Confusion

When I know not
When I still care
When I shout out
When frustration kills
I am so used to this
Yet it shocks me every time
I should recognize this
Yet it looks so new
Please, tell me what I want
I've grown too blind to tell
Please, make clear to me
All that I've always known
When you say one thing
When I hear another
Confusion strikes again

Frustration like a knife
Piercing through my soul
Impales me once again
And leaves me to decay

Who am I to choose
When I never chose before
When all I want is clarity
All I get is shame
Guilt is thickest here
Around what one can't take back
Regret like fog clots
Breeding inside my mind
Seeds of paranoia sprinkle
Where's the gardener
The time I knew
Was so long ago
My knoweldge wasn't lost
But where did it go
When everything I feel
Is so intensified
When the shedding of tears
Brings a sting to my eyes
Confusion has found me once more

Frustration like a knife
Piercing through my soul
Impales me once again
And leaves me to decay

Clarity I desire
Relief is what I need
Tell me what I want
I need you to choose for me
But with the howling wind
Something new stirs
And I know it will all change
But I'm so deathly wrong
Confusion takes it all

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