The hatred emanates around the
earth, a hatred exposed by an evil unknown,
the hatred I once believed to be from another source, I now find in my own home.
The hate speaks from the heart, an untimely word can destroy it all,
and the hate found deep inside can rise up and bring all to a fatal fall.
The love I searched for till I almost lost hope,
the love I lost now, I can barely cope.
The brother I looked up to, a brother who is always there,
the brother with his own life now, a brother to lose, I cannot bear.
The tears I shed, not for joy, but pain and sorrow,
the tears that fall for many reasons, again will fall tomorrow.
The poem I write to show my feeling,
the poem to express how I'm dealing.
The friends I've left to their own life now,
the friends I miss, a feeling to explain, I don't know how.
The answer I search for, I'll search on forever,
the answer I long for, will come before never.
The god I questioned a god I've doubted,
the god who gave life, and showed me all about it.
The thanks I give, not enough…
The thanks I'll give to people now, for different stuff.
The apology I've given, not enough…
The apology to my self, not enough…
The life I've given up, a new beginning will now start,
the life soon to come, a new day, a new heart.