Michelles own page

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Music...I am what I am (of course...what else)... Words
Steaming is dis-abled. You can download the .wma music file from here though.

Hi.
Everyone keeps asking why there's nothing about me on my support site.
Well...that's because it is just that, a support site and not about me.
I've always had trouble writing about me but here goes.......

Although designated male when I was born in March 1952 I've always had gender identity problems. Having a very dominant mother and three older sisters sort of helped push me in the female direction. Through school years I never joined in with the disgusting little things boys enjoyed doing and absolutely refused to play football etc. I was confused and dismayed to find I was not physically the same as the girls I played with though my breasts were obviously more developed than a male should be. Hated school, kept to myself, refused to take partin anything where people would see my body and spent most of my time practicing music (piano and guitar) or just staying home doing housework. Started going out dressed in my mums clothes at about 14-15 instead of going to school and discovered I was more attracted to and by men than women. Did the mucho thing and rode a motorcycle (Triumph) but never tried to hide my female side either. People just thought I was rather strange. Got sick of New Zealand and its attitudes and went to Australia (Kings Cross of course). It was an eye opener for a dumb kiwi but I felt right at home there and had a go at everything...street worker, barperson at the infamous 'Bottoms Up Bar' and 'Venus Room', some stage work and played piano for quite a few famous people.
Nature took matters into its own hands in the early 80's when it was discovered I had testicular cancer which had also spread so far through my body it was considered 'terminal'. Surgery and 6 lots of chemotherapy proved them wrong (so far). While recovering from that lot I was involved in a serious motorcycle accident which basicly performed an instant sex-change. I was not happy to be told it had to be put back if I wanted to see any of the insurance money.
Traveled Asia which was fun (specially in 'drag') and returned to New Zealand a few times but things had not changed much so always ended up back in Sydney. Finally, I returned to Auckland in early 90's and got involved in support work with the Auckland Pride Centre. There was no information available for Transgender in Auckland at the time so started a website with local information.(originally on Geocities)
I spent some time in prison recently where I refused to change my gender identity. Apart from some hassles with authorities regarding medication and clothes I actually had great fun with it and caused them plenty of headaches. Hopefully, between that and my submissions to the prison reform committee I made some impression on them which will lead to a few changes in the rules.
I do envy those with the commitment and bodies that can be put right by surgery who go the whole way with their transition but have learned a long time ago to accept what I am.
Unfortunately, I am finally having to admit that I am too old for the non-stop partying and running around town in mini skirts ect (hey...if you've got it..why not) so have had to slow down a little.
Fortunately though, I have a sense of humour and my fem personality makes people forget what I am and anyway, even at half a century old, I'm still having fun with being proudly transsexual.