I was sexually abused by my 13 year old cousin when i was 3 years old. When i was 5, i had a friend named la la. Her cousin sexually abused me whenever i went over to her house. He lived with her family. I don't remeber much of what happened, which is probably a good thing. I have gone through alot of feelings of re-pulsion towards guys in general because of this. I'm not saying i hate every guy. I have a couple friends that are guys that i'm extremly close to. I've just saying i have problems geting close to a guy sexually. Having a guy touch me bothers me. Sometimes kissing a guy bothers me. It isn't as bad as it used to be, but it is still there. I never pressed charges because i was scared. I never told because i was scared. My mom never knew until about 12 years later. I hid it, and now i have problems. my sugestion to anyone dealing with this, please tell someone. it can help you alot.