2:29p.m.
Hey y'all! How's everyone? Sorry for not updating for a bit. I've been a little occupied. We'll this weekend is looking good for me. I have tomorrow off from both work and school and then Saturday I work the morning but then I have the night off plus no work Sunday morning! Yeah me!
Well in other news Sentiments Edge has been practicing as much as we can recently. It's pretty awesome. I never reliazed just how cool pulling a song together is. You just feel like connected and a surge just rushes through your body. I can't wait til I get really good and can play Mudvayne and Metallica shit with ease.
Jerermy, Mike and I are planning on renting our own house here in either the winter or spring. We haven't really decided if we want to be home for one last Christmas you know? I think we probably will becuase that'll also give us more time to gather up the cash flow.
There's not really much else to talk about. I still am pumped about the Metamorphasis! I also hate Dan and his cool amp. I'm going to steal it becuase it made me hate mine! Damn you Dan. I hope things are going well with that chica for ya man.
We'll I'm out.
April 25th 2004
5:19p.m.
Today so far has been a grand day! Let's see I woke up, got ready, and then headed over to Erica's becuase we were going to have lunch together. WE'll we ended up inviting her parents to come along and we all went to Outback Steakhouse. It's was gooooood and I still have leftovers for tonight! Afterwards, Erica and I went up to PetSmart with her new dog which is a mini grayhound and cool as hell. We went there to get the dog a harness plus as a bonus it got a kick ass colar as well. We then ventured on home and Sofie(The Dog) was all over the place in the car. Silly Sofie. Erica and I then got my head to explode which you have no idea what the hell I'm talking about unless you were there. Come to think about it Erica your probably confused about that statment as well. Anywho after that Erica had to go to work and now I'm here. I have to get started on some homework plus I have to rum up to Wal-Mart which I plan on doing right after this.
I plan on having people over for tomorrow for wrestling(Raw) so if you would like to join just give me a call.
That's it for now. Cya!
April 21st 2004
2:07p.m.
I'm tired. I couldn't sleep last night. I didn't get to sleep til about 2 in the morning and I went to bed at 11, how bad is that. Hopefully I'll be able to fall sleep tonight. Now you may be thinking but Brian you are tired now as it is you should be able to fall asleep no problem tonight. Wrong you are! As much sense as that makes, it means nothing to me becuase my body likes to screw me over and be tired but not fall asleep.
In other news I'm getting a haircut tomorrow ooooo ahhhhhh! I know! Hehehehe and Erica has apparently dyed her hair so I'll get to see that tomorrow and she will see my hair tomorrow its just going to be one big hair extravaaganza!
Michael what do you do on Thurs. I tried to call you a couple times to go to that Chinese place for lunch but no answer. You better have a good reason punk!
Man Rob you keep pumping me up more and more for The New Glitch! Can't wait! Hope you found Hitman.
Umm that's all for now I guess I have to get ready for work once again.
April 20th 2004
2:06p.m.
Fact Of The Day: I have never celebrated 4/20.
Watch out for cars going 4 miles per hour today. There's going to be a lot of stoned people on the road today! Ah who am I kidding they won't be on the streets they'll be to baked to even get out of their seats.
Man it's starting to look like rain again I better go shut my car windows before I pull a me and forget that I have them open til an hour after its been raining.
Katie don't think you can get out of giving me those piano pieces so easily! Give them to me NOW!!! MUahahaha! I am Dr. EVilTine! OH wow I'v lost it.
So I shaved off my beard today. I originally did it cuz my other one was looking like crap. I was originally going to grow one back but now I think I might keep it off for awhile. So I can shave quiker and easier.
I'm getting pumped about Glitch Metamorphis!
Well I have to work here soon. So I better go get ready! Cya'll laters!
April 19th 2004
2:50p.m.
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Good Bye Blue Sky. Hello Darkness. No forget that. I'm tired of living in the dark for the last 3 months. I'm tired of Foever Rainfall pouring on my head and my head alone. It's time for me to push these clouds out of my way and bring back the sun! It's time for me to grow up and face the facts. My life has changed and there's nothing I can do about it. Time to make my life great again. I'm moving on from this moment forward. It's time for me to get back out there in this world. So I have decided that I not only stop being depressed about the past but I think I might try to go on a date here soon. It's pointless for me to sit around and feel shit faced for myslef. Why waste the one and only life I have on being depressed. So look out world, iNSOMNiA's back and he's not turning back. Time to live AGAIN!
April 18th 2004
1:56a.m.
Is this a test? It has to be. Otherwise, I can't go on.
I've done a lot of thinking and I've come to the conclusion that our Lord has a wierd way with things. Everything that happens must happen for a reason. Right? So why is my life unfolding like this. Have I sinned in the past that now its my turn to be prosacuted against. I know I have sinned, I know I have made mistakes. Is this some sort of punishment. Or is something gong to happen in the future that my life was suppost to turn like this. Ok, so I may have had a lot of time to think I didn't so it was going to make sense. All I know for sure is that I will move on, I will persavere. Even if its not in the direction I want it to go. I guess the is my Lord's love for me. Take my hand and guide me to whatever may come. Good or Bad, with you, I will be ready.
Allriight sorry to get all spiritual on you guys like that. Actually I'm not. It's how I have felt. So why should I second guess myself.
In other news Melissa, Mike, Jeremy, Dan and I went to Jokers tonight. It was a blast! When the second comedian went on stage he was like dancing so I rushed the stage and started to get down with my bad self. It was awsome! I even got some ass out of it! LOL! Ok, so it was his ass. LOL! Wow, that really sounds funny. Well if you care enough to know exactly what I'm talking about you'll ask.
Afterward we went and walked downtown for a bit. That was fun. There's a lot of action going on down there. Even a bus full of girls wanted to see our manly asses. Freaking pshyco's!
I had no voice today because I was singing for our band Cannibal Corpse style. It was ridiculous! But a good time to say the least. I would definatly do it again.
Tomorrow is Hoot-freakin-ers! That should be cool. Time to go get over charged for food!! Yeah man that rules! No, but on a serious level I'm looking foward to it.
Allright, well no one is online so I think I might roll on out! Cya'll!
April 15th 2004
11:31a.m.
This is going to be my last entry on the whole Jon and Erica thing. If you know me at all you know normally I wouldn't have even been so open on an issue to put it on my site. But I thought it was time to get out some of my opinions. So This is basically goign to be my Final Thought(Jerry Springer accent)
For the record Esy P and I were never firends so that means nothing to me nor was he ever in the Posse.
Frist off Jon you seem to think that I was the one to start all the fights between Erica and I but she did her share as well. I'd say it was at least 50/50. As for you leaving people when you start fighting that's you own deal. You never once saw me walk away or give up on Erica did you. I was still there after all the fights. I didn't give up I knew we were going to work through it. It would make no sense to give up so easily on something you hold so dearly. Now you say that if I really loved Erica I would have tried harder and not give up. I don't ever remembering giving up or not trying harder. I still called her everyday to see how she was doing. I still tried to hang out with her. I still got her things. I still brought her flowers to show her how much she means to me. I still threw her the most romantic Valentines Day possible! I never gave up. So I have no idea where you got that from. This last week though she told me to stop doing those things cus things weren't going to change and that she needed her space and so I have stopped and gave her, her space. I love her and respect what she wants. She is the one that wants to give up on us not me. Next thing is that I don't blame you for the whole break up, I know your only part of it. I have told Erica that I know I made some mistakes and so has she. She has told me constantly though that it is not my fault that we broke up. I know that some things are though.
As for the Trish thing goes I know I was wrong for what I did to her. I have apoligized to her for that. She doesn't even care about it anymore. You know what though that happened in 10th grade while we were all still growing and making mistakes. While we were all learning from them. Doesn't mean it was right but I know that I learned I would never do something like that again. I don't even know why you'd bring up the Hilary thing, yeah she had a boyfrined but did I even know the kid, so he's just like esy p not relevent. Still wasn't right of me to do though you are right about that. You ask why everyone calls you a pig though. Here's the thing we all have made mistakes you are right and we all have learned from them except for basically you. you seem to do the same shit you did when you were in 10th grade. Everyone has grown up except for you. You are still back in Highschool my friend. That is why everyone thinks you are a pig.
One thing I will never understand is how lucky you are. You better know how god damn lucky you are too. You don't deserve a girl like Erica. She is way to good for you. Even as a friend. I will never understand why she likes you. All you did for a year straight was say how much you hated her and how she was a bitch, how she was ugly, how she was nasty, how you thought she was stuck up little baby that got everything she wanted. So I'll never understand why Erica is as nice to you as she is. Oh and here's a good one for ya. You say that you love erica. Which if you really did you would have never tried/asked some other girl to have sex with you 2 weeks ago! I know some other junk that your ass did but I can not say becuase I promised. Just know though that I know who you really are and that you are a little vermin for how you treat people.
Jon I dunno where you get the idea Mikey and I hang out all the time now. Your right I did use to hate him with a passion. He did use to piss me off all the time by stuff he use to do, but he's starting to get better he's growing/learning so he's an okay guy. Don't get me wrong though I still don't like a lot of shit that he does and I'm sure he'll do something to piss me off down the road but for right now he's an okay guy. As for us hanging out 24/7 I dunno wher you got that from because In the last 3 months I've maybe seen him for a total of 2 hours. One hour Tues. cuz he was at the rwa thingy. And then one hour yestarday becuase he just happened to stop by. I guess this is 24/7 though!
Okay so I think that is about it Jon. I think I'm done. I hope so.
Erica I have one thing to say to you. You were my first true love. I will always love you never forget that. I will always remember all the good times we shared. Every single one of them. I am sorry things didn't work out for you. I hope that you find someone that makes you very happy. I love you more then anything you helped me to grow in so many ways and to look at things in totally diffrent way. Thank you so much! I will always love you and I will always hope that maybe someday down the road even if its two years from now that you''ll decide we were good enough to try to go out again becuase I know that I could make you happy and I know we would have a great family together. I love you!
April 14th 2004
7:17p.m.
In reply to what you said on your site Jon I would just like to know what I am assuming? As for you and I being bestfriends I did think that cuz i would talk to you still about my problems. I would talk to you about Erica and I's problems. As for me not hanging out with you when Erica and I first started going out, that happens man, its part of being with someone. You want to be with them 24/7 at first. Then down the road when I wanted to start hanging out with you it was to late becuase you and some other people were talking shit about Erica and how you hated her and thought she was totally wrong for me and that she treated me like shit. That kinda makes it hard to hang out with you when you don't respect me girlfriend so your right we weren't able to be the best of friends there. I loved Erica and having my friends not like her put a strain on our relationship so I couldn't really hang out with you when you thought of her badly. Don't deny though that you never thought of me as your best friend becuase you use to tell people that all the time. As for me not being mad at Erica you are wrong. When I found out she told you that she liked you I was crushed beyond belief. That killed me to know that she would do that to me. As for us fighting you are right we were going through a ruff spot there but nothing that we wouldn't figure out. That's what a long term relationship is about. You test eachother after a while kinda see what you can and can't do sorta. You kinda grow as a couple trying to find yourself while finding eachother. You can't have a long term relationship without any fights. After you fix the fights though you are closer to eachother then ever though which just makes everything awesome! As for us fighting in Ames, guess what, they were all about you. Every single one of our fights that we had after you guys told eachother that you liked eachother all came from that. You know what if you had backed off after the incident, Erica and I would have figured things out becuase we were allready starting to before you stepped in. I don't believe you were trying to help us though. Is that why you would call a billion times while I was hanging out with her, so that you could help, no I really don't think so. Is that why you would hang out with her 24/7. Is that why you would tell her you love her. No I really don't think that you were trying to help. Last thing is that you say the Posse always passed around the girls. This is true but guess what I was the first one to go out with Becca,Trish and Erica. All the others are irrelevent Cuz I never went out with them or did anything with them. So guess what I was never part of the passing around.
Well I better go get some dinner. I also have some homework to do. C'yall laters.
April 13th 2004
9:47p.m.
Allright Jon I didn't want to do this but apparently you do. I see on your site that you said I was being a dick to you. Okay we'll your right that I wasn't talking to you but I was in no way acting mean or dick like towards you. Do you really think I'm just going to act like you never did anything wrong towards me and just be your bestfriend again. No, I'm sorry I can't do that. What you did to me was wrong. Definatly the most wrong thing a friend can do to another friend. What's even more wrong is that you keep doing wrong things, when you say you want to fix things(of course you wouldn't tell me that you want to fix things, you have to tell Erica that you are sorry for what you did to me but you don't say it to me) The problem is Jon is that if you really wanted to fix things you would have backed off of Erica. You wouldn't be going for her. You would have never gone for her in the first place if you were a true friend but your not. I just think its sad that you say I'm the dick when in fact you are. You're the one that threw our friendship away. You're the one who keeps doing that. You're the one who screws over every single girl you go out with then try to turn it around and say it was their fault. What I will never get is how girls will tell me how big of a pig you are then later there making out with you and I'm not pinpointing any one girl here, I'm saying all girls in general they know your a pig yet they still go for you. I'll never understand it. Here's the thing though Jon. You and I as friends can no longer be. I'm sorry but after what you have done to me. I no longer want you to be a friend of mine. You hurt me a lot Jon and I really don't need that to ever happen again. I've known you for awhile now and I have to say I never expected you to do this to me. Hell when people asked me if I thought something between you two were going on I stood up for you. I was wrong though and I guess it really doesn't surprise me once I think about you have always been selfish when it comes to girls but oh well its over, done with, nothing I can do. Just remember that I did once think of you as my bestfriend but now I see that was stupid of me.
For the Record---Jon nor Erica ever did anything while we were going out like kiss or anything like that.
In other news I agree with you Rob I am dissappointed to see that Mikey never updates. C'mon Mikey get back with the game Dogg.
Work flew by tonight! It was grand don't know why exactly but just a good night I guess.
Well tomorrow I have school then I think I'm going to grill for lunch then wash my car, go to a baseball gamen and finally go see Whole 10 Yards if anyone is interested give me a call.
Well I'm out. Cya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(Once again this one is for you Rob)
April 13th 2004
12:28a.m.
Finally tonight is the night I have been looking foward to! I finally get to sleep in. I get to ctach up for once. No alarm for this bad boy. Only pure silence. This is wy I am going to go here soon becuase I am going to enjoy it to its fullest.
The SmackDown house show kicked major ass! It was great we had 1st row for like the first 4 matches becuase the ppl hadn't come yet to claim there seast and when they did we just had to go back one row. So we were right up in the action. I have to say it really makes all the diffrence in the world when you like right next to them.
So lets see as for today I went to school had an allright time there. Afterwards I went to Subway and then To RWA. It was cool to hang out with all the guys. I ended up wrestling a mtach but it sucked major ass. I am so rusty. That's allright though I will kick it out in HIV thats for sure and we shall be improving the ring and its really going to kick ass once we have it done which isn't actaully going to take much. Anyways we went to Ming's afterwards and then I had to leave early to go to my Dentist which I found out that within the year I shall be getting my wisdom teeth out. Which doesn't bother me one bit. It should be easy as cake. After the dentist I went to Best Buy to look for a CD that I ended up failing to find but I did see an old friend there. It was good to see ya Matt. Later I met up with Mike and we went to Fazolies and just missed seeing Mikey and his girlfriend there again. Then we went to wal-mart and saw Kristina then finally to Jeremy's for RAW. A grand night indeed.
Mikey made a kick ass video! Tight as hell my friend.
Well I think I'm going to go to bed now. I want to get as much Z's as possible. Cya. Ha no exclamation for you Rob. Hehehehehe.
April 8th 2004
11:52a.m.
Hello one and all! Sorry about not updating in awhile but unfortunatly I've been working like no other. It's all good though I don't mind it too much. Not yet anyways. Yeah I'm getting alot more hours becuase to of my fellow working companions can not work tat much during the summer if at all so I am like getting all their hours. I work a crazy 7 days in a row here this week then like 6 in the next couple weeks. Crazy stuff!
Rob you could not be more wrong my friend. The only thing that brings me back to the internet is the hope of reading something new on a site. I love them man. I look at least once a day for updates if not twice because I am just that god damn crazy!! Wooo!
I'm excited tonight after work I get to come home and watch the new Matrix! I bought it Tuesday but since I go to work and school so much I haven't had a chance to watch it yet but tonights the night my friends. Oh it should be so heavenly!
Well all my Dr.'s test came back normal which is great news don't get me wrong but I still want to know why I'm getting sick! So my doc hasn't quite decided what to do yet. I'm acutally waiting right now for them to call me back. Those punks! Always making people wait one way or another.
Smackdown in this Sunday and that should be cool as hell having Third row seats and all! Pimp on that Nugget Wendy! Booooya!
You know I really hate everything I write like poems and lyrics wise guys. I'm sorry I would give you some more of those but I got nothing right now, its all shit! So I end up getting frustrated or just you know think they suck and throw them away. I'm not sure why I shared that but I just wanted to let you guys know that I wish I could give you something else to read or enjoy besides my bloody ramblings.
Well I better save some words for my next update. Not sure exactly when that'll be but I hope not as long as this last time. iNSOMNiA out!
P.S. Kate's if your good I'll make a button for your site link. Hehehehehe!
April 2nd 2004
1:40a.m.
It's a new month and it time for another award winning entry.
I just got done watching The New Texas Chainsaw Massacre with Jeremy and Mike. I have to say it wasn't that bad. I liked it. I want to see the extras that Erica got on here Limited DVD. So I'm going to have to burrow that sometime. Oh and Jeremy next time don't be so rough on the little guy and then he won't bite. Oh man you guys are sick! I'm talking about Simba!
Man I haven't been up this late in awhile. I really should get some sleep since the room seems to be spinning. But I still really don't want to.
So Rob called me a glitchite hmmmm not bad oh sleepy you. I want to see these glitch women or whatever. When shall we be expecting there arrival?
Popcorn is evil. I think it exploded in my stomach.
No one is online. C'mooooooooooooooon people!!
I'm going to China Buffet for Lunch tomorrow never been there before. Hope its good.
Mike got online! I am no longer alone!!!!
Saturday is Prom. I hope to have a most enjoyable time. I'm sure I will since I'm going with the perfectus girl. Ok I relize perfectus isn't a word so shoot me ok.
Well due to lack of words I'm going to leave you with one last strech of them. Pigs only fly when the weather is higher on the east coast margrine butter.
8:41p.m.
Man time flew! I thought it was only 7:30 and bam its 8:30! This kicks some major assness. No I don't have to wait for Mike and Jeremy as long as I thought. We're going to do our usual Applebee's and then we are going to switch it up and come back to my house and kill some motha fuckers! Through a game of coures...Manhunt c'mon peeps.
So its the offical opposite day. Bet most of ya didn't know that. But don't worry you most likly didn't know cuz the day is pointless. Hah take that Opposite day!
Hmmm I think I'm going to go watch a movie cuz I really have nothing else to say. iNOSMNiA out!