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DREAMS
Monday, July 25, 2004
The Dream:I went to Jesse's new restaurant with a friend. It was very colourful red, blue, and classy inside, and it had jazz music playing. The only thing was everyone having dinner in the restaurant was having an affair. i rushed up to Jesse to tell him this, and he asked everyone at once, to which they all replied yes. Then Jesse showed me a secret party/club in the back. it was very black and white, dirty. Not like the restaurant. I met a few people, then suddenly I was playing a reality show, and the guy had kicked me off first! Startled, i went to Jesse, who was in the process of closing the restaurant. Then these lawyers came up to me, and said that the guy had picked a final girl, and they wanted thier baby! I was to sign papers giving sole custody to the guy - but I told them the father was Jesse! They didn't believe me, so I signed anyway, all the while thinkjng that the baby is Jesse and when it tries to find me one day, I can tell it the truth.
Interprataion:I am feeling overwhelmed by the things going on in my life, and I want a bigger support system. In relation to the issues, I will be strong, and carry on knowing what is right, but it will still make me sad. I am ready to begin again, and start "getting to know myself" again. Obviously, I am not over my love affair with Jesse, so I should try and work that out in the future. I believe Rob is not being honest, but I am not lving up to my friends expectations of what I should be doing about him. I am unsure about my social skills, I am scared, angery, but I need to be more open minded about it. This will be difficult, because I've already made up my mind about the situation. I feel I always play by the rules, and even though I lose, I still follow them. There is a new beginning ahead, and I need advice on what to do next. By signing the papers anyway, but knowing that the truth would eventually come out means (I think) that I will eventuall get my way because everything plays out in time - it's going to happen naturally. On the whole, I am confused and frustrated with where I am right now.