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Leap of Faith
Everyone gets confused about thier life, and I am no expection. There are so many times that I look at the choices I've made, the relationships I've broken, and the events that have occured, and I've wondered to myself What have I been doing? I wonder if there were other paths I could have taken, different ways to resolve my conflits.
You called me a victim, and that didn't sit right with me. Above all us, I pride myself on the knowledge that I am a strong person. You said I am a whiner. If I complain, it is only something I do in the moment, a quick thought describing my feelings about life. You laughed at me, teased me, and you pissed me off. Your high and mighty attitude made me angry - how DARE you point a finger at me, tell me I'm not perfect. You make me question my confidence.
It pains me now to know that you feel the same way I do. You too look into your future and see too many unpleasant possiblities, too many choices. You feel your past holds you back, and that one one can understand your confusion. Your heart and your head cannot help you choose what to do next.
You think you are strong, like me, but I can see you are unsure, afraid of the dark. When I am confused, I take a leap of faith - I listen to my instinct, and I trust that whatever the choice I make, that I can handle the outcome.
That is what faith is for.