I dont understand why people have to undergo such mulitating and scathing undertakings! Why do we have to stumble and fall and shatter into these broken splinters a thousand different pieces a thousand different times? And most importantly, why do i have this stinging feeling which tells me that all the bad things that a person could possibly experience is raining down on me.. hard?! Geez.. let me guess.. probably because im just born to LOSE..? Oh no..wait..even losewrs have the prerogative to think positive right? So maybe i should think of this as an experience worth growing from.. But,WHO AM I KIDDING?! THERE IS NO POSITIVE SIDE IN THIS AWFUL SITUATION!! Ive just confirmed it and i can barely swallow the truth that I AM A LOSER..Aww.. It hurts even whith me saying it,now,how much more if a person would confront me and spell it ou to me,in my face?.. I bet i wouldnt be able to handle that chronic feeling. I have lost in everything that i did.. But then ofcourse,there are times where i would end up best..SECOND best that is.. The world has shown me its dark side.. And ive had enough of darkness!!! For once,i want to surface victorious.. Til then,ill wait incessantly for that..