1:29p.m.
I've been busy working and goign to school the last few days so it's been a couple days since I last updated. Surprise, surprise that I have been doing those huh? Good news is that after next week I have 2 weeks off from school so I'm going to have to enjoy that one! Bad news is that next week is finals and most likly I'll work 40 hours still on my 2 weeks off. Oh well it should still kick ass!
Well lets see not much has been going on as of late. I went out to lunch today with Steph M. today. We ate at PopEyes(like how I spelled it. I do.. It was good and next week we are going to go to Panera Bread so that should kick major ass!
You know I still haven't decided if I'm going to keep this site up. I mean I dunno if I feel like putting my life on the web anymore. Hmmmmm thoughts hmmmmm.
Yeah not much else to say I guess. We'll guys this may or may not be my last update. Duh duh duh.......
It's not like I tell you guys all and everything that's going on in my life anyways. I do have my secrets teheheheheh.
May 18th 2004
12:12a.m.
Today was another grand day! So much to do and so much excitment. Let's see things actually started off slow but they really kicked into gear about 8 at night. Dan and I went to find Rob but we're unsuccessful at first but we did meet up with Mikey at McDoald's. Then we did end up meeting up with Tabor(Good to see ya man, hopefully that won't be the only time), Rob, Lydia, and Stew. We all went on a long ass walk which is always tight! Lets see we walked to Shannah's and chatted it up with her. She is definitely a cool gal and then we just walked forever. Once again we got stopped by the Police. It's so funny to have them stop us becase there is absolutly nothing they can do! We then ran into Jeremy and chatted with him. It was good to see him its been awhile. Now I am here and I'm thinking it's time for a little Zelda action. This game just gets tighter and tighter!
This looks like a good update to me so until next time don't let you trousers fall off!
May 16th 2004
3:29a.m.
So I should be sleeping right now but I just have way to much on my mind to go to sleep. Ahh I find myself in a total and utter downward spiral. I'm like fine one second and then the next second I'm going through loops. My life is really kicking my ass right now. I have no idea what I want, who I want, where I want to go and just uhhhhhhh I'm so confused. Man I dunno so like again tonight I am thinking I want a girlfriend again. I miss not having my significant other to talk to whenever I want. Or to have them be there for me whenever I need them. I'm am now all alone to deal with everything and uh I guess I just got spoiled with having someone there to help me through it. Don't get me wrong I have some great friends who help me but you know they can only do so much. There are so many things I want to say to people so many things I want to say on here but I just dunno if the things I want to say are true or if I'm just all confused.... This is probably not making sense to anyone but hell it doesn't even make sense to me! I wish I just knew what I felt and what the future has for me. But I really have no clue its all just a blur.
I wish I could just like run away and forget everything. Even if I did that though things would never dissapear.
Fuck me and everything I have become!
Man I wish I could have one good nights sleep but nooooooooo for the last few months all I have are nightmares I mean there not like scary shit or anything. It's just like normal life but just like I dream about stressful things or bad things happening to me. So I never get a break. All the time I am stressed, all I want is one good night of sleep with no stress. Please Lord bring that to me!!!
So now that I have got my confusion off my chest I guess I'll talk about my day. Lets see I worked nothing exciting there. Afterward I came home played Gamecube for awhile and then went to Eric's where off course the one girl didn't come through with bringing over a hot friend in fact she didn't bring over a friend at all. So once again I was a third wheel. Actually last night though I was a 5th wheel. Meaning I would have been the loser on the show 5th wheel. Yea go me! Anywho I then came home and almost broke down but I'm doing a little better now.
Let's see I have a few grad parties tomorrow. Jezica(My cousin) and Lydia's(Rob's lover)((hehehehehe)) I really wanted some one to come with me to both of them but it looks like the people I wanted go with will not be able to make it. Both for totally diffrent reasons.
I wish I had someone......
Yeah so the one girl that I went on a date with last week and was suppost to go on a date with this week has yet to call me back so it looks like once again Brian sucks! Yes!
Well time to go sleep some stressful dreams.....fuck me.......
11:35p.m.
Well I should be sleeping right now seeing how I have school tomorrow and apparently a big project to do but you know I just don't feel like sleeping. It's definitely overrated I think I might even play a little gamecube action. I'm just nuts that way though! I'm also hungry mmmm want good food.
So I found out today that the girl that I went on a date with last week and thought we were going on another this week, just liked me as a friend. So nothing is going to come of that. Oh well her loss. At least she had the balls to tell me right away instead like most girls that will lead you on for a few months.
As for how my day went I have to say it was definitely grand! Woke up talked to Steph M. for about 45 minutes. We were suppost to go to My cousins and Lydia's Grad party together but she ended up having to work even though she requested it off. That's okay though she still made it to Lydia's! She got off work early. I did have Dan go with me to both though so that was awesome! It took us awhile to find my cousins place but once we made it we were right on time for the dog porn show! LOL! Man that was one horny dog huh Dan? It was cool at Lydia's house becuase almost everyone from the posse was there so that was cool to joke around with everyone! Afterward Dan and I went back to my place to Chill and watch some Sienfeld action. Gotta love that show. Jerry is hilarious! Then he and I chatted it up for a bit. And now I'm here.
Tabor you should have came to Lydia's it would have been good to see ya.
That's all for today folks. Good Night, Good Fight.
May 15th 2004
2:38a.m.
We'll I just got home from Mr. Eric Stainbrock's apartment. Man I love that kid. I met two fine ladies, they definatly dug that hat that Kate's gave me. You know I have been thinking about some things and I haven't really decided what I want right now. I can't decide if I want another girlfriend right now or if I should just play the field for awhile. Both ways are good. I guess I'll just have to wait and see how things take course.
After work today Katie, Michelle and Lydia came over to my house and we chilled and talked. It was a grand ol time. It got even better when we played a little trick on Rob when he got off work! LOL! It was definatly a riot. Sorry about that Rob. It was funny though you have to admit.
After MIchelle left.(sadly) The rest of us went for a walk down to the forest but when we reached the entrance to it, the girlies decided they didn't want to go in. Which is cool I totally understand. We'll have to go in sometime though ladies it is so peaceful in their at night. You definatly feel one with nature. We'll have to go on a warmer night though.
When we got back from our little adventure. I should them the video to the new Legend of Zelda game. Oh man that game is going to kick so much ass! I can't wait for it! Damn it just looks so fabulous.
After that Rob and Lydia had to go(also sad) and then shortly after Kate's had to go(.sadly as well)
This is when I decided to venture over to Eric's house. Which was cool and I plan on going over there again tomorrow night. Aparently one of the hot girls is going to bring over one of her hot friends for me, so we'll see how that goes over.
In other news I'm hungry but I really don't feel like cooking.
The new Metamorphasis pic intrigues me. I think everyone at the table there is Rob. I could be wrong but then again I could be right on the button.
I think that is enough for tonight. I'm sure I'll have more tomorrow night when I get home. So I'll update you then.
May 14th 2004
12:58a.m
Allright first thing I want to talk about is the Erica and I thing. I would like no one to comment about us anymore especially like on sites. I don't want anyone to talk shit about her either. She is a friend of mine and I care about her and if you care about me you won't go talking shit about her. So if your a friend of mine please do this for me. Second of all Erica and I both mistreated eachother during our relationship we relize that. Us breaking up wasn't all her fault I was to blame as well. This was both our first true love and our first long serious relationship. We both made mistakes during it and we have both gained and learned so much from it. So I just wanted people to know not to blame Erica for everything I'm to blame as well. Granted she did end the relationship like in a bad way but hey it's just how things went. Just another mistake you know. So lets just let the past be the past and move on. Things happen and there's nothing you can do about it. Just hold your head up high and keep on living.
I would like to thank everyone for their concern about me though, it's good to know I have some really great friends in my life
In other news the Metallca concert ruled so much ass! I was with Sexy Jesse for most part of the night. We got really close to the stage so it was awesome to be so close to James that I could have impregnated him. LOL!
My paychecks have been kicking some major ass as of late because I have been working so much. I love it. I see no reason why not to work so much. Well I guess there are a few reasons I can think of but oh well.
Hmmm you know I thought I had a lot more to talk about tonight but I really don't. I think it's becuase my head hurts so much. I need to get some sleep. Peace all.
May 11th 2004
9:43p.m.
Man oh man what a long day I just got done working a 12 to 9er. My legs are soooo tired. Yet I'm still up to go on my midnight strool. I love to walk at night. It's one of the most relaxing and peaceful thing. The best part of it is getting home and sitting down for the first time and just like melting into the seat and the feeling of total calm comes over you. Yes, midnight walks are definatly good.
Metallica is fucking tomorrow!!! Hell yeah! It's going to kick more ass then anything I have yet to see I beleive. Oh let time prevail this to be true!
Erica I hope that things start to smooth over for ya. I'm sorry that you are having all this stuff happen to you all at once. Remember if you ever need anything that I'm here for ya.
I bought these Barqes Frozen ice cream floats things tonight. I have to say I'm pretty dissapointed in them. I think they need more vanilla ice cream for sure.
Well I'm sure glad that I have tomorrow off of work. It'll give me some much needed time to catch up on things.
Mike hopefully I'll have an answer for ya tomorrow about the computer thing.
I need to catch up on my Rebirth books. I'm like 2 or 3 books behind! Not good.
Well that's enough for tonight. I'm going to go eat and then get ready for bed.
May 10th 2004
11:43a.m.
Hey what up I'm in class right now but I got done early so I thought I would give a quick update now since I never have time to update any other part of the day.
Things have been going well. I wish I had more free time to work on my bass skills but other then that things have been going well.
I went on my first date this weekend since Erica and I broke up. I have to say it went great! I really like the girl. She is very beautiful and just the sweetest nicest girl. We are suppost to go on another date this weekend. So that's awesome.
So I just came to the relization that next month this site will have been open for 2 whole years. It's really hard to believe that I have been doing this for that long. Just recently I was thinking of quiting the site. But after relizing that it has been open this long. I don't think I can close it. Even if no one reads this site anymore its still fun to look back at my archive to see what was happening back in the day. It's kinda like a journal.
12:58 p.m.
Well I have to go to work in about an hour, that's no fun. Oh well I'm use to it by now.
The Metallica concert is just a few days away man is it going to rock! Erica was suppost to bring me my ticket today but I have yet to see her??? Hmmm intriging.
I'm going to try to keep updating this site as much as possible even if it is just like once a week. Well I have things to do. Cya.