About Myself: well i am 21 yrs old and am a scorpio in every way. i live in a small ass hick town and wish to get the hell out of. i also have a 5 yr old son who i love and adore and is utterly my only reason for staying on this earth. i have a sucky ass job but i am currently trying to finish college to become an RN. still trying to figure out life and its many changes i am dealing with the loss of friends (not from death) and with the new love of my life. i can consider myself like an chameleon who changes into many different ways to fit into my surroundings. i have constantly looked to fit in peoples expectations and now that i no longer feel the need to do so to get peoples attention i feel i have lost some along the way. oh well better luck nxt time. i love to write poetry and stories and i would love to become a better writer and have my work published and like most become rich and famous. shit i'd by my ass a hummer. for now my ass shops at wal-mart. i seem to mumble on so just keep along won't you.
i have no real musical talent but i listen to a variety i tend to like rock, punk, alternative and dance the most. i love ani difranco, good charlotte, korn, oleander and boomkat. isn't that a wild variety.
i currently have not had time to read any good books so many things in so many hours. i love the book prozac nation it so brought tears too my eyes as it would any one that can relate to depression and insanity.
My son barely graduated from headstart and will soon be going to kindergarden. i am so proud.
PAST: sometimes i tend to sit in my room and think about how my life has changed so much. i miss my friends so much and most of us have drifted apart, it just seems sad that i am not around them so much now but my life has changed so much i just sit here confused about what to do.
I am a completely different person from when i was in high school it is so scary. people always change thats just part of our nature.
MY LOVE: the love of my life i have known for about a year now. it started off casual just you know whenever we saw eachother and now we cant seem to stay apart. i t hasn't been an easy road with our love. there have been alot of forces trying to keep us apart and so many struggles but we have managed so far and we will continue to.
Life: life is hard sometimes i just feel like isolating my self from the world. people scare me and so do emotions. i try to tell myself not to care but i mainly cant help but care. i am just going along this ride and hopefully will make something og myself for me and my son and will finally figure my self out.
IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD!!!!
