyone online that I know now, but I'm just a tad too occupied. I'll probably slow down my other activities so I can chat some more.Oh and I got my diabetes blood test back or A1C test as they call it and I got a 5.1-Between 4 and 6 is what most normal people would get, so I have excellent control.Doc even said i could half the pill I take in order to control it. gonna try flax seed this week, its supposed to be good for your heart and brain with the omega 3 fatty acids in it I guess.
5/17/2004
Well, I guess techtv isn't disappearing at all, thankfully it's just merging with G4,comcast's game tv channel. I posted my diet on the website that let me lose 80 pounds, just go to the diabetes section of the site to see it. I found a good pastor on directv that I can tivo, called love worth finding.Tivo it on sunday's while I'm at church and then watch it monday morning. He's pretty good at making sense of stuff in the bible and life. My church's pastor is good as well, but hey you can never have too much knowledge.Something I've learned about myself from the sermons-I am here for a reason as all of the people of this earth are and I am here to help god as much as I can. I am not stating this to be arrogant, just sayin what I've learned thats given me more confidence that I've never had before.
Oh, interesting thing happened in yahoo chat the other day. I encountered a script kiddie that knew about boot codes for yahoo messenger. boot codes are just lines of code that will knock you out of the chat rooms and some can even stop you from logging into yahoo messenger with your login id. All I had to do was uninstall messenger and reinstall it to get back into chat. Just another annoyance in the world that is needed :)
5/27/2004
Been playing City Of Heroes alot. It's still got some bugs in it, but the character avatars are very well done graphically. My highest lvl character is Descron, a lvl 10 scrapper. I've got alot of other characters im playin too-the game lets u create about 7 per server and there are i think 10 servers.I've learned alot about my family members in the past week too. Never knew my aunt was a cheerleader and my cousin hates tomatoes. People are interesting if you just listen a little. I never did that before. Found out that yahoo's messenger client doesnt like proxy servers at all. If you use one, it will not let you use voice over it. I tried installing the beta version of yahoo and it pretty much crashed my system I think so i wouldn't recommend using it. I had to use a backup image of my hard drive(good to have 2 hard drives :) to fix it. Met a few interesting people on yahoo chat this week too. Hopefully I'll be going back to work sometime this summer though...getting a little boring sitting around doing nothing when u really want to do something. Oh maintaining this website does give me something to do but i'd rather have a job. Or maybe go back to school...first time in a long time I've even considered doing anything. Praise God.
6/2/2004
Saw something interesting on the morning news this morning. It was about this couple that had 2 kids, twins I think that were in a custody battle. The mother was a playboy centerfold and the father was a casino mogul. Apparently the father was married at the time that the kids were born. Four months into the mother's pregnancy he left her saying he had no interest in the kids. Then just recently he decided to fight for custody. He won. The kids were crying(they had the aftermath of the custody case on the street in front of cameras) because they were being seperated from their mother. I have to say something about this. In the first place, neither of them should have had the affair-he was married! And you see in the end, the kids get hurt because of it. I wish that people would think before they jumped into bed with someone just because maybe you think the other person is hot. The Soul is Immortal, Our bodies are not. Well, least not yet anyways.
I saw a good movie that really put having affairs in perspective last week. It's called The Apartment with Jack Lemmon and Shirley Mcclaine in it. Made in 1960. Yes I watch TCM. Probably find it on dvd or TCM might replay it sometime. It's sort of a romantic comedy about 2 souls finding each other over alot of turmoil in both of their lives.
I have dsl as my internet connection and I'm noticing that it is not reliable at all. Was down this morning and last week for several hours. Alot of sites say dsl is not very good, so if you can get a cable broadband connection in your area, I would recommend it over dsl. My dsl service is provided by AT&T.
I keep seeing alot of bad stuff on the internet about the Iraq situation and my sixth sense is telling me something bad is about to happen. I think I felt strange before 9/11 too so I'm starting to prepare a little. I found a good radio that uses several different sources of power including a hand crank. It's called the Freeplay Plus radio by CCrane Company They are currently out of stock but they say they'll have more by June 15. I'd recommend getting one if you have the money-they run around $150-$100.
6/14/2004
ah the fun of having carpal tunnel syndrome. hehe. just another annoyance that is needed. i did a bit too much typing last time so my wrists decided to disagree with me a bit. I had time to do other things while my wrists healed and i found a way to type correctly without hurting them more. Just got to lower my keyboard and not rest my wrists on the desk while i type. read some of the several books i have lying around, watched some of the stuff i had on my tivo and lost some more weight. i am noticing something though...if i change my diet too much my stomach decides to get really grumpy with me. guess this is just the way diabetes is.
I've noticed something in my chatting online a bit with people about christianity. Alot of people think the church is out to control everything you do, all your sins and how you act in life. I am becoming to understand that this is not really true of the church. Catholic's are strict this way, but a christian church isn't. If you do sin, just ask god for forgiveness. He will forgive you. No one is perfect and I doubt anyone can be.
