Beginning of the End

i keep clawing the ground
coming up with nothing
but dirt
under torn, bleeding nails
that ached for something
because
something is better than nothing in the end.

You had other plans
and locked me away
from light and life
Find your centre and wait for me...
and so I did.

I felt time slip through my fingers
like water poured
on a sponge too absorbed in other things.
it dripped, slowly... so slowly
with the rain of hours, of days...

I grow impatient,
ready to see life again - even
if it is only the bottoms of shoes
, the scratch of concrete scraping
my teeth, the bitter soil
filling my lungs...

I reach, I claw, I tear.

I cannot wait.
It must be now.

Slowly,
the fabric of life
severs
and I spiral
down...

I am ready to crash...
...ready to embrace the ground
in a single, finalizing moment
where I become everything
and I become nothing.

the darkness comes again.

I awaken
high
above the trees
the sun warming
my soul-weary
psyche.

Accept that you are now who you are meant to be...