This is for Aireith who demanded that I write a FY fic IN CHARACTER. Well, Aireith I shall give it my best shot.
WARNINGS: Spoilers for the show. Angst? Chichiri’s POV
By: Skylar Inari
They move across my mind in a never-ending dance.
My memories, that is.
Lately my dancers have switched partners, the old replacing the new.
I no longer watch the woman I love with my best friend move in time to music I don’t understand…
What I see now is what causes me at night to wake up with tears running down my face.
Every time the dance starts now I try to run away from the haunting music that serenades my battered mind forcing me to relive things I only wish to remember.
The music is starting now and the dancers come on stage to take their place in the movement.
First comes Nuriko…
A man who learned to let go of his past.
Then Chiriko…
A young child who shouldn’t have been involved.
And Mitsukake…
The doctor who ultimately gave his all to his chosen career.
And finally, Hotohori…
The Emperor who cared unselfishly.
My memories of them stream through my mind lifted and twisted by the melodies I hear.
I see each of their deaths over and over again.
I feel the pain of losing them thrice as strong.
The shadow dancers…
The bearer’s of the saddest memories I possess.
Only when I can come to peace with the events that stripped my friends from me, shall the ghost’s reenactment of their own agonies come to a halt.
I can’t do that yet.
The battle between Konan and Kutou took too much out of all of us remaining.
Tasuki has not yet returned to his mountain home…
He says that he wants to stick around me for a little while longer.
I am grateful for that.
It means that I will not have to fight the shadow dancers by myself…
He’s fighting the same battle I am.
To remember, but not relive.
And maybe working together the shadow dancers can be laid to rest…
And end this battle. . .
For good this time.
~Owari~
Aireith…I don’t know what you wanted but this is what you got. I still think I mutilated Chichiri’s personality though…. *sighs* I tried, really I did!