"The individual is handicapped by coming face to face with a conspiracy so monstrous he cannot believe it exists." ---
J. Edgar Hoover, former head of the FBI
As a survivor of torture in the United States, I am writing this article---I am a California physician with over forty years of recurrent torture and continuous enslavement by CIA and US military agencies. My father was a US military advisor, a �counterinsurgency specialist�, in Korea and Taiwan. Many of the children, like myself, who were trained as child spies by the US government had fathers in the military. As unbelievable as it sounds, the documentation that the US used American children as mind-controlled spies against their will is quite extensive. (See MKULTRA : The CIA's Top Secret Program in Human Experimentation and Behavior Modification by George Andrews. Or see an online overview of MKULTRA at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MKULTRA .)
The Canadian psychiatrist Colin Ross, MD had a number of such survivors as patients. After he received 15,000 pages of CIA documents under a Freedom of Information Act Request he concluded that, alas, his patients were telling him the truth. See his book BLUEBIRD: the deliberate creation of multipersonality disorder by psychiatrists. Therapist Valerie Wolf brought two of her patients with similar memories to mine to testify before President Clinton's Advisory Committee on Human Radiation Experiments in Washington, D.C. to testify on Mind Control Experimentation on Children. She wrote to that Committee;
In preparation for my testimony at these hearings, I called nearly 40 therapists across the country to find out what they knew about the link between radiation and mind control and to get what other therapists were seeing in clients who had been used in mind control experiments. � therapists across the country are finding clients who have been subjected to mind control techniques. The consistency of their stories about the purpose of the mind control and torture techniques, such as electric shock, use of hallucinogens, sensory deprivation, spinning, hypnosis, dislocation of limbs and sexual abuse is remarkable. There is almost nothing published on this aspect of mind control used with children, and these clients come from all over the country, having had no contact with each other�.We need the glare of publicity to stop the continuing harassment of people who were subjects in mind control experiments. [See more of the testimony online at http://www.tulanelink.com/mind/testimony_04a.htm ]
There has been a systemic campaign of disinformation by the False Memory Syndrome Foundation to discredit people having memories of trauma based mind control. Dr. Ross in Bluebird shows that most of the people on that Foundation are CIA researchers engaged in mind control research. Project MKULTRA alone in the late 1950�s used 80 institutions of higher learning to do the research. Dr. Ewen Cameron, a mind control researcher for the CIA, was head of the American and Canadian Psychiatry and Psychology Associations. His experiments in causing amnesia and mind control at Allen Memorial Hospital associated with McGill University in Toronto left patients near vegetables. The CIA settled out of court for $750.000 when 9 Canadians brought suit. [See Psychiatrist Harvey Weinstein�s The CIA and Psychiatry]. Unfortunately, CIA research in psychiatry has occurred in a number of Canadian institutions and is likely to still be ongoing given the amount of money that the CIA has to spread around via front organizations and the historical willingness of researchers to take it. Addressing the issue of whether memories recovered after trauma are accurate, law professor Scheflin in Ground Lost: The False Memory/Recovered Memory Therapy Debate at www.psychiatrictimes.com/p991137.html notes that all memories are recovered and that the three relevant studies on the matter show that post traumatic memories are as accurate as regular memories; namely details may be wrong but the memories are remarkably accurate for the gist of the events. Thus he concludes that for the purposes of the courts, all memories should be treated the same---as eye-witness testimony. ( Also see the tome Brown D, Scheflin AW, Hammond DC (1998), Memory, Trauma Treatment, and the Law. New York: W.W. Norton & Company. Scheflin is a professor of law at Santa Clara University School of Law in Santa Clara, Calif. He is the only non-psychiatrist to win the Manfred S. Guttmacher Award twice.)
Starting at age ten I was sent into the USSR as a street child to spy. In WWI, Germany arrested parents and told their children to go into Russia as street children and report back on railway troop movement, failure to return with the required information would result in the parent�s torture or execution. [ See http://english.pravda.ru/main/2002/11/27/40030.html ]. I did my assignments under the same threats and had been tortured by the CIA and DIA since I was 4 years old using electroshocks, drugs, cold, sleep deprivation, and deprivation of food and even water. For decades all of my spare time during so-called vacations was spent on CIA assignment that I was forced into. Later as an adult, if I had a partner, I was forced to break up with him, under the threat that he would be killed, if I refused. None of my life was truly my own. At a moment�s notice I would have to make excuses and go off on an espionage assignment. My work as a doctor had to be part-time and flexible. Most of my work involved going into the Soviet Union to assess their nuclear missile arsenals, as well as to garner related documents. It was very dangerous work and I was tortured on more than one occasion by the KGB as well. I was also tortured by the CIA in the basement of their HQs for failing to force a KGB official, Konstantinov, in New York City in 1983 to become an agent for the CIA as a �double agent�. My memory was later confirmed by an old newspaper account of Konstantinov expelled from NY as a KGB spy in 1983. At the time, I was an occupational medical resident at Columbia University and already extremely overworked and sleep deprived from being on-call. The CIA was unwilling to hear any reasons for failing at an assignment.
I was last tortured by the US government in August of 2004, for refusing an assignment. I was living in Virginia within commuting distance of CIA HQs at the time. In this instance, I was approached directly by a very high-ranking official of the administration who wanted the assignment to be off the record because he feared leaks within the CIA. I was given the assignment to go to Iran as a doctor �volunteering� to treat Iranian children as a humanitarian gesture. A TV crew would �happen by� and start filming, then in would rush a CIA agent of Iranian features announcing he knew of a secret Iranian nuclear weapons development lab in an underground bunker. I was told that the rest of the filming with that agent and myself would occur in Hollywood with a mock up of said weapon�s lab. It would be a made for TV news propaganda piece like in the movie �Wag the Dog�. When I refused to do the assignment on the grounds that it was immoral, he threatened my mother�s life. Since my mother had recently told me to not to give my torturers demands, even if she paid for it with her life, I held to my no.
Within a week I was taken hostage, drugged, raped and tortured for 4 days. I overheard the men who raped me talking about their duties guarding the same US official who had given me the Iranian assignment. They said that if I ever talked that I would be locked up in a mental ward, drugged, tied down and raped nightly. While being injected one of my torturers said, �With this in your blood, baby, no one will ever believe a word you say.� It is fairly standard to discredit people using a long lasting hallucinogen, like BZ (see http://www.levity.com/aciddreams/samples/bz.html), with an amphetamine to prevent sleep, and indeed I had a sudden severe problem with insomnia. Within days I was thrown into a mental hospital against my will and told again that I might never get out to make the threat even more frightening in my mind. Fortunately, as a Christian Science believer I was given no medications at the hospital and managed to get out after the 5-day observation period because the medical doctor recognized my symptoms as sleep deprivation and metabolic imbalance. Being in Canada is no guarantee that I will be safe. The threat that I would be thrown into a mental facility for the rest of my life, drugged up and tied down still exists and could be executed in Canada by CIA grant paid researchers. And that is in spite of the fact that I have never attempted suicide, and never will as it is against my religious convictions.
Had I actually been crazy, I never could have held a stable job as a medical director in California for 14 years. I coped with severe torture by using a skill called dissociative denial, which is the opposite of making things up. The treatment for it is not drugs, it is telling the truth about what really happened, instead of pretending that it didn�t happen.
"To sin by silence when they should protest makes cowards of men."
Abraham Lincoln