I was strolling a long thinking I had all my ducks in a row.  My life was finally starting to settle down without too much chaos interferring in everything I do.  But alas...by the time I got home today my ducks were scattered all over the yard and I can not seem to get them lined up again.  So I look up and think...ok God, what's up?

I know God has a sense of humor and sometimes he likes to mix things up a bit to keep us on our toes and looking up.  Usually he just turns a few ducks loose to remind us who's in charge.  But what happens when all your ducks are loose?  Me, I panicked because I am sure He opened all the doors that put all my ducks in a neat little row.  The perfect hours for my job...my child getting the help she needs...life had started to settle down to some sort of normalcy for all of us. 

The job is gone.  I have to find different placement for my daughter.  And to top things off...the children's father has decided to enter the picture again.  So now every thing that was lined up in a neat little row is scattered.  See because these things lined up for me, it opened other doors that are now shut because all those things led to those doors.  So I am looking up and saying ok God...why you messing with my ducks?

The one thing I keep hearing is...because He is preparing something greater and those doors that shut only gave me a glimpse of what is to come.  A better job for me, a better placement for my child, and maybe a breakthrough for their father (a breakthrough I have been praying for for months).  And if those doors were only opened long enough to give me a glimpse of what he has in store for me, then I must wait a bit longer for my ducks to realign themselves.  I have to trust that there is something better coming and this is just a bump in the road and a tift with satan that I can win because I am trusting God to take care of it.  I won't lie and say I did not get the deep funk blues about all this...I did.  But then amid that deep funk God showed me that I have to keep looking up and trusting him because what He really has for me is far greater than the glimpse I saw.

So the next time you come home and find your ducks running amuck in your yard...know that with God's help you can get them back in line and the result will be far greater than the original lineup.

God bless.  And Thank you CB...I got it now.