VOICE OF ANGEL
As I
was alone in a dark room, waiting to destiny do it’s work. To leave me alone
without you. I never thought I would like to stop the time and do it all again.
But I can’t. Now it’s all over. Never had you in my arms, to hold you. Embrace
you with all your heat. I can’t hear anymore beat of my heart. Can you? My
darling, I lived only for you, and now I’m dying only for you. Don’t feel bad
because of me, the way you loved me it make this exit more better. I don’t feel
fear of dying. I hope you could forgive me someday. There is blood all over
this room. It will never go off. Why did I do this? I can’t find right
reason…there is so many. But not of those aren’t your fault, believe me. I lay
down with single tear. It is for you…only you I regret. Only your love kept me
this long on life. I’m thankful for it…I thanked God everyday for you, it is
truth.
You
brought me from dead. Breath life in me. But you can’t stop this. I’m only
alive for a moment. Moment of regret. Moment of fear. Don’t cry for me, my
love. Save tears for somebody that is worth of you. I wasn’t…never. I see…I see
you now, beside me. Holding me in your embrace. It is a feeling that could
bring me back…but it can’t bring me back. I’m aware of thing that I’ve done
now. I’m aware of consequences of my action. I don’t want to go away. But I
should think of that before.
Sirens…I
hear sirens. Did you called somebody to rescue me? You know that is impossible.
I will try to live as long I can…for you, my love. I love you, I loved you in
the past, I will love you forever. To the end of the world, and beyond.
I
don’t feel my body anymore. I see them working on me…the doctors. But as I know
they can’t do much. They are aware of that too. I made of body an artwork…shivered
with blood of my veins. I’m beside of one of doctors. He’s swaying
something…trying to get me back to life. I leave him with that thought. Open
the door, I pass trough the hall. I see you, crying. I sit next to you, seeing
you, comforting you with my words that you can’t hear. How I wish that you can
feel me now, that I can feel you now.
Something
is searching for me to return. And I go to complete darkness.
I wake
up, I see you beside me. Did they rescued me? I know that they didn’t, they
just make my life a little longer. It’s is enough that they could do to me. You
are sleeping, tired…like you are here for days. I make a slight move, trying
not to wake you. But I did just opposite. You are awake now. Surprised to see
me alive you ran to the first doctor telling him that I’m awake. They get
inside this room like in hurry. I’m not hurrying anywhere. Doctor asks me how
do I feel, and I answer him alive. It’s not an answer that he expected but he
knows what I mean. I’m kind of glad that I get some more time. He checks me,
check my wounds that I did to myself. He knows. He knows that I wont live till sunrise
or maybe less. Wounds are rather than painful. But they stitched me back, like
I’m some broken puppet. Doctor seeing that there is nothing that he can do
anymore leaves me alone with you.
You
doesn’t know what to say, so you remain silent. Not asking me anything. You
come closer to me, sit back on chair, holding my hand…looking at me. No, don’t
look at me, please. I look away. You don’t understand why, and I can’t tell you
why. I came too close to darkness I think. Without you, I went to darkness
myself, not knowing is it right or wrong. I still don’t know is it good
decision. But if is this my last chance to say goodbye, then I won’t miss it. I
feel you watching me, feeling sorrow of your heart. I start crying, and I look
at you. Still silent, not understanding you embrace me. I accept it all.
Whisper in your ear words “My love, don’t wait for me. I must go in strange
land, where destiny waits for me. I will wait for you there forever…but on this
land I have nothing more to do. I loved you in a way that I never loved before,
and now I’m setting you free. My love, be free, for me…”The wounds were too
heavy, and with that words I went off this world. I had my chance, I took
it…and now I can peacefully go…
THE END
by
Fallen One
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