I'm Twiddlin' My Thumbs
For Someone Who May Never Come
I Can't Deny What I Feel
But Logically I Must Be Real
Apathetic Doctor Of My Fate
You Smeared My Blood Over A Clean Slate
You Left Me Here To Die
And With A Smirk You Didn't Try
But Here I Am, Alive And Well
My Need For Truth Has Not Been Quelled
Will You At Least Perform The Autopsy
On What Could Have Been You And Me?

If It's Not You, It Must Be Me So
What The Hell Is Wrong With Me?
I'm Here, But It's Clear
That You Want Nothing To Do With Me
You're High, So Am I
But Just On Lies Of Different Kinds
I'll Smile, All The While
As I Stare Ahead Beguiled

I'm Tapping My Pencil
For Something That In The End's Futile
I Must Disregard My Heart For My Brain
It's The Only Way To Avoid More Pain
Dazed Teacher Of My Fate
You Only Learned Me How To Hate
You Sent Me Out To Kill
Then Searched For More To Repeat The Thrill
But Here I Am, My Mind Is Clean
My Questioning Still Is Keen
Will You At Least Perform The Autopsy
As An Answer To My Inquiries?

If It's Not You, It Must Be Me So
What The Hell Is Wrong With Me?
I'm Here, But It's Clear
That You Want Nothing To Do With Me
You're High, So Am I
But Just On Lies Of Different Kinds
I'll Smile, All The While
As I Stare Ahead Beguiled

I Can't Let This History Repeat
I Can't Let You Kill My Self-Esteem
I Can't Let My Struggles Remain Unseen
But It's All Up To You, Not Me

If It's Not You, It Must Be Me So
What The Hell Is Wrong With Me?
I'm Here, But It's Clear
That You Want Nothing To Do With Me
You're High, So Am I
But Just On Lies Of Different Kinds
I'll Smile, All The While
As I Stare Ahead Beguiled