| A little about me... |
| Warning! Some of this material may not be suitable for all readers. If you think you want to learn about me, feel free to read these things. I am a very open person and don't feel like really holding anything back. You could ask me anything you want in regards to this material if it needs further explanation. Consider this an insight to my inner journal. Well, let's see where to begin. There are so many things that everyone knows, well not necessarily everyone but my closest of friends. Actually if you got to this part, you are a pretty close friend because I either told you it existed or you discovered it on your own. Ok ok, that's not about me. This is one of the hardest subjects for me to talk about. I have even found that when people ask about me, it's never just a ME story. It usually involves one or more of my greatest friends. Well, I'm going to just babble on for this whole page and if you choose to read it, I hope you learn a little about me. Ok, so I was born in Peoria, Illinois where I have lived my entire life in the same house. I find this very interesting because I have rarely found someone that has done this. It seems everyone moves around at least once or twice while growing up (even if it's a move down the street). Most all of my close friends I met sometime in high school and of course college. Some people are lucky enough to have childhood friends but mine all moved away before I was 6. (This is not a boo-hoo story, just a fact). Even through school, I went through many different types of friends. Actually the person that I've known the longest and I'm still friends with (actually closer friends with now than then) is Jesse Layman. We went to preschool together, our moms know each other from high school (or something of that nature) and we didn't become friends until about junior/senior year of high school thanks to Roopak. Ah on to my parents. My senior year of high school my parents decided that they were separating. They didn't really say why but it was just 'for the best'. I was devastated. I didn't have many friends that could understand what I was going through because their parents were still together. And others that I knew had step parents had this in their lives for a long time. Everything was moving so fast. Leaving the comfort of high school and moving on to college. Something I knew I wanted to do but I had no idea what I was in for. All of my close friends from high school were either leaving for other schools or staying there for their senior year. While I was away at Illinois State my parents tried to make amends but as I was soon to find out my dad was having an affair and it was all over. I have so much respect for my mom by not allowing him to come back. I know it had to be a lot for her to handle and I am so amazed by her strength. When I found out the real reason of separation, I was furious with my dad and lost so much respect for him. It's hard when you finally realize your dad isn't the greatest guy in the whole world. You just have this idea that your parents are perfect and can do nothing wrong. They finalized their divorce in June 2000 and this was still a fairly touchy time for me but now, I know that it was the best decision my mom could have made and life now is so great. She bought the house from my dad and we've completed the addition (for those of you that know, it's been about 6 years coming!). Ok on to good ol' Illinois State! (yes I suck at transitions!) Freshman year flew by and my first roommate Ellen (the daughter of one of my mom's friends) and I had a great time. I met Stacey, Greta, Sarah, Kate, Julie, and Linda and MAG-7 had so much fun that spring semester. I lived and still live on a substance-free floor in an all girls dorm. It's the greatest living for my personality. Although sometimes I wished I lived where I could meet more guys to possibly increase my dating life, I wouldn't want to live in the CO-ED areas!! Guys are so messy and loud!! hehe I love being in a place where I can just be myself. Walk down the hall in my pjs if I want and be completely giddy when I've just met the cutest guy or whatever. Sophomore year Stacey moved in with me in 209 and we had a great time. I would do anything for this girl. She is truly one of the greatest people I have ever met and she means so much to me. She's been there for everything and if she can't help, she tries so hard and after all that if it doesn't work, she's just there to lend an ear or a shoulder and it's like she's my sister. We finish each others thoughts and always seem to know what to do to cheer up the other one. (Dude, I got an itch! :oP) AND, I don't have anyone to act crazier with. I don't know what I'm going to do when I move to Kansas. That's a whole 'nother 1000+ words! Sophomore year is also when I joined Phi Sigma Pi (PSP), my 2nd family away from home (my first family away from home is the Fullertons!) I was so hesitant at first, thinking ok I don't know about this whole fraternity thing but I'll see how it goes and if I don't like it, I'll just get out. Well, that never happened. These people are so great, they are your brothers. For life. I went to my first formal and asked my friend Roopak to be my date. He flew up from Texas and we had a great time. However, that was the last time that I saw him and haven't really talked to him since...Kinda makes me regret asking him, maybe we'd still be close friends. Junior year! Man oh man. I lived in a triple with Stacey and Lindsey, one of the girls that lived on our floor the year before that we became friends with. We were NUTZ! But what else do you expect when three crazy girls live together? I became extremely involved in my fraternity, going every possible event I could attend. I went to my first Convention with my big bro, Jaime and I met my Betas Chris, Tia, Susan, Leslie...and then Erin and Jacob. Where all hell broke loose and every time I'm with brothers it can't compare to the last time. And the really crazy part of it all is that Whitney, one of my great friends from h.s. is in PSP at her school! So we get to see each other quite often. I went to Mardi Gras in February and behaved myself like the good girl that I am. I did however get my first kiss, first point, something I will never forget. So sweet, and now he doesn't talk to me at all but anyway... I became President of my chapter in April and had 17 dates to my formal. hehe Ahh, my hoes. NO! What happened was our social chair wrote the traveling Betas under my name instead of saying that Beta was bringing 17. It was a great time, so much fun and felt so special. I'm completely innocent of how I may come off. I'm so sarcastic and have a pretty big mouth so it can get me in trouble sometimes, but people say I'm the most innocent person they've ever met. I was told to even campaign to be the most innocent brother in my chapter! BUT, I love to flirt. Not saying that I'm good at it but I love flirtin' around with my guy friends. It's all in good fun. ;-) 9/8/02 - Hmm...boys. Can't live with them, can't live without them. Don't really understand them either but at this point I don't care because I'm happy. Kinda in this state of disbelief actually. Am I in some sort of dream world? Is this all really happening? to me? Almost unreal, but I know it is real because other people tell me so. :) hehe Anyway, not much else to say now except that I love it. I love knowing now what other people have been talking about. :) 10/1/02 - Yeah, boys. They are so confusing. One minute things are great and the next - nothing works. I knew I was in some sort of dream world... It's funny. I kiss a boy (only 2) and within days of doing this, they no longer talk to me like they used to...I'm beginning to think that there's something wrong with me. Maybe I should just stop kissin' boys (and stop liking them as I do)! So I guess I should look into the convent again...hehe j/k I just have to find a boy that is ok with a long distance relationship because I definitely don't have time for a boy here. I already have troubles getting my stuff done what would it be like if he was here? Oh, I don't even want to think about it. Actually, maybe I shouldn't start dating until I'm like 25-30 and then everything will be 'stable'. HA! But it's all understandable and there's no hard feelings as long as I don't lose his friendship. His friendship means more to me than he'll ever know... 10/18/02 - Oh things are on the up and up! Midterms are over...I won't talk about how I did on them...well, except one of them :) I got a B and on the essay parts I got full credit! woo hoo! Anyway...forget boys, I don't have time for them, unless they want the long distance stuff. :) 11/2/02 - Again things just get better. Understanding people more, having more fun, still not doing much work... But ALAS! Those stupid group projects are coming up soon. Kill me. really. It's ok, pretty easy I would think. Ugh, only a few more weeks and then I'm home for a month, so alrighty who do I get to visit over break so I don't go insane?!?! 11/20/02 - Ok so after a weekend of fun (major understatement) I had a major breakdown about all the things I needed to get done. Then I presented our plan (with a hoarse voice) and failed the test I didn't study for and I'm the happiest girl in the world! I've got my friends (Definitely KEY), and only 6 more days until LIFE IS GLORIOUS for Thanksiving BREAK. Then I have to work on two take home final assignments and study for tests but the presentations will be over. Yippeee!!! 1/12/03 - Back in Normal for my last semester. WOW. I had a terrific break but it's got me thinking about so many things. Things that I'm not sure exactly how to discuss but I guess I at least recognize their existence. I want to discuss them (I think) but I'm not sure if it would just be wasted breath...and possibly not good for the mind to say such things. Things that no one wants to hear because it's silly. Or maybe not. For now I guess I'll keep them to myself and see what becomes of them...Have I confused you yet? Because I think I just confused myself. ugh. Oh well, besides all that, things are excellent. Friendships all in place, starting on my last pile of classes, makin' money, road trippin' lots and working on my resolutions for 2003. Now granted they may not be going according to original thoughts but I'm a work in progress so I think it's just peachy. 2/16/03 - So this I suppose has turned into more of a little journal of sorts. Classes are well underway and it's kinda weird knowing that I'm done after this. These are the last classes I have to take. EVER. That's not to say that I won't go back but just not for a while. Quite a while. And to I'm sure all of your surprise, I haven't left on any road trips as of yet. But that will change in 4 days. I've lasted 5 weeks at school without leaving (I went home for a day or so once) and for the last two weekends before Spring Break I'll be out :) Kirksville and then Baton Rouge and then Spring Break! 3/13/03 - Well, Spring Break is almost over and I'm majorly stressing about finding a job. I was talking to Joanne tonight and decided that I should just become a nun to solve the guy and job problems but then she informed me that I'd be married to Jesus and how creepy that was and that I'd have a whole new thing to worry about then...ugh...so I guess I'll just stick to worrying about guys and jobs... :) Only 4 more days until the insanity begins again - road tripping to Chicago again, then staying home, then Kirksville, then home but busy for the rest of the semester. 8 weeks and counting...Found out that EVERYONE is coming to commencement! That's 4 from DC, 7 from KC, possibly up to 8 from Peoria and possibly Jeff and Molly. Whew. I'm really excited and feel super important to be the first of this generation of my family to graduate college. Now, let's hope I can survive...more later. 4/17/03 - So things are falling like Plinko chips...a few are huge winners and others just a little reward and yes maybe a $0 or two...I have 3 presentations, 2 papers, and a final or possibly 2 and I am out of here. For good. Adios ISU! Not to say that I won't miss a lot of things but this semester and in some categories the year has been a little too much for me. I made the decision tonight that I'm moving to KC to live with my aunt, uncle and two cousins as of May 24th. Nope I ain't gots a job but we'll see where that takes me. I'm only a few hours from friends and Katie has already said she'd meet me half way so I'm set! Now I just have to convince Stacey not to go to Kentucky...As far as PSP we had our elections and formal is next weekend where I pass the gavel on to my friend Michelle, now let's just try to get me to not earn points all night long (as people have said that they want to do) and I'll be set...tee hee hee to think that I was an innocent one when I first got in PSP 2 years ago...<sigh> 8/25/03 - As I read through my last entry, I have to laugh. I've really been keeping up more of this on my blog but I decided to write here again - why I don't know I don't think anyone reads it. :) Anyway, I was laughing because now I'm in sunny Florida and couldn't be happier! What were all those tears and worries about?! Probably just too much at once...that's for sure. So here I am with my former Kansas relatives in Jacksonville, FL. I've got a job, a new car and a great friend (which as I read up at the beginning is now definitely my oldest friend that I'm in touch with). So if you are reading this, stop and go to my blog. :) (link on the homepage) I update it more often because it's easier. Tootles, it's late and I've gotta get some sleep so that I can work and then hang out and then work again on Wednesday morning. ;) If you did actually read this, I'm really impressed. It's just some of my inner babblings and I decided to write them down to vent some of my good and not so good times in my life. I hope you learned something about me that you wanted to know. And if you were bored or learned a bit too much, sorry! :oP ...it's what's on my mind. |