| I need to say this. I hope you don't mind hearing it. >>Please don't think that you represent to me some faceless conquest. I may have a history as a woman chaser, but you aren't a conquest. Well, I guess in one sense of course you are. But I don't think of you that way. I have been down that road, and I know the difference. >>I think of you as a guarded, gifted, hot, smart, strong woman -- a human being, a friend -- who shared herself with me. Your gesture was a gift, and I am sorry if I haven't taken good care of you like I promised I would. My biggest hope is that you carry away some lasting happiness from this, that you don't regret your decision, and that I haven't abused your trust. >>Most of the ___ people would not be in my life without the happy coincidence of our political tastes. I think, on the other hand, that if you and I met in any other context, we would still hit it off and have the chance to become close. >>I feel that we are connected now. I think we might have been no matter what, given our similar interests/skills and political activities and music conversations and Virgoness. What has happened between us, I see that as a fulfillment of sorts, not a crazy-wrong mistake or aberration. I am glad it happened, but like you I feel the confusion and frustration and pain of where we are now. Like you I cannot see a way to continue as we have. But you are a real person in my life, and I want you to continue to be so. >>Our interaction now exists primarily in the activist context, if we are willing to go there, but that pleases me because you are talented and I know I can count on you. It allows us to keep interacting, to let our friendship grow along the path it has to follow in the long run. That pleases me too. >>I have loved being intimate with you, and I am a little sad that it is ending. But I would be crushed if our new friendship ended as well. In my mind, everything that happened was built on the assumption of friendship and trust (as well as powerful attraction, which can no longer buttress us). I hope those still exist. P.S. |