I decided to look at M’s blogs today. I feel a warmth inside me when I read them. Like there is an understanding there. Like someone really does now how I feel, and I know how they feel, or at least for most of it. The way M writes brings joy to my heart, today I felt that it may help me in my own journey…i went on to read more and then i found this;

“I invite you to look around you now and then with the eyes of a child, to notice the flock of birds overhead gathering for their trip to warmer climes. I invite you to look at a sunset for a moment, just look, don’t worry about taking a picture or even telling someone else how beautiful it is. Let your heart open and your mind quiet”

I decided to do this. I sat back from my computer, and took a moment, then when i felt ready, when i felt open i looked around, then found the window.

My eyes found a bright blue sky and the greenest trees . I often look out my window and see the same view, it I shrugged. It was nice...but i'd seen it before, and even though i wanted it to spark something in me, it didnt. I felt sad. My eyes then drifted back inside to some plants sitting in a corner, they looked  shadowy, dreary and dark, almost sad themselves. Tears began to well in my eyes, i felt sad that i couldn't find any magic, any peace. I was dissapointed at what my surroundings brought me. Tears started to fall as I  looked back outside again feeling sad and hopeless.

Then i spotted her.

I felt all my senses lift,  my eyes widened for chance to get a clearer image, my whole body turned towards her 

A butterfly. Fluttering, and floating almost a glowing white next to our manderine tree.

 I leapt up off my chair and hurried over to the window wanting to soak up the magic that this moment offered, knowing that it I was being blessed right this second after feeling so sad.

She left as quickly as she came and had fluttered off, not finding what she wanted with our manderine tree. My tears had left me, and i felt happy, joyful.  The image of her stayed with me. She was beautiful and light and fluttery.

I walked back over to my computer and sat down. Reflecting on what just happened.

I looked back over at the plants in the corner. I focused a bit harder this time i stopped searching and foccused on them. They were full of deep greens and purples,  the leaves where shiny and the flowers where full.  They didnt't look dreary, at all. They looked spectacular.

I felt magic come and go within a second, but it lifted my heart and my senses for much longer. I was open again.

I remembered that what may look scary or dull on first glance can actually be much more beautiful and welcoming if you take the time to look beyond the shadows.  

Thankyou M.