"My Feelings For You" ch.1 by Rin-chan

<BGSOUND SRC="fukai_mori.mid" LOOP="INFINITE"> Ok! I’m back again! Hello, hello! Heh heh, yup it another Sessy/Inu one! Again this does have to do with my “My brother, my lover” story. The first one “His obsession” had to do with how they uh got together ^_^() and “My brother, my lover” is them after Kagome died, so this one is why Inu-yasha left, ok, ok I know I said the reason why in the story but this is the exact process, what happens yada, yada, yada…Mara gave me the idea who it happen so I want to say THANKS for the idea ^_^. Also I noticed I had some little things different between stories. Uh well I’m kinda doing this backwards (but if you’re only read these stories to see lemon action well then this shouldn’t matter much! ^_^()) Ok! I don’t own Inu-yasha (if I did Sesshoumaru and Inu-yasha wouldn’t be brothers) thank you and please review! ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* (Inu-yasha) I sat by my mother, watching her sing softly. I liked it when my mother sang. She had such a soothing voice. When I was little I used to listen to her sing so I could fall asleep. Nobody could soothe me like my mother could when I was sad. She had such kind eyes and a warm heart. Her songs had such a soothing melody. I closed my eyes thinking of my childhood. Nights when I was alone and mother came into my room and sing me a song to help me fall asleep. I would listen to her songs and fall asleep instantly. She opened her eyes and smiled at me. Father was away, again. I was beginning to forget what he looks like. He was almost never around now a-days. He was always doing something with the territory, or some other lord. I’m surprised mother didn’t go insane for waiting for him. I know I’m not going to wait for him. I barely know him. I don’t really care though. Mother touched my hand. I looked at her. She had that worried look in her eyes again. I hate worrying her. When I was little I wandered off in the woods. I saw a butterfly so I chased it. I got board of chasing it and found a river to play in. I played there for a couple of hours and left to go home. I ended up wandering for hours around the woods. By nightfall I finally made my way home. I found my mother crying in her garden. I went up to her and asked her what was wrong. She looked at me and hugged me. I felt her crying on my shoulder. We stayed like that for about an hour. I looked at her eyes. They were red, and full of sadness. I hated that look. I never wanted her to be sad again. I promised to myself that I would never make my mother cry again. So far I’ve been able to keep my promise. “Inu-yasha? You are not speaking? Are you alright?” she asked concerned. “Yea, yea I’m fine. I was just thinking.” I said to her. She nodded and returned to singing. She’s never asked me what I was ever thinking. I was glad I don’t think I could ever tell her. I don’t think she’d ever approve. I watched the birds fly by, almost as if they were listening to my mother sing. Suddenly I felt something; I turned my head and looked over my shoulder. Mother and I were sitting in the garden; she had asked me to join her earlier. I agreed since there was nobody home. Mother just usually like to sit in the garden and watch the birds fly by. Sometimes she’ll plant a flower, or read a scroll. I don’t see how she could do this. I found it boring. I felt like my muscles were dying from lack of movement, but mother liked to do this, so I sat with her. I checked to see if who I thought it was, was there. It was! I got up and started to run. Mother called out. “Inu-yasha!” “Gotta go Mother! I’ll see you later!” I called out. She sat back down and smiled at me. She waved me off and I sprinted off. I was waiting for him all day. I’m glad he finally came back. I turned the corner and made my way to the door of the mansion. I stopped to catch my breath. I looked up, and there he was. Standing tall, long silver hair cascading down his back, cool golden eyes. My brother, Sesshoumaru. I smiled at him. He looked at me and gave me a small smile. My heart swelled. I walked up to him smoothly. He watched me, not saying anything. I came up to him, and smirked. I was about to say something, when he kissed me. I was surprised he never kissed me in public, usually alone, in bed. I didn’t mind though. I wrapped my arms around his neck. His hands roamed around my back and started making small circles. I felt his tongue force its way into my mouth. I let out a small moan, and arched my back. He stopped suddenly stopped and whispered in my ear. “Tonight, my room.” He let go off me and walked away. I started panting. I felt flushed, and turned on. I don’t think I’ll be able to wait for tonight. I looked down to see my erection. Damn. I sat in the dinning room waiting for everyone else to come. First mother entered the room and took seat next to me. She smiled and nodded at me. I bowed my head in return. I began to get anxious. Where was he? Mother began to eat, she looked at me. “Inu-yasha, you haven’t started eating yet. Are you alright?” she asked me. I jumped and looked at her. “Uh yeah. I’m fine mother,” I said. “You seem distracted lately. You’re mind seemed to be somewhere else lately.” She said, she put down her chopsticks. “I’m worried about you,” I bit my lip. I didn’t want to worry mother. She’s one of the only people I care about. I looked down. “Nothing, it’s nothing really.” I looked up and saw him enter. I sat up quickly and waited for him to sit down. He looked around and took a seat next to me. Mother smiled at him. “Good evening Sesshoumaru,” she said. He nodded at her and began to eat. I began to eat myself, every so often looking at him. I could feel myself blush. Mother watched me. I was starting to get nervous. I quickly got up and pushed away from the table. She looked worried again. “Inu-yasha…” “I’m fine,” I said quickly. “I’m going to out, I need air,” I said. She nodded and went back to eating. I saw Sesshoumaru look at me. I became nervous again and felt a blush come across my cheeks. I quickly left the room. I walked quickly to the hallway and slumped onto the ground. I felt my cheeks, they were still warm. Damn I must be blushing still. I sat there for I don’t know how long. Before I knew it I felt strong arms wrap around my waist and pull me up. I glared and turned around quickly. “I thought I told you to meet me in my room,” I gasped and soft lips touch my neck. It slowly moved its way up and touched my lips. They slowly forced their way in and his tongue began to battle mine. I felt it become more forceful and push me on the wall. I moaned out loud and wrapped my legs around his waist. “S-Sesshoumaru…” He paused and nuzzled my neck. “Not here, my room…” he said. I felt his arms wrap around me and lift me over his shoulders. He carried me to his room and threw me down onto the futon. He straddled my waist and began to tear my top off. “I don’t have too many of these you know,” I sad painting. He snorted. “Don’t talk like a woman.” He said and tore off the rest of my clothes. I felt myself shiver as a long finger ran down my chest and to my belly button. A hand reached around my back and pull me closer to him. I shuddered at the contact. He began to run his hand up and down my spine. I reached out and touched his chest. My fingers began to reach inside and pulled open his kimono. He stopped my hands and whispered in my ear. “No not tonight, I’ll do everything tonight,” he said. I dumbly nodded. He pushed me down and began to lick my neck. I felt that small tongue lick its way around my throat and around my jaw line. I let out small gasps every so often. He pulled open my kimono at the top and started licking down to my chest. He stopped his licking and started to bite on my collar bone. I opened my eyes slightly to see small bite marks all over my shoulders. I reached over and grabbed his hair. I ran my fingers through, just to feel how soft it really was. It was like silk. Nothing like the kimono’s mother wears. Hers are soft but nothing like this. This was impossible to feel. I can’t even describe it. My hands made their way up to his scalp and began massaging it, slowly running my fingers to his ears, where I began to scratch. I knew he loved that. I heard a small groan form him and he began to bite harder. I could see small drops of blood on my chest. He looked at then and began to lick up the blood. With some of the blood and his saliva he licked down to a nipple. He quickly reached over and sucked it greedily. I went back to massaging his head, but it was getting harder and harder. He was sucking faster and starting to add his tongue. I bit my lip as a wave of pleasure washed over me. He stopped and leaned over the other nipple. He let his tongue out and licked the tip. I gasped and ran my fingers through my hair. He looked at me, eyes full of pleasure. “If you keep doing that I’ll just take you now,” I heard him whisper. I could hear small noises coming from my mouth, but I couldn’t respond it him. He looked me over for a moment and returned to my stomach. He licked and kissed his way down my abs, down to my sash that held my kimono together. He used his teeth to grab the sash and slowly pull it off. Once it was done he grabbed it and threw it to the side. The rest of my kimono opened leaving me in my pants. He reached over and pulled them down slowly. I lifted my hips up to help him pull them off. My groin met with his stomach and he groaned. He quickly pulled off the rest of my pants, leaving me exposed to him. I watched him pull off his armor, and his kimono. He got rid of the rest of his clothes and threw them to the side, leaving him naked above me. I began to pant. I can’t really explain how beautiful he actually was. No words could describe it. His long silvery hair that shone down his back, his perfect smooth skin. I could feel it’s softness as he rubbed against me. He rubbed our arousals together and leaned into my shoulder. I moaned out loud and held threw my arms around his neck. I could feel him panting on my neck, licking it gently. “I think it’s time we start now,” he whispered. He opened my legs and got me ready. His erection positioned. I wrapped my legs around his waist and held onto his neck. With one quick thrust he was in. My eyes widened as I gasped out. He waited for me to adjust to his size. I panted and shacked a little. I felt him rub my shoulders and soothe me. Once I calmed down I began to move around a little. I watched his face; he looked away form me and was concentrating on the wall. Once I was set I leaned into him. “I’m ready,” I said. I felt him thrust slowly. Carefully drawing out the pleasure for us both. I moaned loudly and arched my back. He leaned in my shoulder again and bit down. I cried out in silent shock. I could feel the blood coming down my shoulder. He licked the blood slowly until it clotted. He leaned in and kissed me. I could taste my blood on his lips. He pushed the copper taste in my mouth and began to swirl his tongue around. His thrusts were getting more desperate and faster. My aching erection pressed against his stomach and began to rub against him. He threw his head back and moaned out loud. All I could feel was pleasure. It was all around me. No words could come to my mouth. My surroundings began to fade. All I could see was him, on me. His slight motions making me moan and cry out his name. I arched my back and cried out. I came then, on his stomach. He groaned and came inside of me. He panted and collapsed on my stomach. I felt his tongue run across it, licking up my seed. I felt a small smile come to my lips. I began to stroke his hair. He finished and got up. I became a little sad. After our love making he always had me leave. We didn’t want to get caught did we? I sighed and reached for my kimono. I felt his hand grab my arm. He glared and me and pulled me to him. He held me close and pulled me back down to the futon. “Not tonight, you’re staying with me…” he said. I blushed a little, but snuggled close to him. I could feel his warmth on me and surround me. I let out a smile. “Why are you letting me stay tonight?” I asked. He didn’t answer me. I waited for a moment, still no answer. I looked up at him. He was watching me. His eyes were clouded over, but I couldn’t tell with what. I bit my lip and kept looking at him. He stroked my hair and leaned into my hair. I felt him breathe in. “You have a nice sent,” he said slowly. I blushed, what did he mean by that? “Thank you,” I said softly. I felt his finger run across my cheek. “Such soft skin…it comes from you’re mother…” I was confused, why was he doing this? He was being soft, very gentle. I felt his tongue trace some of the bit marks on my shoulder. “See those marks? Those claim you as mine, you see?” He said slowly. His finger traced my face again. “You’re mine and no one else’s…got that?” he whispered in my ear. I shuddered. “Yes…brother…” “Yes what?” he said slowly. “I’m…I’m…yours…” I said gasping as he liked the wounds on my shoulder. I saw a small smirk on his face. I blushed again. Damn I’ve been do that too much lately. I saw his smirk widen as he saw my blush. “You look…cute…” he said whispering in my ear. That made me redder, I tried to look upset. “I am not,” and I turned away from him. He leaned in and licked my ear. “You shouldn’t disobey your master…” he whispered. I snorted, he chuckled. “Yes I am your master. I told you, you are mine and you shall do what ever I say…” he said in my ear. I smirked at him, “I bet I could kick your butt,” I sad. He laughed out loud. “I doubt that,” he said. “Oh really?” “I doubt you could beat a mighty youkai like my self,” he said. I laughed a little, but then something dawned on me. He was a youkai, and I was a hanyou. Youkai’s are ruthless, and unfeeling. Every full moon I become human. He can’t have around some weakling human every full moon. Plus youkai’s are immortal. After a few hundred years I will die. I felt dread and sorrow run through me. Sesshoumaru looked at me funny. “What is it?” he asked. I bit my lip. “I will die…” He looked at me hard. “You will not die; there is no one after you…” “I-I will die…” I just repeated. He grabbed my shoulders. “No, I told you. You will not- “ “But I will! After so many years how long will I last? I am part human, plus…” I started but I shut my mouth. I didn’t want him to know about me turning human at the full moon. I was afraid he wouldn’t like my human form so I always his from him when I turned human. He’s not going to find out anytime soon mind you…His gaze hardened again. “Shikon no tama,” I heard him mutter. “Huh?” I asked. “Shikon no tama, a magical stone which can grant any wish…” he muttered. “Any wish?” I echoed. “It’s not really that romantic. It actually grants power rather then wishes. But the user can use it to his own will.” He said. A jewel…that will grant my wish? If I can get that jewel then I can have anything I want. I…can become immortal…no a youkai. I looked at him. “Can I use this…to become a full youkai?” I asked. He nodded slowly. A smile broke out onto my face, I hugged him. “I can be a full youkai like you then,” I said. He didn’t say anything; he just put his arms around me and held me close to him. I felt him push me down onto the futon and lay me there. He didn’t make any other move; he pulled me close to him and spooned me. I smiled at the warmth and snuggled closer. I let out a loud yawn and whispered something to Sesshoumaru. “I love you…” ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* (Sesshoumaru) I rubbed the grog out of my eyes and stifled a yawn. The pup kept me up all night. I crossed my arms and leaned against the door frame. He was training again. I watched him claw at his instructor as the youkai leaped backwards and nearly fell backwards. That was one good thing about Inu-yasha’s fighting technique. He fought so hard at fast at you that you barely had time to react. The only problem was that his technique was sloppy. If you were able to maneuver your way out of his attacks for a moment you could get him easily, and knock him to the ground. I cursed as I stifled another yawn. I should be back in bed. But I can to watch Inu-yasha train with his instructor. I smirked, I remember my instructor, or should I say instructors…They could never last more then two days. The longest one lasted 2 weeks. I have to say that one had spunk. I watched as he did his final move and moved his claws at the instructor’s throat. He smirked and got off of him. The instructor whipped his for head and bowed to Inu-yasha. Inu-yasha nodded and walked away from him. I walked away. I never let him know I watched his training sessions. I always watched him, seeing his techniques. Of course none of them as good as mine, but he was getting there. Maybe I watched him because it was part of my obsession. My obsession with my hanyou brother. His long white hair, shinning golden eyes, and that round pouy face. They way his lip curled up and his eyes went into a frown…I am obsessed. I would never let him know these thoughts of course. They we mine and my own. I didn’t need him seeing my weakness for him. But I saw on of his. I began to pace the hallway I was in. My mind was on last night. Which wasn’t a bad one I may add. Fully submissive and mine. I smirked at that. But then it wandered to what he said before he fell asleep… ‘I love you…’ Those words rang in my head over and over. In my mine he just kept saying them. ‘I love you…’ I frowned. Why did he say that? When did he think this…Why was he thinking this… ‘I love you…’ I grabbed my head and ran my fingers through my head. I felt him come up to me, I turned around quickly. He looked at me in surprise. “Sesshoumaru? Are you alright?” he asked. ‘I love you…’ “I’m fine,” ‘I love you…’ “Really? You’re grabbing your head,” he said. ‘I love you…’ “I’m fine, I’m sleepy due to a certain person…” I sad. He blushed and hid his face. I saw him twiddle his feet. Great I upset him. My tone wasn’t that harsh. Then again I can’t tell when I’m being cruel or not. I sighed and touched his arms. I slowly pulled him close to me. He sighed contently as I began to rub small circles on his back. I felt his hands make there way around my neck and pulled us closer. I buried my face into his hair. I loved his sent…It had a claming yet wild smell to it. My ears twitched and I heard someone coming. I let go of him and turned to the intruder. A servant ran up to us and bowed. “Sesshoumaru-sama, Inu-yasha-sama, you are requested in the main hall.” He said. I nodded at Inu-yasha and we walked to the main hall. I looked to see Inu-yasha’s mother there waiting for us. She nodded at us. She walked by Inu-yasha. “A lord is here with information on your father,” she said to us. I looked to see a youkai lord standing before us. He was tall, semi long dark brown hair down his back. He had many layers of amour and clothing on him. His face was thin and his eyes were thin yet mocking. I could see the mischief in his eyes. I watched his eyes look us over and stop at Inu-yasha. He looked Inu-yasha up and down hungrily. I growled in the back of my throat. No one was allowed to look at what was mine. “I have news on the great western lord…” he said gravely. Inu-yasha’s mother waited anxiously. I could see her biting her lip. “The great lord…is dead…” ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* And that completes chapter 1! ^^, I know Inu-yasha’s father dies when Inu-yasha is WAYYYY younger but I don’t care. I’m changing it for this fic’s sake! This will be a couple chapters long so stay tuned! I’ll try to put them up as soon as I can! Lot’s more lemons and angst to come! 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