Alone I lay beneath my
light; I want to paint it black,
To understand why is
to know my angle of attack,
Soon I'll know what I
want, soon enough I will crack,
On top of each other, these pains will soon
stack,
My mind works all
at once, no thought on the same track,
It drives me crazy to think like this, I'm all out of wack;
The dream reoccurs again, the flash of light awakes my mind,
Thought and desire, lust
and love, all intertwined,
Reassigned to action, my
feelings are unconfined,
To know what I see ahead
and what I leave behind,
Drives me mad, I'm
blind, the line that once enshrined,
Inside me, now
misaligned, and now I have resigned;
My own life I confuse,
my own wit I now abuse,
The excuse of unknown,
heightened more by bottles of booze,
I feel the bruise; I
know what I have to lose,
And what I've lost, my
muse, whose views I once used,
Infused in my own, now
only tattoos show what I have refused,
The reviews are in; I
have misused no more, Love I now eschew...