It's one of those days again. one of those days. I like these days, it's like supergirl and my 14th birthday all over again. Like when you play guitarr and a sad song makes you happy. ...wonder again why these days come. come and go. like... an elexir, the mathematic background works. It's all about math, about what counts and what fits. I smell puke, my dish is not cleaned and I just spend 110 fucking buggs on a dinner. That makes me upset. that makes me upset, because I know that this will make one day look very poor... I hate money. I hate people. hate cold air brushing you down when you wanna go home. hate the confusion that grabs you now and then, combined with fear, that spinns through you... tight.. too tight.

I like that music does count. like that pictures count. like that I see and hear. and I like contradiction.

did you know that sometimes, its what you do, not what you say. its what you will do, not what you've done. its life. now and here.

it's about time.

Ps: goes down the hill. haha like I said. an elexir. an elexir.